- 03/08: time is NOT real but august started out terribly. i am genuinely afraid of what's gonna happen to me, i wish i could hide in my room the whole day just minding my own business without having to talk to anyone here. i also wish i could see my friends. although, this one friend i have told the gc yesterday that she went out with a boy she met at tinder (in spite of the whole virus thing going on) and she was laughing while she said it wasn't worth it cause the guy wasn't even a good kisser. i mean fuck you? that's not even funny. my other friend was then saying she hasn't seen her boyfriend in a long time and that broke my heart... so yeah i'm constantly annoyed and upset at things like this and i just want it all to end
- 05/08: got a job!
- 06/08: worked a lot. mom cooked some good food today, and she cleaned up my room :( <3
- 07/08: my friends being excited for me. mamãe me levando pão de mel junto com meu caderno no trabalho. pizza day? pizza day!! rimos de doer a barriga
- 08/08: (algumas) pessoas são compreensivas. youth do glass animals me deixa muito feliz. caldo de batatinha salsa na janta! (i'm scared people will know who i really am. there it is. no one truly knows me because i could never show my heart and how my intentions are selfish? and i wish i could hide forever. because it's so tiring to be seen as sweet and good and pure and perfect and i'm so exhausted you don't know how awful i am!!!!! i don't deserve this love ppl try to give me???? i am so terrified???????? wow! i'm so fucking messed up)
- 09/08: dia dos pais! falei "te amo ta?" pro meu pai e ele respondeu "eu sei" that's his thing ig lol... mom and dad taking an after lunch nap <3 tempo ta gostosinho hoje. 121 scrobbles no last.fm !!!!!!!! nat viu dead poet's society :(
- 10/08: trabalho foi tranquilo hoje. [8/10, 12:32 AM] matheus: estou muito orgulhoso de vc estar salvando a economia desse país (o dia inteiro rindo disso)
- 11/08: VELHO DO CEU.... chorar de sdd de alguem e nao conseguir parar de pensar na pessoa e do nada receber um "oii" sla sabe sla. eu amo minha mãe. TED IS WAY BETTER NOW!!!!
- 12/08 tired & upset cause my job is super hard and im not good enough at it yet. but mom made me scrambled eggs cause she knows i like them!! and class was cancelled for today so i had time to kill :-)
- 13/08: pizza and carrot cake and being thankful for the experiences. THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES EVEN THOUGH THEY WERENT SO GREAAAAT
- 14/08: no thoughts
- 15/08: passei o dia todinho na cama dos meus pais e vi p&r
- 16/08: the world sucks but most ppl dont. the people i chose to be near me dont
- 17/08: crochê!!!
- 18/08: eu preciso muito ver meus amigos. eu preciso muito ver minha familia. eu preciso muito ver ele. recebi video dele tocando violão lol what, are we DATING now??? i love nat so much i'm shouting it from the rooftop
- 19/08: no thoughts :(
- 20/08: gravei aula, that was sm fun. ppl are so sweet :(
- 21/08: "esquece isso, foi bobeira" e "talvez seja pq eu sou o seu amor??" .......
- 22/08: TERMINEI O TICO LIRO MR LEMON!! passei um tempão ouvindo city & colour pq eh mto gostosinho.... fiquei ate quase 5am conversando no zap, eeeeee ana cristina (i should've known better. it was always clear you didn't like me as much as i liked you, or as much as you liked her, or them. it's obvious you don't think of me anymore. and i should've known it'd never go anywhere, and nothing i could do would make this work. listen, i love you, and i care about you, and i feel happy around you, but that's not enough, and it hurts me deeply, so that's why i don't wanna tell you anything, even though i feel like you deserve to know you're loved. i'm sorry i can't act on it, i'm sorry but i can't trust you. you spend so much time convincing me i was your second, third, fourth plan, and i should've take that more seriously. i know our discussions back them could've been more honest, and i could've told you more about what i feel but, in the end, it'd only make things worse and i don't want you to feel worse. to know i hurt you just breaks my heart. but to know i'm so easy to get over it? breaks it just as much. i'm just a good friend, right? i'm just the one who's always there for you. but now you don't even want to tell me stuff? and how should i feel about that? should i just let it all go and leave and pretend i don't know you and i don't love you? if you asked me to, maybe i could. but don't leave me in the dark. i don't know what to do. should i do something? should i be more responsible? should i tell you? should i hurt you for the sake of freeing my mind? would it help you heal, too? i don't know. i never know. but i should've known better.)
- 23/08: o almoço tava UMA DELÍCIA... fiquei fazendo crochê até 2 da manhã rs
- 24/08: andy samberg and cristin millioti are so great together..... class was super short thank god
- 25/08: i hate being this afraid of loving too much and getting hurt again . sorry this isn't a happy daily stuff. HOZIER BEING WEIRD AND FUNNY JGDKJD
- 26/08: grupo de pesquisa da prof cris <3
- 27/08: cortei franja. pra que. prof luana é uma fofa... crochetar de madrugada no escuro é engraçado, like it's a secret. torcendo pro ursinho dar certo. thank you lizzo for my life
- 28/08: fiz almoço hoje e ficou bom???! mamãe eh estudante agora... chadwick :( no happy day
- 29/08: vi minhas vovós :') chorei mto de nervosa na viagem mas me acalmei depois, matheus me ajudou a me acalmar tbm. VI O MAURICIO NO TRABALHO!!!!!!!!!
- 30/08: vi b99
- 31/08: comi banoff, tava mto bom. e vi black panther! filme perfeito :(
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