- 10/01, thursday: i had a good day. got kind of sad at lunchtime while i wondered why my dad doesn't care that much about me but. all fine. just period&drama time. also, i didn't talk to matheus at all today. first time in a while huh. don't really miss him i think, it's just weird how one day you spend texting someone all the time and the other you just have nothing to talk about. but it's okay, we're friends and we dont have to talk every day just because of that, right? anyways, i watched b99 and the good place today on that livestream! i missed them. that scene where chidi is comforting eleanor because she's scared of their relationship and how it can end anytime. almost cried with her :( and tahani being so sweet to jason and janet WHY ARE ALL OF THEM SO SWEET I WANNA HUG THEM ALL :( also i have the worst cramps and i cant sleep, that's why i'm writing here. listening to trench. distracting myself from the pain. god help me. good night.
- 14/01, sunday: (2:56am) i forgot to hang the laundry up to dry after i did the dishes and then i went to take a nap. i woke up feeling so shitty... and my mom just made me feel worse. sometimes i feel like she hates, sometimes i just feel like she treats me with indifference cause i'm not that important. it sucks to think like that, bc i know it's not true, but the way she talks to me sometimes, and the way i'm always stressing myself up, it just makes me feel anxious and depressed and just miserable. i really wish i could get better at it but i don't know how. anyways, matheus texted me today! we talked about b99 and he asked me about the meaning of life and about working and studying and everything and it was kinda nice i guess? we're good friends, that makes me happy. it's 3am and i was watching the 1st episode of You (it's a netflix show and it's really good so far). noice. !!!btw i paused the show to talk to matheus. ok bye
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