• take deep breaths
• drink lots of water
• take long showers when needed
• remember, this too shall pass

• lush
• the body shop
• superdrug
• marks and spencers

• ✔ update: just one box left to unpack /tidy up my room
• ✔ update: got furniture / plan the design
• ✔ update: booked holiday to Malta! plan a holiday / book holiday

January:

• 01 Jan: Midnight watching the fireworks with mama, papa and c. Party poppers.
• 02 Jan: Feeling sad. Lots of crying.
• 03 Jan: loving my chanel allure sensual from ma and pa for christmas…divine
• 04 Jan: Walking in the rain, singing to Regina Spektor, wellington boots, eating chocolate raisins, working on my dissertation proposal. Taxi Driver soundtrack (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bx4aK-YsP...)
• 05 Jan: Seeing our new house for the first time. Walking around Woking, lunch out. Long Skype with e. Vimto and Toblerone.
• 06 Jan: walking c to college, going to the post office
• 07 Jan: ordering asda delivery, haircut, dominoes 2fortuesday, parks and recreation, more vim to
• 08 Jan: walking with c, life of pi
• 09 Jan: back to bournemouth, taxi to the train station, staring out of windows, ho...

• ✔ 4 October: Placement Logbook
• ✔ 14 November: Writing, Editing & Publishing: Written Portfolio
• ✔ 12 December: Advertising Essay
• ✔ 13 December: Writing, Editing and Publishing: Publishing Portfolio
• ✔ 8 Jan: Dissertation Proposal
• ✔ W/C 27 January: PR Presentation
• ✔ W/C 27 January: Advertising Presentation

january

• 01.01.13: midnight hug with ma & pa
• 02.01.13:
• 03.01.13: g's cute haircut
• 04.01.13:
• 05.01.13: baking cookies with ma
• 06.01.13: ice skating with georgia
• 07.01.13: sitting with c in bed and singing kate nash
• 08.01.13: waking up next to g, feeling so great to be back with him again
• 09.01.13: completing exam no.1
• 10.01.13: stressed
• 11.01.13: worst exam over!
• 12.01.13: relaxing day, nighttime walk with g
• 13.01.13: tasty dinner and tv with g
• 14.01.13: getting 2:1 assignment results
• 15.01.13: watching the office before bed
• 16.01.13: dad's birthday and last exam!
• 17.01.13: viewing flats

• depressed
• shy
• inquisitive
• in love
• loved
• lost
• want to learn
• stuck
• 104 days meat free
• sometimes nothing
• sometimes everything

• marine biologist
• teacher
• gymnast
• artist
• photographer

• s and l are great friends
• i miss you
• i can't wait to live with you
• writing letters
• job applications
• she + him
• macbook pro
• diary entries
• walks to sainsbury's with c <3
• melting chocolate
• weather changing
• chats with the parentals
  • we are so proud of you
• maybe i'm not such a mess

• letter writing set
• nice plant/cactus
• wristwatch
• gilmore girls season 2-7

• my love
• taking pictures
• writing
• music
• reading
• walking
• sunshine
• family movie time
• cooking dinner
• traveling
• accomplishing
• pep talks with mum

• anxious
• deep thinking
• sensitive
• critical
• daydreamer
• high expectations
• solitary
• hiding emotions

edit: who says these are flaws?

• play guitar
• play piano - g is teaching me
• go to paris with g - booked UPDATE: BEEN!!! :-)
• get a 2:1 in my degree - first year passed with 2:1 UPDATE: second year passed with 2:1!

UPDATE: finished degree with 2:1 + a First in my dissertation!

• do work experience - getting organised UPDATE: DONE!!!

• ✔ deborah 13: servant of god
• no logo
• consuming kids
• ✔ killing us softly 1,2,3,4
• ✔ too ugly for love
• ✔ madness in the fast lane
• ✔ the boy who lived before
• ✔ louis theroux and the nazis
• ✔ the most hated family in america

• cats
• love
• train journeys
• walks through fields
• laughter
• achievement
• hand-holding
• adventure
• film-watching
• book-reading

• Atlas Hands, Benjamin Francis Leftwich
• Still, Bombay Bicycle Club
• Stuck on the Puzzle, Alex Turner
• The air that I breathe, The Hollies
• Make Love, Daft Punk
• Valium, Lisa Mitchell
• How Soon Is Now, The Smiths
• Ivy and Gold, Bombay Bicycle Club
• Don't Dream It's Over, Crowded House
• Just Like Heaven, The Cure

• ✔ macbook pro
• ✔ charles worthington shampoo and conditioner
• ✔ remington hair dryer

