- 13/11: i write-think so much about you in my head all day all the time. you won't leave my mind. but is it really you or is it the idea of you. the memories we shared. what i wanted to live with you. wanted to relive. i miss you. i miss everything, especially what we were bounded to be. i'm sorry i took everything you said as a promise, that wasn't fair. i feel so stupid. i wanna be with you, i wanna share my moments with you and it hurts so bad that you don't feel the same. i'm sorry. i know this is heavy for you, too. i don't want you to leave but having you this close knowing you're mentally far, far away is... really difficult. also please i'm tired of overanalyzing everything. i'm in the dark wat can i do???????? i think you still have feelings for her. i'm sorry about that, too. i wish you'd keep talking about it, with me. i wouldn't mind. i'd be pissed at her, cause even though i'm trying not to be angry at everything she's done to you, i can't cause it was all very very shitty of her. seeing you being so okay and happy and friendly and Close to her, that fucking hurts. fuck, fuck, fuck. i'm sorry.
- 24/11: esse dia foi foda. 3:40 am (chat dele aberto torcendo pra ele aparecer) pq eu sinto sua falta. pq eu quero vc, eu ainda quero vc. pq me doi tanto imaginar q vc nao me quer. pq eu tenho medo de estar perdendo oq pode ser uma das melhores coisas da minha vida. pq eu nao aguento mais chorar e ficar esperando vc me dizer que mudou de ideia, que me quer sim. pq eu to muito cansada mtmtmtmt cansada. pq me dói lembrar da gente junto. pq me dói te ver do meu lado mas não encostando sua cabeça no meu ombro. pq me doi q vc ta se afastando por medo. pq me doi pensar que vc provavelmente nem gosta de mim mesmo. pq eu sou muito burra e nao consigo tirar vc da minha cabeça. eu sinto a sua falta. eu qro vc como eu nunca quis ngm mas eu sei q vc nao sente o mesmo e isso me quebra todo dia
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