I'M DOING SOMETHING REALLY BIG AND SCARY!

Don't really need to diet...but I do want to eat healthier this summer.

• Quasi-vegetarian
  • Fruit
  • Vegetables
  • Fish
  • Eggs
  • One allowance of meat per month (because I love meat.)
• Vitamins
• No junk food
  • Organic chips for salsa allowed
• Mainly, if not all, organic foods
• No snacking
  • Two to three small meals

• cute
• has a cat
• plays an instrument
• is in a band
• hometown is near my hometown
• intelligent
• knows a lot about movies and film
• has a good sense of humor
• has a mustache
• makes movies
• is really nice
• has a job

i gots it bad!!!

• 90's alternative plaid, loose fitted, tacky shirts back when i was little
• crimping of the hair, or, ooh, crimping with little shapes like hearts or stars....
• bell bottoms, the bigger, the better
• actually the whole hippie craze when i was in elementary school
• peasant blouses
• bright blonde highlights in my dark hair
• old navy vests
• flip flops all year long
• platform sandals
• side swept bangs
• those shirts with sequins all over the front
• skinny jeans

• ✔ new formatting on listgraphy, yeeeah!
• ✔ summer is coming!
• ✔ working at the fruit stand!!
• ✔ summer parties!
• ✔ hayley's baby!
• ✔ getting the heck outta dodge (school)!!
• ✔ georgia nicolson movie!
• ✔ georgia nicolson book!!
• ✔ spa!
• ✔ seeing megan again!
• ✔ dance class!!!
• ✔ competitions!!!!
• ✔ searching and finding the gravity hill!
• ✔ food!
• ✔ getting a crazy tan!
• ✔ eating fruit constantly!!
• ✔ being home with my friends!
• ✔ roadtripping!

and more!!

• keep your cell phone some place where you can't just pull it out and call/text inappropriate people
• don't give your cell to your friend; they will inevitably call/text someone inappropriate
• on the same note, don't get on myspace or facebook or any other networking site and post comments or bulletins
• recognize when you feel comfortable with the people there
• drink water constantly
• eat bread constantly
• don't eat something weird right before
• find someone to buddy up with
• go on at least one crazy adventure...without killing anyone
• it's a hard one, but don't drive
• don't drink if you're upset, it only makes you an unhappy drunk and you will be punished by throwing up

• my moon my man {feist}
• orange sky {alexi murdoch}
• shit luck {modest mouse}
• charmer {kings on leon}
• the news {ivana xl}
• a minor incident {about a boy}
• daydreamin' ft. jill scott {lupe fiasco}
• van helsing boombox {man man}
• ice dogs {man man}
• tiny cities made of ashes {modest mouse}
• kick push {lupe fiasco}
• sellers and addicts {swordplay}
• uncle sam goddamn {brother ali}
• hoodoo voodoo {billy bragg and wilco}
• sweetie pie {ivana xl}
• from california to houston {six parts seven}
• baby i'm yours {math and physics club}
• loose lips {kimya dawson}
• you're my lover now {the teeth}
• superstar {lupe fiasco}

• needy vs. independent
• touchy feeling vs. hands to myself
• LOUD vs. quiet
• unable to speak eloquantly vs. good vocabulary
• very aware of myself vs. feeling normal
• careful with balance so i don't make a fool of myself vs. clumsy
• smoker vs. non-smoker
• unhappy vs. unhappy
• happy vs. happy
• vomiting vs. unhappy

• the shoes people wear
• the way that people walk, especially how they pick up their feet
• how boys greet each other, compared to how girls greet each other
• how a certain part in a piece music can profoundly effect a person
• how people treat their parents
• nervous ticks that people have
• my anxiety when the windshield wipers are going too fast
• whether someone in a posistion of power gives even minute respect
• the small details about a person that really make their story
• how friends tend to dress and wear their hair the same way
• when a guy is trying to flirt
• whether a person's shoes match/coordinate with their jacket
• who or what kind of person a commercial i...

