january

• 01.01.13: midnight hug with ma & pa
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• 03.01.13: g's cute haircut
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• 05.01.13: baking cookies with ma
• 06.01.13: ice skating with georgia
• 07.01.13: sitting with c in bed and singing kate nash
• 08.01.13: waking up next to g, feeling so great to be back with him again
• 09.01.13: completing exam no.1
• 10.01.13: stressed
• 11.01.13: worst exam over!
• 12.01.13: relaxing day, nighttime walk with g
• 13.01.13: tasty dinner and tv with g
• 14.01.13: getting 2:1 assignment results
• 15.01.13: watching the office before bed
• 16.01.13: dad's birthday and last exam!
• 17.01.13: viewing flats
• 18.01.13: waking up to snow
• 19.01.13: solitary town browsing and dress buying
• 20.01.13: illness, haribo
• 21.01.13: girls
• 22.01.13: new lectures
• 23.01.13: nerf gun fights, 'you look so beautiful'
• 24.01.13: blogging lecture, creative writing workshop
• 25.01.13: indian takeaway
• 26.01.13: blog ideas, eggy bread
• 27.01.13: solitary food shopping, good music, lingering hugs, long shower
• 28.01.13: naomi's twins are born! arthur george and albert james. post home phone call tears. homesickness.
• 29.01.13: the great feeling of walking into uni holding his hand, snacking, mad lecturer, watching the office when g gets home
• 30.01.13: sadness. 'i'll look after you'
• 31.01.13: creative writing. 'i only know the names of my favourites so far'. sadness. sadness. sadness. 'it's okay'

february

• 01.02.13: assistant sub-editor.
• 02.02.13: solitary food shopping, 4 bus trips, film at the lighthouse, you tucking my hair behing my ear on the bus
• 03.02.13: bad. sad. bad. sad.
• 04.02.13: cafe with e. chats about sadness, depression, lovers. food shopping together. new duvet cover. skype with ma and pa.
• 05.02.13: laughing with j about the office. afternoon nap with g. carbonara for dinner. lonely evening.
• 06.02.13: gr8 exam results. chocolate cake from waitrose while watching the office. lonely evening, again.
• 07.02.13: "sub editors are dead in the soul!!!!"
• 08.02.13: lonely town visit. walk along the seaside.
• 09.02.13: walk to the shops holding hands in the dark
• 10.02.13: illness. harry potter.
• 11.02.13: mini card and creme eggs for j's 21st birthday. illness. lonely evening, again, again, again. watching somersault. sea of love. hot water bottle.
• 12.02.13: unwell. useless lecture & seminar. g kisses.
• 13.02.13: laughs with michaella. lonely evening. washing up, cleaning kitchen. another 74%. working on blog.
• 14.02.13: love hearts and u r fab handmade card. g staying up all night working. lonely sleeping.
• 15.02.13: ciara. train station happy/sad crying. food shopping together.
• 16.02.13: all 3 of us town shopping. siting on the beach. g's new lovely jumper. wreck it ralph. sadness in the evening, i miss you already, sis.
• 17.02.13: charity shop shopping with c. trying on dresses. sad train station crying. sad bus journey back crying. sad. watching lots of Lost episodes.
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• 20.02.13: bad day. anxiety. sad. hot chocolate with e. takeaway pizza.
• 21.02.13: watching series 4 of lost. snacks. cuddles.
• 22.02.13: shop browsing at castlepoint with g. big hot chocolate each in the cafe. doughnuts. cookies.
• 23.02.13: asda shop. nice food. noodles for dinner. mission impossible ghost protocol.
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• 28.02.13: finishing essay. handing in essay. dissertation talk. choices for next year. stressy. train home. watching flipped with c until midnight.

march

• 01.03.13: chocolate, long shower, twix.
• 02.03.13: walk with mum. town with mum and c. new blue jeans. hot chocolate and smarties cookie. chicago.
• 03.03.13: lie-in. walk to sainsburys with c. hug with dad in the car when he dropped me at the station. train home tears.
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• 07.03.13: talking with j and s and m after lectures.
• 08.03.13: illness. doctor. pills. asda shop. lots of yummy food. making mum's card, sending it.
• 09.03.13: mum loves her card. sub editing at uni, overhearing gossip. cinema: side effects. sweets. nice bus home. g making dinner. bad talk about flat for next year.
• 10.03.13: lie in. sunday brunch on tv and breakfast with g. long morning shower. turning the bathroom into a steam room.
• 11.03.13: web com workshop. a little discouraging. snow. solitary trip into town, e's birthday present.
• 12.03.13: sunny but cold. e's birthday. call from her saying how she loved her gift. tv and creme egg.
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• 14.03.13: bad morning. sad. afternoon tutorial with m.e. she said my work was ‘fantastically written’ and that she felt ‘like an archeologist’ and reading work like mine was like ‘finding a gem’. 'I really hope you’re so proud of yourself, Sinead’. teary eyed on the way back to the flat.
• 15.03.13: icky. sad. writing 4th letter to c.
• 16.03.13: nothing. sad. icky. g posted c's letter. procrastinating. long bath before dinner. g making dinner. ice cream with chocolate sauce.
• 17.03.13: ill. achey. ugh. watching daytime tv. carbonara for dinner. ice cream. lost x2. hot water bottle and movie in bed.
• 18.03.13: ugh.
• 19.03.13: lonely wfm workshop.
• 20.03.13: chat with e in le cafe. lucky large hot chocolate. bad times. 'i'm here for you'. home, sadness, ugh. arguments. noodles for dinner.
• 21.03: 13: essay. stressy.
• 22.03.13: done half of essay. found a flat! nerf gun fights. love. hot water bottle, charlie brooker + sleep.
• 23.03.13: essay. almost done. charlie brooker + lunch. reading american psycho. food shopping together. stressful phone calls with family. you are my home. hot water bottle in bed with you.
• 24.03.13: essay.
• 25.03.13: nice chats with e and j. sub editing with h in the evening. late dinner. lost. ice cream. cleaning the flat. charlie + sleep.
• 26.03.13: sleepy in morning lecture. almost home.
• 27.03.13: last indesign workshop. creme eggs for e and m. working in the media school. pizza for dinner. packing.
• 28.03.13: home! town with c.
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• 30.03.13: watching jackass with c.
• 31.03.13: cutting fringe. crying. laughing. crying again.

