• Favorite virtue: my rational mind wants me to say gratitude but soul whispers freedom. And I don’t quite know what she means, I think both freedom as a state and more importantly inner freedom that once truly achieved cannot be taken away, don’t know if it exists but if it does it requires all the other virtues and an enormous strength of character.
• Favorite qualities in a man: taking action when it needs to be taken, with honesty and integrity.
• Favorite qualities in a woman: a woman who knows what she wants, plus same as in a man.
• My chief characteristic: not knowing.
• What I appreciate the most in my friends: who they are and the time we shared
• My main fault: not loving as deeply as I wish I would
• Favorite occupation: connecting, to ideas...

that elevator scene in the shining with the blood pouring out is beautiful. that scene on the stairs when he yells at her is horrifying.

a vision of a lotus flower emerging from my mouth...what could that mean?

Petroica rodinogaster

• what are you trying to tell me by constantly playing in my head?

• those that I guard I do not love
• nightmares
• pain
• fear

• song: Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns by Mother Love Bone
• musician/band: Grouper and Cocteau Twins
• this story for all the wrong reasons: Pure Monday by Ivan Bunin
• the quote that stayed true: We do not see things as they are. We see things as we are.
• What, You Egg? [He Stabs Him] by William Shakespeare

• my guilty pleasure: lying to taxi drivers. about everything
• if i had a penis i would name it: Benedick
• one useless thing i used to do: write my notes at school backwards

“I must be cruel only to be kind; Thus bad begins, and worse remains behind.” Shakespeare's Hamlet

“After all, the cherry blossom blooms every year, but does anyone find it the less lovely for that?” Sei Shōnagon

“A night of endless dreams, inconsequent and wild, is this my life; none more worth telling than the rest.” Murasaki Shikibu

“The eyes of others our prisons; their thoughts our cages.” Virginia Woolf

“Embrace your solitude and love it. Endure the pain it causes, and try to sing out with it. For those near to you are distant...” Rainer Maria Rilke

“Solitude is for me a fount of healing which makes my life worth living. Talking is often a torment for me, and I need many days of silence to recover from the futility of words.” Carl Jung

“We must become so alone, so utterly al...

swimming makes me feel alone. i love that about swimming.