december

• started the month with big love for and from tbz / i love the december breeze / nanay's birthday: hearing mass at 5am, jollibee breakfast, loyola visit, walking around and playing badminton / dreadful finals week / getting my hair cut as a coping mechanism for the exam stress / growing more fond of my friends ky and nix as we share feelings about school and kpop / went to mega for our last weekend in manila / met up with my (highschool to) college friends for our phyed finals. fun day / finishing my parts on our fili finals the last minute before my vacation / spending the holidays in mami's province

november

• catching up with chachi, i miss high school / the boyz comeback! cant wait to get my hands on the storybook / feeling extremely lonely. why would november greet me with such sadness / found yerin's my happy ending cover so i played avril lavigne all afternoon / undas visit, aka the first time i reached my walking goal / much needed acad break / getting sick again (atp, i think i catch a fever atleast once a month) but feeling better after sleeping it off / grief. recurring grief. getting reminded of life's fragility / tyne's birthday celebration: decorating, swimming, karaoke, lotsa foods / my birthday falling on a sunday / ic with eric for edge which i enjoyed a lot because he was so nice to me / failing and failing and failing chem. so disappointed at myself / friends sending me birthday gifts :( kilig / submitting my first ever org pubmat! been a while since i felt proud of my work. im happy / mami coming home with mcdo fries and mcflurry & ky sending me potato corner while i was watching Her Love Boils Bathwater / getting my booster shot / celebrating tita thes' birthday on the 30th / realizing how productive i can get when i work out of the house / november, you were a kind month <3

october

• first october weekend was kind to me :) / i have been feeling very hyunjae loving lately / laying down my newly change bed sheets while watching bori log / im officialy a tutubaby! exciting things for laan / went to montalban to give some of our plants to tita, we had iskrambol and i studied in their veranda. i hope we had the same space at home / weeks when i actually had the drive to do things. that i actually enjoyed studying / news of the boyz comeback on my birth month / failing my chem lec midterms. what do we feel about that / third weekend was a nightmare for me i was so close to pulling an all nighter / the joy of anticipating tbz teasers to drop! thrill-ing felt like yesterday / the rush of bad days and getting tired of academics / maverick really seems so promising. i cant wait!!! / why are there so much sadness stocked for this month? i never got a consistent good week ;__; / loyola for my pe midterms. i think my family enjoyed / it was an overall awful month /

september

• merry christmas! / i'm making friends again :o) / qualifying for the dost scholarship #wao / my greece friends for being so welcoming and competitive / member mixer improv with ate sheanne ate samm ees and wes. i enjoyed it a lot :-) / love, yerin covers album. i love love love you yerin thank you for your music / met my podsib, joy. she's v cool / member mixer & the dc after party! met some upperclassmen but im not sure if i left a good first impression / happy birthday, hyunjae ♥ / binge watched squid game in a day.... labo ng ending / getting sick again / walking with juyo and kev

august

• walking out on a windy day to get my x-ray result / getting my eyes checked and knowing they're still fine lol / losing my mind over the boyz comeback / orsem week!!! kinda excited for college hahah / this hyunjae edit <3 / enlisting for the first time ever / taeyong and his fish friends comeback in the 127 teasers :) / cutting my hair short after a year + / im in college now!!! / the boyz loving :) / cobbie vlive while i do my modules

july

• no internet for days!!! / getting sick after sleeping late hahah / buying the best recovery food (goto) from a pretty breakfast place with tita / the rainy days are here / transferring my tv to the sala and now i can watch shows in the afternoon / upgrading our connection to fibr / my parents buying pineapple jam when i craved for it a day before. magic / watching mary is happy, mary is happy / taking a zoom class picture on the last day of high school / unli wings for sunday dinner / graduated high school! / online thrifted for the first time yasssss / celebrated nanay's 10th year, i miss her very much / cajun seafood picnic and so much more yummy food / went out with parents / sundays at home / last hang out with my g12 barkada / rowoon and inseong :( / elina's birthday & saw friends again <3 / thrifted again!!! after so long / waiting for tbz teasers to drop every night and joining chaotic spaces for it / met a totga coursemate! aaah its been a while since i made a friend / tupig and pancit canton for merienda / walking with juyeon and kyu

june

• walking out again / playing cards with teej, tita, mami / recurring grief / i love my grade 12 barkada / teej's birthday, great food! cheesecake for me / hospital playlist season 2 / research nights with birbs / xy visited, i love her very much <3 / playing with baby A because she regained her energy / a big jug of orange juice / days of staying up until 5am / song kang madness

march

• karaoke w teej and tyne. sang kpop. great tunes & great food! / taeyong and his fish friends :( / lukey smiling whenever i ask him to clap his hands / the boyz loving