• sometimes and today, i hate capital letters. i do usually make lists without them, though.
  • i like trying to remember specific books from my early childhood. they mean something, don't they?
  • i wonder if some people know how uncomfortable they make me.
  • i keep realising and remembering, but i don't think some things ever become real to me. even when they're already happening. like my last math states convention. like, i think, graduation. (soon soon soon ...)
  • i say this entirely too often. but i have a ridiculously low tolerance for noise sometimes. especially at home. and it makes me irritable and it makes my head pound.
  • why is the built-in microphone on my laptop so horrible?
  • i am all sorts of ready for writing "novel-length" messages in yearbooks.
  • those in mine that will say little more than their names are going to be saddening.
  • i'm wondering how i'm making up all that work for my elective class. because this month of ib exams basically ate up my last grading period.
  • i can't remember the last time i haven't been exhausted. i am so tired of being tired.
  • i am going to take a nap. and then dye my hair slightly red. and then look over connectors and verb conjugations for tomorrow's french exam, because i haven't touched french for three weeks.
  • oh, so i don't think french will at all fit in my schedule next year. and i'm so scared of forgetting everything i've ever learned.
  • making lists is cathartic. i feel like i haven't done this in a while. and it feels good.
  • and i almost posted this on my tumblr. but i couldn't do it.
  • i am now entirely done with ib :) i still have to go back to school for two weeks, but my actual efforts put into the program itself have been entirely spent! i think that dizzy feeling when i got home today was a result of four years just settling over me. i don't regret it, though, i don't. i may not have savoured every moment, but this has been a fulfilling experience :)
  • i went pottery painting afterwards with one of my best friends. i placed on the night sky of a small mug a moon and stars. we also went thrifting afterwards, and i finally, finally have a plain white button-up shirt.
  • dear heart, spare me a little grief sometimes, if you would please. but i guess that's what makes me human. i can feel i can feel, even if it's all too strongly at times.
  • my hair is now kissed by flames and i shall dance in sunlight every day, even if the sunlight is sometimes in my imagination only
  • she made me realise how soothing orange juice is; oh, i drink so much of it
  • i practiced my spoken french today, just for fun, and was told how "very french" my tendency to speak with my hands is! and she called me a natural, haha! also, my first teacher said that i spoke without thinking today :) i don't think that my french is quite as good as all that, but ahh, that made me happy
may 22 2011 ∞
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