• scooping ice cream
• washing dishes by hand
• emptying the dishwasher
• shopping
• weeding out the garden
• calling people
• making appointments
• making food
• homework
• random 'will-ya-give-me-a-hand' moments
• decorating

• plant growing contest
• photography
• dancing times a million
• writing
• poetry
• having the worst attitude at a family reunion {sour puss award, i got a medal}
• naming my uncle the as the murderer on the mystery murder dinner train
• spelling bee
• hall of fame at my dance school for being awesome
• best tattoos award. i just gave it to myself

• honesty
• polite-ness
• some sort of attempt to be kind to their parents
• humor
• intelligence
• good conversation
• tact
• ambition
• the ability to be humble
• outgoing personalities
• when they have issues and are working to correct them
• imperfection
• i like when people embrace their oddities
• kindness to strangers
• good music taste. their own, specifically. and when they have good reasons for liking the music that they like
• purpose

• modest mouse {10 times}
• the killers
• franz ferdinand {2 times}
• keane
• the shins
• snow patrol {2 times, unfortunately}
• israfel
• hot hot heat
• weezer
• foo fighters
• t.v. on the radio
• rocky votolato
• arthur and yu
• love as laughter {2 times, bleh}
• man man
• incubus
• presidents of the united states of america {2 times}
• ok go
• silversun pickups
• big d & the kids table {2 times}

• postsecrets
• wish jar
• learning to love you more
• dear ada
• vintage german wallpaper great place for desktop and myspace back...
• you ain't no picasso
• WHYME: worst music you've ever heard
• listography of course
• threadless t-shirts
• the internet movie database
• wikipedia
• ballotpedia if you're ever unsure about issues in yo...
• popcap games
• lolcats
• basically a forum to find lyrics and dis...
• BEST SITE EVER. all i can say is...beard...
• create a picture of you with your favori...

• I promise to be more outgoing
• I promise to be more emotionally open
• I promise to be AT ALL emotionally open
• I promise to tell people the truth
• I promise to do things for myself, put myself first
• I promise to be open to new things and experiences
• I promise to do things that scare me
• I promise to try to secure and nurture a relationship
• I promise to be nice and give people a chance
• I promise not to put myself down so much

• Tonton, Ton thé t'a-t-il ôté ta toux?
  • Uncle, did your tea take away your cough?
• Natacha n'attacha pas son chat qui s'échappa.
  • Natasha did not tie up her cat, who escaped.
• Didon dîna, dit-on, du dos d'un dodu dindon.
  • Didon ate, it is said, from the back of a fat turkey.
• Poisson sans boisson--c'est poison!
  • Fish without wine--it's poison!
• Si mon tonton tond ton tonton, ton tonton sera tondu.
  • If my uncle shaves your uncle, your uncle...

Visit Keri Smith's blog [http://www.kerismith.com/blog/]

it's pretty amazing.

• Go for a walk. Draw or list things you find on the the sidewalk.
• Write a letter to yourself in the future.
• Buy something inexpensive as a symbol for your need to create, (new pen, a tea cup, journal). Use it everyday.
• Draw your dinner.
• Find a piece of poetry you respond to. Rewrite it and glue it into your journal.
• Glue an envelope into your journal. For one week collect items you find on the street.
• Expose yourself to a new artist, (go to a gallery, or in a book.) Write about what moves you about their work.
• Find a photo of a person you do not know. Write a brief bio about them.
• Spend a day drawing only red things.

• if you feel like you want out of the relationship, for god's sake, just tell her. don't carry it on to spare her feelings. because it doesn't.
• do it quickly, and be polite.
• no matter how casual the situation is, let her know if you're moving on to someone else. it'll be worse if she finds out some other way.
• let her get mad, let her cry, and give her the space she needs to move on.
• be respectful. unless she's keying your car and hanging dead fish in your curtains, you don't get to to talk shit.
• don't avoid her when you see her somewhere afterwards. a friendly wave and a 'hey, how are you doing?' works wonders.
• think about it...is it really a good idea to hook up with someone new near where she works or hangs out? just...no. don't do it.

i've seen this list done a few times, so i thought i'd go ahead and hop on the bandwagon. things i DON'T really like are crossed off.

