• I could be in a room full of the happiest people you'd ever meet & still feel completely alone. Why is that?
• Emily dickinson, are we long lost sisters?
• I have a permanent broken heart. Sometimes I can literally feel it aching, then my stomach fills with knots and all I can do is cry.
• I just want to be effortlessly beautiful. Like Liv Tyler in Stealing Beauty.
• I can't even look at myself.
• I still dream of running away, exploring city after city, meeting fun people, living for the moment because that's all I have, being completely wild & without any strains holding me down. Freedom.
• I feel like the ugliest girl in this town.
• Wouldn't it be nice to freeze time and everything in it, besides yourself?

Big 5 Test:

• Extroversion - 30%
  • Results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
• Orderliness - 84&
  • Results were very high which suggests you are overly organized, neat, structured and restrained at the expense too often of flexibility, variety, spontaneity, and fun.
• Emotional Stability - 72%
  • Results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
• Accomodation - 52%
  • Results were medium which suggests you ar...

Found on Stevie Rae's listog. ^_^

• Midnight Snacks. It’s late. You’re hungry. Feel free to climb out of bed and raid the fridge, but hurry back, because I guarantee you’re not gonna find anything as delicious as my pussy.
• Unplugging. Are you a doctor on call? Didn’t think so. No texting, twittering, or tumblring during couple time.
• April Fools Day. You can be cute about it, but if you embarrass me in public, I’ll reign down mischievous fuckery until your head spins.
• Let’s Build a Sofa Fort! I’ll totally fuck you in it.
• I Vote. And one day, I want to vote for a woman who’s made sex tapes, done lots of drugs, and doesn’t believe in god.
• Restaurant Rudeness. No matter how bad the waiter is, we do not make a scene. We speak to the manager, make a graceful exit, and don’t let it ruin our evening.
• Evidence. Yes babe, the sex tapes are ours. But kn...

Bad:

• Taking a compliment.
• Leaving a voice message.
• Making small talk.
• Meeting new people.
• Not talking during a movie.
• Sending birthday cards, Christmas cards, thank-you cards, etc., etc.
• Getting rid of my magazines.
• Being aggressive.
• Sticking up for myself.
• Explaining an opinion or point of view.
• Telling a joke.
• Waiting patiently.
• Leaving the oven on.
• Keeping my hair straightner on.
• Spending too much money.
• Painting my nails on my right hand.
• Getting motivated to work out.
• Remembering my dreams.

Good:

• A mother to the most wonderful and beautiful little boy in the entire universe. I am forever first and foremost you're one and only mommy, I will love you even after my heart stops beating.
• A wife to the man of my dreams. You are my other half, my heart and soul, you are my everything. Being your wife is my favorite thing to be.
• An older sister . You guys are my best friends, my life would literally be extremely boring without you in it.
• A daughter to some awesome parents. I know it wasn't easy to raise me but I love you for putting up with it and being patient.
• Honest.
• An easy listener . If I can offer an ear to someone in need I will drop everything just to be by your side.
• Dependable.
• Curvy.

• On some random persons boat dock in the middle of the night.
• Behind a tree at a party in the persons backyard.
• In a public restroom at a rest stop.
• While driving.
• At the beach.
• In my best friends, sisters bedroom.
• On the kitchen table.
• On the kitchen floor.
• Behind a movie theater in the car.
• The roof at an apartment complex I used to live at.
• While hiking in the woods.
• While camping.
• On the hood of a car.
• In a closet.

Winter:

• Christmas lights!
• Lots of baking.
• Family gatherings.
• Snow!
  • Sledding.
  • Snowmen.
  • Snow angels.
  • Snow ball fights.
• Decorating the Christmas tree.
• Coats, sweaters, jackets, scarves, mittens, and boots. :3
• Giving and recieving gifts.
• Icicles.
• Hot coco with mini marshmellows.
• Good hair days.
• Crisp, clean air.
• Christmas movies.