• Pai Camellia & Rose Gentle Hydrating Cleanser
• Pai Avocado Hydrating Day Cream
• Pai Lotus & Orange Blossom BioAffinity Skin Tonic
• Lush Celestial face and hand moisturiser
• Lush Comforter shower wash
• Lush Enzymion facial moisturiser
• Balance Me Radiance Face Oil
• Organic Surge Perfecting Face Polish
• Organic Surge Deep Cleansing Face Mask

• pam and jim in the office
• sloane and ferris in ferris bueller's day off
• cecelia and robbie in atonement
• anna and oliver in beginners
• lelaina and troy in reality bites

• live in a foreign country
• learn to drive (still haven't) [jan 2015 ordered provisional license] [feb 2016 still haven't done anything woops]
• own my own house/apartment
• work somewhere I enjoy [jan 2015 starting 3month internship @ magazine in Bath] [update feb 2016 had a great time in bath but need another job now]
• have children (dreaming of three)
• travel to america, new zealand, canada, australia, italy & more
• consider studying postgraduate
• make meaningful friendships everywhere I go

So...last year I stopped adding films to my list around august, this year I want to try and record every single film I watch :-)

☆ = not seen before

january:

• damsels in distress (2011) ☆
• taxi driver (1976) ☆
• the impossible (2012) ☆
• best man down (2012) ☆
• life of pi (2012)
• to die for (1995) ☆
• before midnight (2013) ☆
• frozen (2013) ☆
• 12 years a slave (2013) ☆

february:

• tangled (2010)
• fargo (1996) ☆
• vegucated (2010) ☆
• prime (2005)

• pure asia
• food court
• update: feb 2016 - do not order take away from anywhere anymore! life is happier.

• memories are weird because they are things that have happened which even if they felt good at the time can feel horrible to look back upon
• even if you don't want to go back to those times, it's just sad sometimes that they are gone now and there are things you have forgotten and can never re-live
• people you used to look at and love so much, and you memorised the shape of their cheekbones and the colour of their eyelashes, the way their lips looked when they said your name and the way they walked towards you
• and now you may as well be strangers
• all you can do I guess is appreciate that you had those times, and remember that they made you who you are today, and you learned, and even if you could you wouldn't want to go back
• all you can do is try as best you can to ...

• your sadness does not define you
• it does not make you weak
• you deserve to be happy

• breathe, and I mean really breathe. Feel your lungs filling up and feel your ribcage expanding, and then breathe out and let all your worries go
• take a bath, put in some tea tree drops, bring a book for company, don't bring your phone
• write about how you are feeling, however ill-written, express yourself
• don't close yourself off too much from those you love. Don't be alone for too long, don't let yourself get worse
• drink water, gulp it down, a nice cool glass, be refreshed
• go easy on yourself. Don't say 'Why am I like this, why can't I be better'. You are human, you are fragile, you do not need to feel bad for feeling this way, accept yourself
• get into bed, and escape into a book for a while. Everyone needs a break from real...

• "this is life, rory, it breaks your heart"

• sing songs with my earphones in so i can't hear my voice
• stay naked for as long as possible after having a shower
• take a long bath
• watch bad tv and have nobody judge me
• write
• look at old photographs
• make collages
• walk in the dark (scary but pretty)

• post-shower cuddles, wet hair, warm bodies
• hugging in front of the mirror
• taking pictures of each other all day long
• croissants and orange juice for breakfast
• naps on the eurostar
• eating mcdonald's on our hotel room bed in our pyjamas
• walking out in the night time seeing all the lights
• falling more in love with you all the time

• ✔ fight club
• ✔ lolita
• ✔ the perks of being a wallflower
• ✔ atonement
• ✔ one day
• ✔ catcher in the rye
• ✔ looking for alaska
• ✔ paper towns
• we need to talk about kevin
• enduring love
• ✔ the virgin suicides
• ✔ the hunger games
• ✔ the lover's dictionary
• ✔ submarine
• history of love
• everything is illuminated
• the unbearable lightness of being
• ✔ the fault in our stars
• ✔ the marriage plot
• a single man
• ✔ the great gatsby

• "you're gold, not copper. don't act like you're copper when you're gold"
• "you are a beautiful queen"

girls

• tilda
• lelaina
• anna
• eithne
• celia/cecelia
• matilda/matilde
• zanna
• alma
• lena
• thea
• quirine
• karina
• juno
• tallulah
• clementine

boys

• theodore/theo
• charlie
• ezra

• fresh night air
• fluoxetine gives me headaches

"Let's be in love forever, okay?"