• #93 Music Piracy
• #92 Book Deals
• #91 San Francisco (haven't spent too much time there, but it didn't make my top five.)
• #90 Dinner Parties
• #89 St. Patrick’s Day
• #88 Having Gay Friends
• #87 Outdoor Performance Clothes
• #86 Shorts
• #85 The Wire
• #84 T-Shirts
• #83 Bad Memories of High School
• #82 Hating Corporations
• #81 Graduate School
• #80 The Idea of Soccer
• #79 Modern Furniture

• perezhilton.com
• america's next top model
• shopaholic books
• eating ice cream by myself
• the sims 2
• what not to wear
• dirty, fluffy books
• nelly furtado's first album
• grammar
• harry potter
• lolcats
• glimore girls
• MLA formatting, especially doing bibliographies

to be continued....

• going through the tunnel in the old charlie and the chocolate factory
• in zoolander, when the assistant gives mugatu the foamy latte and they make weird noises at each other
• when harold and maude wake up together in harold and maude
• there's an older version of sweeny todd out there [the ben kingsley take on it] and there's a kissing scene and there is licking of the teeth and eeeeegh
• any scene where i'm forced to imagine woody allan having sex
• in pyscho, when bates is locked up in the straight jacket in the cell. what a creeper
• OH! that crazy movie that cecily and i watched about the scientist who takes all the drugs and locks himself in the isolation chamber. yeah, when we crawls out and ...

• edward scissorhands
• the royal tenanbaums
• lost in translation
• little miss sunshine
• The darjeeling limited
• about a boy
• the life aquatic with steve zissou
• say anything
• click. seriously. the other day. WTF.

• leo tolstoy
• sylvia plath
• jk rowling
• frank mccourt
• charlotte bronte
• louise rennison
• meg cabot
• sophie kinsella
• charles bukowski
• joseph heller
• tim burton
• ray bradbury
• emily bronte
• ayn rand
• fyodor dostoevsky

• apartments
• cost of apartments...less than current living situation
• food cost
• csi, i am amazing.
• temperature when walking to first class. (1 degree!!)
• frozen hair

if i were writing a story about betsy, these are the details i might include (based purely on supposition and perhaps my own imagination, haha....)

• she has a uniform of straight-legged jeans and band shirts
• she doesn't generally wear make-up, but when she does it seems like there's a reason. i'm not sure that it's a matter of insecurity, more like a sense of importance in the situation
• the emotions of others can affect how she feels about a instance-positively or negatively. it's not really an adoption of others opinions, but rather an osmosis of their feelings and a sympathy for it
• she seems more comfortable with guys, but if you know her well enough, you get to see a girly side
• she's quiet when she's tired or has just woken up

• yossarian (catch-22)
• nately (catch-22)
• the chaplain (catch-22)
• dunbar (catch-22)
• dave the laugh (confessions of georgia nicolson)
• levin (anna karenina)
• roark (the fountainhead)
• rearden (atlas shrugged)
• draco malfoy (harry potter)
• major major (catch-22 again)
• michael (the princess diaries)
• house (house (t.v.))
• george (grey's anatomy (t.v.))
• j.d. (scrubs (t.v.))
• evan (superbad)
• william (about a boy)

• show overt, unpretentious kindness towards others
• use big words
• listen to modest mouse
• value the things that they have
• don't let the world get them down
• have fun quirks
• have a laugh that makes me laugh
• read harry potter
• read other good books
• protect the people they love
• can share a comfortable silence with me
• question the mass majority
• have good reasons for their opinions
• dance
• can entertain themselves
• are helpful
• try to avoid prejudices and attempt to overcome biases.