Spring:

• I want a limited government.
  • We've seen throughout history that whenever government is in every facet of our lives things go terribly wrong.
  • The government should protect our freedom and rights.
  • The government should protect us from harm done by others in our own country as well as foreign threats.
• Taxes.
  • The %1 pay more than half of all taxes while %50 pay nothing in federal. Does this really seem "fair"?
  • A flat tax would be a much better system.
  • Tax money should not be spent on bail outs or wel-fare
• Wel-fare system.

• What is your favorite word? Wanderlust.
• What is your least favorite word? Puss.
• What turns you on [creatively, spiritually or emotionally]? Care-free and nomadic spirits.
• What turns you off? Highly religious people.
• What is your favorite curse word? Fuck.
• What sound or noise do you love? Irish accents.
• What sound or noise do you hate? Traffic.
• What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? Librarian
• What profession would you not like to do? Waitressing.
• If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? See, I do exist!

• Waves crashing onto the shore.
• My sons laugh.
• Thunder.
• My fiance' whispering in my ear.
• Bagpipes.
• Harmonica.
• Sitar.
• 12 string guitar.
• Rainfall.
• Hearing a distant waterfall.
• Church bells.
• An orchestra.
• Hearing screams fade past you as the roller coaster goes by.
• Popcorn popping.
• Irish accents.
• Crickets in the evening.
• Birds chirping.
• Echoes.
• Hearing a train in the distance.
• Resting my head on my fiance's chest and ...

• Three names you go by:
  • Crystal.
  • Crystal.
  • Crystal.
• Three physical things you like about yourself:
  • My eyes.
  • My feet.
  • My butt.
• Three physical things you dislike about yourself:
  • My lovehandles.
  • My skin.
  • My thighs.
• Three parts of your heritage:
  • Irish.
  • French.

• Spring.
• Sunny, perhaps a few stray clouds.
• 67 degrees.
• Windy, just enough so you have to put on a sweater.
• Butterflies, bumble bees, and humming birds are buzzing and flying all around.
• Planting a beautiful garden.
• Homemade sweet iced tea with LOTS of lemon and berries.
• Picking wild blackberries.
• Lying in the middle of the yard on a blanket in my sundress doodling in my notebook and listening to acoustic songs.
• Feeling the grass between my toes.
• Making an avocado and turkey sandwich for lunch.
• Lying in bed with my fiance' with the windows open to let the cool breeze in.
• Kissing, holding hands, laughter, longing, and talking of dreams we've recently ha...

• Wallet.
  • My I.D.
  • My permit.
  • My drivers liscense.
  • My debit card.
  • My fiance's 2nd debit card.
  • $32.62.
  • Social security card.
  • Eddies burrito 10% membership discount card.
  • Checkbook.
• WIC breastfeeding consultant card.
• Jeffrey's appointment card.
• Cellphone.
• Ipod.
• EOS lip balm
  • Sweet mint.
• Jergens ultra healing travel size lotion.

• Have a yard sale.
• Donate what I don't sell.
• Get rid of old clothes.
• Organize drawers and closets.
• Thoroughly clean out the kitchen.
• Organzie kitchen cabinets.
• Plant flowers in the garden bed.
• Clean out the storage shed in the back.
• Clean up the yard.
• Take bags of cans to recycling.
• Clean the patio.

• 8 P.M.
• Drive aimlessly for hours.
• Talk about movies, dreams, the future, each other, and love.
• Hold hands.
• Find a cute diner or cafe' to stop at and grab a bite to eat.
• I order a soup and sandwhich with an iced cold sweet tea.
• He orders the Cheeseburger and homemade potato salad with a domestic beer.
• We share a simple dessert.
• We sit there and talk for awhile, laughing, and touching from across the table.
• We leave and drive along the Blue Ridge mountains and pull off on one of the overlooks and watch the stars, hand in hand.
• I have butterflies in my stomach.
• He leans in to kiss me with his hands gently grazing along my neck.
• We make love.

