- 21, jun: levei um balde de água fria na cara pq vc deixou bem claro que não lembra das coisas q eu guardo com tanto carinho no coração. você não gosta de mim como eu gosto de você, pq eh que meu coração não aceita isso logo? let's move on little bitch
- 23, jun: em paz. still confused at some things but that's normal. and it'll be okay. i just love and cherish his friendship.... reclamamos do ead o dia inteiro ontem e de noite rimos junto lembrando de coisas engraçadas no onibus. kinda felt like we both wanted to say we missed being together there. but none of us did
- 27, jun: wpp backup fucked me up all over again. i cant get some things out of my head like. i was always the 2nd option. i was always the backup plan. and now he doesn't even consider me as an option, even though i'm the one he tells intimate stuff. and he always cares to ask about what i post, or just talk about anything all day. i feel so fucking stupid for still waiting for something to happen. but then again, he knows what this feels like. he went through this as well. and i was there by his side through it all. and now i still am, and i don't know what it all means. i don't know what he wants from me. does he want to keep me close because he trusts me and knows i'll be there for him no matter what? then like. treat me well then ... wish quarantine was over so i could see him face to face and make sure his eyes still don't lit up when he's with me. also i don't know who i miss anymore. i don't truly miss my friends, i feel so distant from them and constantly annoyed by what they post and send on the group chat. i feel awful about this as well, i just want to disappear yk... i'm just so tired of being sad
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