- i get a tense, obsessive feeling about certain things, namely:
- the various speeds of windshield wipers,
- when my blinker matches or doesn't match the rhythm of the blinker from the car in front of me,
- when people leave their blinkers on,
- which side the opening of my pillowcase is on in regards to my bed at home home. not the bed i sleep on every night,
- the directions that my things face in the medicine cabinet. to the right for everything except my lotion with the pump, my toothpaste (nozzle goes to the left,) and my band-aids (the back faces forward)
- when i'm not thinking, i count my steps, usually up to 8 (1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,1,2....),
- i have a big problem with germs, especially mouth germs, so:
- i can't share drinks with certain people because i get bad feelings about their mouth germs, even if they are completely hygenic people,
- there is nothing more disgusting than chewed gum...on the ground, in garbage cans, and definitely in a mouth being chewed,
- i just convulsed thinking about spit on the ground. it literally scares me
- i can't touch doors with my bare hands; i use my feet if possible or gloves whenever i can
- i really like to feel even. evenly covered (clothing, my bedding, make-up, etc), evenly placed in a room (always have to sit in the middle of the room if i can), like to do things on both sides.
jan 23 2008 ∞
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