• The MTV show Jersey Shore.
• Fake boobs.
• Gas prices.
• Calories.
  • The fact that everything I love to eat is unhealthy for me.
• Spanking as a form of punishment.
• Religion.
• Creationism.
• Beauty pageants.
• Potheads.
• Alcoholics.
• Drug Abusers.
• Most liberal views.
• Republicans that shove their Christian agenda down the throats of Americans.
• When people tell me I'm wrong when I know for a fact that I'm right.
• Child molesters.
• The redneck kids in town that like to han...

• Who's temper is worse?
  • Mine. He's so calm & collected about things.
• Who does the laundry?
  • Eye dew.
• Who does the dishes?
  • Eye dew.
• Who sleeps on the right side of the bed?
  • Me.
• Who's feet are bigger?
  • His, duh.
• Who's hair is longer?
  • Mine.
• Who's better with the computer?

• Middle name letter : L.
• Famous artist/band/musician : Lykke Li.
• 4-letter word : Lust.
• U.S state : Louisianna.
• Boy name : Leroy.
• Girl name : Lilly.
• Animal : Liger.
• Something in the kitchen : Lunchbox.
• Reason for being late : Laziness.
• Body Part : Lips.
• Drink : Latte'.
• Something you shout : LOSER!
• Something you eat : Lasagna.
• Song : Lipgloss - Lil' Mama.
• Movie : Lady In the Water.
• Vehicle : Lamborghini.
• Hobby : Line dancing.
• Store : Lowe's.
• Something next to you : Leopard print blanket.
• Something you like : Love.
• Something you dislike : Littering.

What I keep in my diaper bag.

• Diapers.
  • Duh.
• Diaper rash cream.
  • Just in case.
• Wipes.
  • Not only for messy diapers but for messy faces and hands. You never know with a baby.
• Changing pad.
  • You never know where you'll be changing a diaper or how sanitary it can be.
• Antibacterial hand sanitizer.
• Burp cloths.
• Zipper bags.
  • For storing dirty diapers.

• What's your name?
  • Crystal.
• Age?
  • 21.
• Are you a virgin?
  • Nope.
• Do you remember your first time?
  • Yes indeed. Haha, it was very interesting to say the least.
• If you could change your first, would you?
  • Mmm, Idk. It wasn't very enjoyable and I would've loved to have saved myself for my fiance', but who knows who I'd be or where I'd end up if it weren't for those situations.

• Random acts of kindness.
• Sunsets.
• Fireworks.
• Christmas lights.
• Old abandoned houses.
• Beautiful gardens.
• Lightning storms.
• Rainbows.
• Children at play.
• Curled moustaches.
• Lovers hand in hand.
• Waking up to my fiance's face.
• Thanksgiving feast layed out on the table.
• The redwoods.
• Waves crashing against the side of cliffs.
• When you've stopped at the top of a ferris wheel at night and can see all the bright lights.
• The clouds in an airplane.

• Bunjee jumped.
• Sky dived.
• Been to another country.
• Cheated on someone.
• Fought with my fiance'.
• Had cancer.
• Swam with sharks.
• Seen the northern lights.
• Drank champagne.
• Gotten a tattoo.
• Gotten a piercing besides my ears.
• Eaten veal.
• Stuck with a weight loss program.
• Ran a marathon.
• Donated money to charity.
• Cursed at my parents.
• Fired a gun.
• Had chicken pox.
• Been in a physical fight.
• Been suspended from school.
• Been to a football game.

• Hot vegetable soup with lots of potatoes.
• Grilled cheese sandwhiches.
• Warm gooey brownies.
• My moms chicken enchiladas.
• My moms potato salad.
• Bojangles fried chicken.
• Chocolate chip cookies with milk.
• Lasagna.
• Mac n' cheese.
• Peach cobbler.
• Mixed berry cheesecake.
• French fries.
• Chocolate covered pretzels.
• Fried chicken tenders.