• got my drivers license
• rode on the biggest stand-up rollercoaster in the world
• went to college
• got my dance teachers license
• graduated high school
• went to my first concert
• invited keyan to go to the snow patrol concert
• took the job at the fruit stand

i have a lot of good memories :)

• when i was five years old and my {now deceased} grandpa gave me an altoid and then pretended to steal my stuffed animal
• my first dance lesson when i was seven years old
• my first dance competition at the same age
• any one of the times that i sat outside on the playground with my elementary school friends and we told each other our jokes and dreams
• the moment when people in high school realized that i was a cutie
• that one time in 11th grade when kirsten and i skipped french and spent the time eating good food, exploring a creepy, abandoned house, and enjoying the day on the beach
• reading my english prof's recommendation letter for me

• a mustache, please
• intelligence
• at least one plaid shirt in his wardrobe
• maturity
• the ability to out drink me
• the ability to go a week/weekend without drinking
• he should be able to discuss literature with me
• he's gotta send shivers down my legs when he sits next to me
• taller is gooder
• nice eyes and nice teeth and nice cheekbones
• call me out on my shit
• i'd really like him to appreciate that tattoo on my ribcage
• actually any really fantastic facial hair would be good
• however no frat boy goatees, silly little beards, or unibrows. if you're gonna go,...

• i'm a coward
• i can be a bitch when i don't need to be
• i get angry about unreasonable things
• and i let reasonable things to be angry about slide
• i pop my knuckles when i'm nervous
• i lie
• i've dropped people out of my life who didn't do anything wrong
• often i don't stick up for myself
• i go to great lengths trying to help people, even when they don't deserve it, just to maintain their friendship
• i think i might be a jealous person, but i've stifled it
• i adopt the characters of others just to mask aspects of my own character
• i'm lazy
• i'm good at shutting out things that need to be noticed
• sometimes i just live in the past. i don'...

• to be british
• to have the ability to do the splits
• to be out of the united states for longer than a month
• to make a great reading list
• to read my great reading list
• to date people who are very different from each other
• to date someone with a fantastic mustache...initially just for his mustache
• to learn how to play guitar
• to get over myself
• to see my favorite band more than 6 times
• to learn how to speak russian
• to learn how to ballroom dance
• to get my masters in english literature
• to live in seattle
• to read tolstoy
• to create my own philosphy
• to have incrediable sex

• replace this text with your list
• begin each item with an asterisk

• Washington state
  • I cannot begin to describe how much I love Washington. It's so beautiful here.
• Getting my school schedule worked out for next quarter
  • Feels damn good.
• Yoga
• The novelty of drinking legally
• Planning my next tattoos
  • I have two in mind.
• Farmer's markets
  • Especially Port Townsend...can't wait to get over there again.
• Compliments
  • Giving and getting.
• Realizing how close I am to finishing my ...

i have not seen most movies in the world, so we're on a mission to make me see a lot of movies this year....

• get smart
• a league of their own
• across the universe
• waitress
• stardust
• the hottie and the nottie
• shawn of the dead
• death at a funeral
• things we lost in the fire
• hairspray
• love actually
• why did we get married?
• dreamgirls
• tropic thunder
• smart people
• the office seasons 1-4
• narnia: the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe

• it's really, really pretty out! super sunny
• finally, the temperature is somewhat summery
• i get to do farmer's market
• bread guys will give me free bread, yummmmmm
• i'll get paid for monday
• one of my friends will probably be working at the stand
• i get to take a nice long drive and i'm going to listen to modest mouse the whole ride
• if i leave early enough, i will be able to get the most delicious coffee ever
• i'm gonna eat a ton of fruit today
• my dinner will most likely consist of new fruit, and fresh bread
• all of my favorite customers are usually around
• no more fucking cherries!

okay...come on...i've got a quiz tomorrow...must...read...othello.... ahhhhhh....

• looked through 376 pictures in a facebook group
• read a story
• read a msn article on the ten worst reality dating shows ever
• bought some food
• had an epic texting converstation
• looked up my spa treatment at gene juarez
• checked hotmail 32,392,348,902 times
• sang along to my music while watching my birthday balloon slowly die and sink to the ground
• looked for and began buffering a copy of 'old school' because i've never watched that movie and i totally should
• watched gilmore girls
• watched two episodes of ninja warrior
• channel surfed

• i wasn't drunk
• i took a modeling class, that's how i know
• i was drunk
• let's hang out next weekend
• yes, i'll go on a date with you
• i didn't prank call her
• that {cup, drink, object, etc.} isn't mine
• i was/am sick
• i missed the bus
• i was born in scotland
• i stayed late at school
• no, i'm not going to be sick
• he's just here because he had extra time before work. so we're watching a movie to pass time
• yeah, i don't really like that {food,person, movie, etc.}
• i have to go do a family thing
• i called you, but it just rang and rang. ...

