———— august

• 02. i think i am having the most memorable summer of my adulthood. for the first time in years, i feel truly free to enjoy my vacation. since 2022, i have always carried the weight of needing to get my degree; that i had to go to university to sort out some paperwork (because there was always something i had to take care of, lol), things that i had to pay... this summer i simply felt... free. i was able to go to my favorite beach in san diego, even if just for an afternoon, and i even have plans for september. 07. i went back to the gym! it felt really nice to see again the new friends i made this year and, more than anything, i really appreciated that they missed me. 22. i traveled for the first time with my university friends, and i realized how much i have overcome my anxiety. i felt very happy to be in the city during those days and to see the sunset over the sea. it felt almost magical.

———— july

• 01. my favorite season of the year is returning: summer! and once again, i will spend a large part of it in another city—only this time i go happily, free of any responsibilities. sure, now i have to find a job, but i have decided to continue enjoying this feeling of not carrying guilt all the time for my “miserable” achievements and just... be happy. i will find the perfect job for me in 2026. 27. i had the blessing to visit sea world in san diego twice and go to the water park at sesame’s place. it felt magical and i definitely felt like i was making the most of summer. i tanned, was in the water, saw sea animals... all while being with my family.

———— june

———— may

———— april

• 12. i have been having a lot of mixed feelings about my love life... i have basically been going around in circles about it for as long as i can remember, but as i slowly become the only single person in my group of friends, i can’t lie: it feels strange. singleness is breathing down my neck. 16. i felt sad because this easter vacation i didn’t go to the beach. i love, love, love the ocean, however, it’s difficult for me to go on my own, so i have to rely on others to go. i didn’t even go anywhere on vacation. 28. i took action to get my degree once and for all!

———— march

• 05. i got sick... pretty ugly. for two days (and a half) my throat was swollen and, therefore, i was feeling horrible. it had been a long time since i had gotten sick like that and thank god it only lasted two days because, if the time of the illness had been extended longer, i probably would have gone crazy. it hurt me to have had to miss the gym but, between my delusions, at least i couldn’t pay attention to it. 17. i’m starting to meet more people! it also struck me that there are people in the gym who think i’m nineteen or twenty. 22. i know the situation is bad when i start crying while doing makeup, i don’t like how my clothes fit and i feel like everyone is against me... i’m trying to see the bright side of things but i've had some bad moments lately. 23. i’ve been hanging out with my friends more, and i’ve had a great time! it’s been a rough few days for me, but at least i have a place to go to distract myself.

———— february

• 07. i’ve been in the gym for a month and the truth is that i’ve been enjoying it a lot. it’s my happy time of the day when i can focus on more than just my own existence. 14. i was really excited for valentine’s day but i ended up being very anxious. 17. i was finally given news of my internships, however, there was a problem with one of the two internships... i am doing everything possible so that, finally, this whole process with which i have been, literally, occupied with for years.

———— january

• 07. i did what i have wanted to do for months: i entered the gym, marking the beginning of my journey to take better care of my body. the opportunity was given to me and i took it and, best of all, i am not forced to go alone. 20. i’ve been thinking a lot about the second generation of k-pop and how different it is compared to k-pop now. it was in the second generation where i discovered this genre, so i have it very close to my heart, especially girls’ generation. 31. i completed four weeks in the gym, and i feel very happy with it. it feels really nice to do something productive and eat all three meals a day.