• I'd by some land with a river and build a log cabin.
• I'd buy a couple of horses and a little farm for my chickens and pigs.
• I'd buy myself an Outback (subie luv 4 eva).
• I'd buy my fiance' a Jeep Rubicon.
• I'd by my fiance' 4-wheelers and dirt bikes.
• I'd give my mom, dad, brother, mother in law, father in law, and sister in law 100,000 each.
• I'd take my dad to Ireland.
• My fiance' and I would backpack Europe.
• We'd also visit some tropical islands.
• My fiance' would quit his job and create his own pizza business.
• Donate to some local charities.
• We'd have an underground pool.
• I'd get a boob lift.
• And a whole new wardrobe!

• Abused circus animals.
• Caged animals, especially birds.
• Feeling un-worthy.
• Looking in the mirror and seeing things I wish I could change.
• Children in 3rd world countries, starving to death with swollen bellies.
• Religious indoctrination of children.
• Abduction stories.
• Thinking about losing a loved one.
• Seeing dead animals on the side of the road.
• Not fitting into my clothes.
• Kids who get picked on or bullied at school.
• Thinking about death.
• Certain movies.
• Certain songs.
• Getting my hopes up.
• Trying my best and ending with failure.
• Girls with no self respect.

October 1st, 2011 - forever.

• The first time we met you shook my hand and made me laugh all in one motion.
• I felt those butterflies in my tummy like everyone always talks about.
• You light up the room like no one else.
• You are funny and make me laugh most of the time I'm with you.
• Your the first guy I've been with that has hair on their chest. I've always thought that was extremely sexy.
• You've cried in front of me.
• Your eyes. End of story.
• I can count on you for anything. There hasn't been a day since we met that you've let me down.
• My family loves you.
• I love your family.
• You are charming.
• You open doors for me.
• I feel comfortable in my skin around you....

• Jersey Shore.
• Getting high or drunk.
• Clubbing.
• Jane Austen.
• Chuck Palahniuk.
• High fashion.
• Trends.
• Starbucks.
• MTV.
• TV, in general.
• One night stands.
• Dieting.
• Twilight books & movies.
• Energy drinks.
• Ramen noodles.
• Sleeping in.
• 3D movies.
• Beer.
• Sports.
• Dr. Oz.
• Myrtle Beach.

• butterfly kisses
• the ceiling melted like marshmellows
• constant humming
• spiders!
• the curtains turned into waves and floated through the room
• kaleidoscopes and tie dye
• never look at yourself in a mirror
• noodles dancing
• focus
• a constant longing for someone to hold you
• everything turns black and white
• people dissapear
• weightless
• my body cannot stay still
• i can write with my finger
• neon colors, everywhere
• talking trees
• eternity

• 1940's-1950's (women of that era)
• brother (his favorite things)
• every boy i've had sex with (private)
• fascinating individuals
• father (his favorite things)
• favorite sights
• favorite smells
• favorite sounds
• favorite tastes
• favorite touches
• least favorite sights
• least favorite smells
• least favorite sounds
• least favorite tastes
• least favorite touches
• mother (her favorite things)
• my firsts
• my life in numbers
• people i'm jealous of
• sister (her favorite things)
• things that annoy or anger me

• Where did you come from?
  • Who created you?
• Why were you such a dick in the Old Testament?
• Why do you allow children to starve to death?
• Do you watch the murders and rapes that happen everyday?
• Why didn't you put an end to the Holocaust?
• How big is the universe?
• Are there other planets like ours with sentient beings?
• Are they more or less advanced?
• Can I meet your buddy Satan?
• If he is the cause of all evil than why do you allow him to exist?
• Why don't you ever physically reveal yourself to people?
• Is Bigfoot real?

I've recently thrown out all of my old fingernail polish and I'm starting over. Here's the colors I've recently bought.

• Wet n Wild | "Hallucinate" | Clear glitter.
• Wet n Wild | "On A Trip" | Lilac.
• Wet n Wild | "FuchsiaRama" | Fuchsia.
• NYC | "Big Apple Red Creme" | Red.
• NYC | "Sidewalkers" | Grey.
• Sally Hansen | "Mint Sorbet" | Pale green.
• Pure Ice | "Taupe Drawer" | Dusty purple.