• subservient
• cohesive
• moot
• biases
• ambivalent
• prerogative
• apathetic
• mimosa
• zipped
• assumption
• mustachioed
• loathe
• derived
• assassin
• naivety
• ineptitude
• initially
• copulate
• literally
• ubiquitous
• clad

• i get a tense, obsessive feeling about certain things, namely:
  • the various speeds of windshield wipers,
  • when my blinker matches or doesn't match the rhythm of the blinker from the car in front of me,
  • when people leave their blinkers on,
  • which side the opening of my pillowcase is on in regards to my bed at home home. not the bed i sleep on every night,
  • the directions that my things face in the medicine cabinet. to the right for everything except my lotion with the pump, my toothpaste (nozzle goes to the left,) and my band-aids (the back faces forward)
• when i'm not thinking, i count my steps, usually up to 8 (1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,1,2....),
• i have a big problem with germs, especially mouth germs, so:

in no particular order

• horse noses
• cashmere
• the surface of the water
• metal that has a satin finish
• kitties
• my old stuffed animal when it is cold
• really soft towels
• the sides of a warm coffee mug
• silverware that has just come out of the dishwasher
• the edge of a book with uneven, roughly cut paper

• laundry!
• clean room
• check car
• read t.s. issue
• pack!
• talk to hayley (parking?)
• post office
• find visitor parking
• set up tivo
• get directions (gps, duh.)
• parking?
• cash. get some. ($20?)
• check account

• western washington
• modest mouse
• my kitten
• books
• mustaches
• boys
• thai food
• italian food
• laughing
• good friends
• grey's anatomy
• things in technicolor
• hummingbirds
• sleeping
• rain
• windstorms
• my car
• holiday flavors at starbucks
• starbucks in general
• seattle
• some people in my family

• cheezit
• plain yogurt and granola parfait. no fruit
• fresh, organic fruit from the fruit stand i work at in the summer
• especially shamrock apples, pluots, and donut peaches
• gingerbread {this holiday time of year}
• chips and fresh salsa. organic, if possible. i'm obsessed with it
• ice cream
• butter lettuce with italian dressing
• baguette and melted brie
• toast

• i'm good at doing my makeup
• i smile at people who i walk by
• i'm polite to most people who deserve it. especially people who have to do stuff for me. i.e. waiters, baristas, friends, family, etc
• most of the time i look people in the eye when i talk to them
• i try to help people out
• people say i'm entertaining
• my writing is excellent...usually
• i know how to let people have their own space
• i'm quiet
• i enjoy good literature!
• i really want people to be happy...on their own terms
• i think the things i like are really cool
• i'm a freaking dancer!
• i do unto others as i would have done unt...

• barenaked ladies
• beck
• ben kweller
• bishop allen
• bright eyes
• built to spill
• death cab for cutie
• dr. dog
• gogol bordello {saw them on 03.10.08}
• harvey danger
• jack johnson
• the kooks {saw them on 12.06.07}
• matt costa
• minus the bear
• new young pony club
• the postal service
• radiohead {saw them on 04.09.12}
• sufjan stevens
• violent femmes
• the white stripes

• when people forget to turn their blinkers off
• spitting
• chewing gum
• when people put used gum anywhere except for in the trash can
• bad grammar
• and to go along with that: most especially when people use too many commas, or use your/you're/there/their/they're/to/two/too/hear/here incorrectly
• when people don't know what you're talking about, but pretend to anyway
• my roommates
• wearing shoes
• when people brush their teeth in the shower
• capital letters. those are ugly
• people who don't know how to merge with traffic. or try to use merging as an excuse to cut in front of a lot of people

• spiders
• my car breaking down or running out of gas on the tacoma narrows bridge. or any long, busy bridge for that matter
• people who dress up in costumes. i.e. clowns, disney character people, mascots, etc.
• strong, positive emotions. i feel oddly comfortable with negative ones
• failing
• ending up with no one; in both a platonic and romantic sense
• my kitty dying
• rejection
• spit
• chewed gum
• germs