april

• 01.04.13: chinese takeaway.
• 02.04.13: meeting up with g. delicious hot chocolate and jacket potatoes in sweet cafe. wandering around the shops. dominoes 2for tuesday
• 03.04.13: ugh
• 04.03.13: town, c's mickey/minnie mouse coat charity shop find, buying gilmore girls season 1 dvd for £3. watching whip it.
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• 06.04.13: mum and dad home.
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• 09.04.13: strokes t shirt in charity shop. drink and cake with mum and c.
• 10.04.13: bad day. confessions of a shopaholic. illness, mentally and physically.
• 11.03.13: working on blog. looking at expensive houses online just because. giggles with mum watching tv. walk to sainsburys with c. phone call with g, "i love you so much"
• 12.04.13: town with mum and c. marks and spencers cafe.
• 13.04.13: guildford car trip with ma and pa. cheese sandwiches for lunch. 'isn't this fun!' rainy drive home. good day
• 14.04.13: all four of us walking to town. dad buying c and i a chocolate milkshake each, giving it to us as a surprise. cinema with mum, c and katrina. cliche movie oblivion but a nice time. cookies and ice blasts. arguments at home. dad not well. gilmore girls.
• 15.04.13: meeting with s. lovely cake and juice in new cafe. lots of chat. finally gave s her xmas present (the magnificent scarf) she got up and hugged me right away. good day.
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• 17.04.13: waking up late, day going so fast, stressed
• 18.04.13: essay started. feeling motivated (ish) nice shower.
• 19.04.13: bad day. little work done. chinese takeaway with the whole family. gilmore girls night
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• 22.04.13: tidying things into boxes. tears saying goodbye to mum. train back to bournemouth. sitting on the floor next to the bicycles and the toilet. so good to see g again.
• 23.04.13: great day in bournemouth with g. sitting on the sand at the seaside. browsing the shops. milkshakes in cafe l'amour.g buying pale blue trousers.
• 24.04.13: handing in blog. last workshop of 2nd year of university. talking with e and j and m.
• 25.04.13: handing in essay.
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• 27.04.13: not a great mental health day. watching gilmore girls. walk to town and charity shops by myself. tasty dinner and i made rocky road. never let me go movie night.
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• 30.04.13: lovely afternoon before lecture with e in the cafe, hot chocolate and orange juice. then talking out in the sunshine until 6pm, really nice. jelly beans and fruitellas. love, life and depression. watching before sunrise.

may

• 01.05.13: can't believe it's may already. leaving notes for g in my notebook which he borrowed. eating banana and chocolate while we watch the office in bed. beautiful sunshine.
• 02.05.13: walk in winton with e. milkshake in our cafe. putting on suncream. feeling good when i get emails back from possible interviewees for assignment.
• 03.05.13: sunshine. walk to whsmith to look at magazines. chats and laughs with middle aged women. hanging damp clothes out the window. watching ratatouille with popcorn.
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• 05.05.13: didn't leave flat. working on article. phone chats with e. swetcorn on the cob for dinner. admiring january jones in mad men.
• 06.05.13: sunshine. afternoon/evening with e in the media school finishing article. "thank you so much for all your help, i couldn't have done it without you". dinner ready when i got back to the flat, so tasty. mad men and lost. angry flat neighbour saying we were noisy when we weren't.
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• 10.05.13: cafe with e. talking about everything. gift 'to say thank you for being there for me this year <3' hot chocolate. choosing conditioner in boots together. chat outside her flat.
• 11.05.13: g filling our room with balloons. gilmore girls complete boxset. train to guildford. delicious mozzerella and goat's cheese and spinach pizza at pizza express for lunch. meeting mum, dad and c in a sweet cafe. hot chocolate. pretty little necklace, silicone hot water bottle and vogue. crying after i said goodbye. g surprising me with cake when we got back. watching mad men.
• 12.05.13: handing in last assignment.
• 13.05.13: bad mental health day. texting e and feeling better, making plans. delicious dinner, home made tomato and mascarpone sauce.last slice each of birthday cake for desert. feeling a little better.
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• 16.05.13: day in boscombe with e. bus ride, market, shopping centre, cafe, basket of chips and chocolate milkshake. talking about love and life. walk to bournemouth in the sunshine, through the parks and sitting on a bench for ages admiring the beach and the beautiful sun. cafe stop in cafe nero with red velvet cake and hot chocolate, tired from the walk. taking pictures all day long.
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• 21.05.13: baking day at e's flat. taking pictures. watching when harry met sally. popcorn and lots of talking.
• 22.05.13: double date with e and l. the great gatsby. sweets and popcorn. walk along the pier in the evening sunlight.
• 23.05.13: 70% mark on essay. almost season 3 of gilmore girls. solitary walk to town for food shopping. sunshine. holding g when he is sad, making him feel better. missing my sister. play fights and mad men.