Colors I want:

• Bright orange.
• Pale yellow.
• Black.
• Pale pink.
• Bright pink.
• Sky blue.

• I Want You.
• Autumn Tale.
• The Muse.
• Black Cat, White Cat.
• Sugar Town.
• Lucie Aubrac.
• Plunkett & Macleane.
• Being John Malkovich.
• Rosetta.
• Ride With the Devil.
• Agnes Browne.
• Topsy-Turvy.
• Rear Window.
• Pitch Black.
• Condo Painting.
• Walking the Dead.
• Joe Gould's Secret.
• Where the Money Is.
• The Idiots.
• Up At the Villa.
• Boricua's Bond.

• Snow White & the Seven Dwarfs.
• Pinocchio.
• Bambi.
• Cinderella.
• Alice In Wonderland.
• Peter Pan.
• Lady and the Tramp.
• 101 Dalmations.
• The Jungle Book.
• The Aristocats.
• Robin Hood.
• The Rescuers.
• The Little Mermaid.
• The Rescuers Down Under.
• Beauty and the Beast.
• Aladdin.
• The Lion King.
• Pocahontas.
• Tarzan.
• The Hunchback Of Notre Dame.
• Mulan.

• Marijuana.
• A&D ointment.
• Gasoline.
• Old books.
• Pumpkin spice.
• Bleached whites.
• Lemon.
• Vanilla scented candles.
• Peanut butter cookies.
• New cars.
• New shoes.
• Clothes straight from the dryer.
• Burning incense.
• Thrift stores.
• Fried chicken.
• The Florida beaches.
• Garlic.
• The way my fiance' smells just after taking a shower.
• Coffee.
• The state fair.

• I am very shy and keep to myself. I enjoy being alone. I could honestly go for days without talking to anyone and be perfectly fine.
• I'm a serious movie-holic. I literally watch atleast 1-2 movies a day, sometimes more.
• I am un-employed, by choice. I stay at home with my wonderful and beautiful little boy.
• I am a republican atheist who is against abortion and for gay rights.
  • People are usually astounded by that.
• My fiance and I live on a mountain with a dirt driveway that's about 1 mile up. We live on 5 acres, it's absolutely beautiful up here.
  • I just HATE when it snows.
• My house is never messy. I clean religous...

• Buy new living room furniture
  • A wrap around couch.
  • Coffee table.
  • End table.
• Re-arrange furniture.
• A 32' inch or bigger flat screen, HD TV.
• New rug for living room and entrance.
• Get rid of our huge dining room table and find a smaller, more suitable wood table.
• Buy all new dishes and sell or donate the ones we have.
• Buy shelving for the cabinets in kitchen.
• Hang pictures up around the house.
• Paint the bathroom.
• Buy matching decor for the bathroom.
  • Frog themed for our son.
• Re-arrange master bedroom.

White/pale green.

• Garlic.
• Onion.
• Potatoes.
• Artichokes.
• Celery.
• Chives.
• Endive.
• Green onions.
• Green pears.
• Mushrooms.

Yellow/Orange.

• Apricots.
• Butternut squash.
• Canteloupe.
• Carrots.
• Mangoes.
• Peaches.
• Pumpkins.
• Sweet potatoes.

• James Franco.
• Lenny Kravitz.
• Travis McCoy.
• James Mcavoy.
• Johnny Depp.
  • In his younger days.
• Heath Ledger.
• Jason Schwartzmann.
• Jude Law.
• Jake Gyllenhaal.
• Alex Pettyfer.
• Robert Pattinson.
• Ryan Gosling.
• James Marsden.
• Andrew Garfield.
• Brad Pitt.
• Gerard Butler.
• Hugh Jackman.
• Joseph Gordon-Levitt.
• Christian Bale.