• pointed elbows
• smooth neck
• sea blue tranquil eyes
• wonderfully tousled hair
• carved out shoulder blades
• delicate eye lashes
• rosy serene lips
• pearl teeth
• soft feet
• loving hands
• muscular thighs
• ticklish knees

• "One night they fell asleep, side by side. He slept curled upon her back; a dark comma against her pale, elegant phrase" A.S. Byatt, Possession
• "When you start to really know someone, all his physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in his energy, recognize the scent of his skin. You see only the essence of the person,not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes and body but not your heart. And that’s why, when you really connect with a person’s inner self, any physical imperfections disappear, become irrelevant". Lisa Unger, Beautiful Lies
• "Why are you sad?” “Because you speak to me in words, and I look at you with feelings". Anna Karina, Pierrot Le Fou

• amelie
• submarine
• adventureland
• the virgin suicides
• it's kind of a funny story
• drive
• shame

• I miss your eyes
• I miss your shoulder blades
• I miss waking up to your face

• 7/8 hours of sleep a night
• drink water
• 40 leg stretches on bad knee
• banana/apple/strawberries/orange juice
• half an hour of relaxing

• amelie
• sliding doors
• atonement
• moulin rogue
• romeo and juliet, 90s
• fight club
• adventureland
• ferris bueller's day off
• dirty dancing
• the breakfast club
• the virgin suicides
• beginners
• the artist

• subscription to vegan life magazine

december 2014

• ✔ lolito by ben brooks
• ✔ sharp objects by gillian flynn
• ✔ not that kind of girl by lena dunham
• yes please by amy poehler

march 2015

• ✔ the l shaped room

may 2015

• ✔ men, women and children - almost finished, got bored
• ✔ dept of speculation

september 2015

• ✔ jon krakauer, into thin air
• vagenda

january 2016

• mindy kaling Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me?

• ✔ LUSH vouchers [mama got me a lovely collection of goodies for my birthday]
• a trip to italy
• an afternoon at Lady Dinah's Cat Emporium
• ✔ instant film camera [wonderful mama got me a fujifilm instax for xmas]

• walking out of the cinema with you in winter time, holding hands through gloves and seeing our breath in the dark air, knowing we are going home to cuddle and sleep beside each other

breaking bad

• ✔ season one
• ✔ season two
• ✔ season three
• ✔ season four
• ✔ season five

flight of the conchords

• ✔ season one
• ✔ season two

freaks and geeks

• ✔ episodes one-eighteen

gilmore girls

• ✔ gilmore girls season 1
• ✔ gilmore girls season 2
• ✔ gilmore girls season 3
• ✔ gilmore girls season 4
• ✔ gilmore girls season 5

girls

• watching people meet for the first time
• girls with red hair and round faces
• autumn slowly dripping in
• couples on the beach
• eye contact

term one (1st october 2012-19 january 2013)

• ✔ 5th nov : narrative structures presentation
• ✔ 20th nov : media research portfolio
• ✔ 23rd nov : workplace comm group project
• ✔ 7th dec : workplace comm reflection
• ✔ 10th dec : narrative structures essay

~ exams for all three units ~

• ✔ 9th january 2-4 : narrative structures
• ✔ 11th january 2-4 : media
• ✔ 16th january 930-1130 : workplace comm

term two (21st january-28th march)

• ✔ 1st march: popular texts essay 1
• ✔ 28th march : web communication essay

term 3 (22nd april-30 june)

• ✔ 24th april: web communication web portfolio
• ✔ 26th april : popular texts essay 2
• ✔ 7th may: writing for the media: news and features

pre-christmas

• ✔ workplace communication (jamie)
• ✔ narrative structures (bronwen, julia)
• ✔ media: messages and meanings (roman)

post-christmas

• ✔ web communication (einar, rob)
• writing for the media (ann, sayed)
• ✔ popular texts and intertexts (hywel)

media, journalism and society

• ✔ annotated bibliography
• ✔ presentation
• ✔ viva questions

communication

• ✔ 1,00 word analysis of Question Time
• ✔ 2,500 word mediated vs interpersonal comm essay

adaptation

• ✔ 5 min pitch on modern adaptation of fairytale
• ✔ 10 min real pitch
• ✔ books adaptation essay

writing for different purposes

• ✔ features article

• white bath
• bean bags
• white bed sheets
• rainbow duvet covers
• dvd tower
• antique lights
• atlas poster
• cork-boards filled with tickets

• Your letter made me cry
• I am ever-changing
• You'll see in time who your real friends are
• Things will work out in the end

• ✔ go to London every now and again
• take pictures of strangers
• lie under the stars because it is wonderful
• ✔ get a typewriter
• listen to g playing piano because it is inspiring
• ✔ borrow more books from bu library and find poole library
• give blood [ update: not recommended to try again until I am 25 years old. fainting is not fun. ]
• go charity-shop-shopping and get c something
• drink lots of water every day
• write/scribble my thoughts as much as possible
• ✔ walk by the sea
• ✔ read
• buy a newspaper every week/fortnight