Kitchen:

• Dishes. (daily)
• Sweep/mop floors. (daily)
• Wash table, stove, & counters. (daily)
• Clean out the fridge. (monthly, 15th)
• Organize cupboards. (monthly, 20th)
• Clean microwave. (monthly, 25th)
• Clean AC filter. (weekly, monday)

Living Room:

• Vacuum rugs. (daily)
• Sweep/mop. (daily)
• Put away/organize things. (daily)
• Dust. (weekly, tuesday)
• Clean AC filter. (weekly, tuesday)
• Wash coffee table & end table. (daily)

Bathrooms:

• Clean sink. (weekly, wednesday)
• Clean toilet. (weekly, wednesday)
• Clean bathtub. (weekly, wednesday)

• Modest Mouse.
• Crystal Castles.
• Black Keys.
• Dethklok.
• Peter Bjorn & John.
• Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros.
• Fleet Foxes.
• Led Zeppelin.
• Nirvana.
• Mamas & the Papas.
• Jimmi Hendrix.
• Neutral Milk Hotel.
• Santigold.
• Coldplay.
• Built to Spill.
• Electric Wizard.
• Iron & Wine.
• Joy Division.
• R.E.M.
• The Animals.
• The Smashing Pumpkins.

• How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
  • Hmmm, probably my 60's. I love quiet spaces, naps, reading, simple things, baking, and peaceful strolls in the park.
• Which is worse, failing or never trying?
  • Never trying. Who knows what the possibilities are?
• If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
  • We are scared and self conscious creatures.
• When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
  • Yes, unfortunately. I think we all do, though.

• Softball.
• ROTC.
• Drama.
• Partying.
• Hanging out with friends.
• Tanning.
• Make-up.
• Shopping.
• Her dog Queen.
• Making up dances.
• Cheerleading.
• Sticking up for people.
• Dying her hair bleach blonde.
• Excercising.
• Candy.
• Horseback riding.

• I love it when : We lay in bed for hours just cuddling, talking, and kissing.
• The cutest thing you do is : Unknowingly bite your bottom lip when you get anxious.
• The thing I regret most is : Not saving myself for you.
• You make me mad when : You procrastinate.
• The best memory I have of us is : The first night you came to my house.
• I love that little thing you do when : We make love.
• I cant stand it when you : Are to hard on yourself.
• If I could want anything for you it would be : Happiness.
• I remember the day when : You first told me you loved me.
• The day we first kissed : Was the first time I'd ever been kissed like that.
• When we first met : You were absolutely charming and adorable.
• When we first touched : My heart skipped a beat.
• Your best physical feature is : Toss up between your chest and lips.
• When you get mad : You get silent.
• Even though we may argue at times : Actually, we don't.
• I love you even when : I'm sound asleep.

• Johnny Depp : What's Eating Gilbert Grape.
• Nicole Kidman : Rabbit Hole.
• Leonardo Dicaprio : Revolutionary Road.
• Kevin Spacey : 21.
• Claire Danes : Romeo & Juliet.
• Ashton Kutcher : Butterfly Effect.
• Collin Farrel : Phone Booth.
• Jim Carrey : Eternal Sunshine Of the Spotless mind.
• Angelina Jolie : Changeling.
• Corey Feldman : Stand By Me.
• Mike Myers : Inglorious Basterds.
• Bruce Willis : The Sixth Sense.
• John Travolta : Grease.
• Marilyn Monroe : Some Like It Hot.
• Val Kilmer : The Doors.
• Chevy Chase : Caddyshack.
• Brendan Fraiser : Bedazzled.
• Rachel McAdams : The Time Travelers Wife.
• Denzel Washington : Man On Fire.
• Chris Farley : Tommy Boy.
• Susan Sarandon : Avatar.

• My body.
  • I will never understand why.
• Making pizzas.
• Hunting.
  • >_<
• Working on cars.
  • Seeing him all sweaty and without his shirt on makes me hot.
• Playing Mario on his old school Nintendo.
• Dirt biking.
• Fixing things around the house.
• Giving me back massages.
• Fishing.
• Being a dad.
• Working out.
• Playing football.
• Marilyn Monroe.

• Natalie Portman.
• Brigitte Bardot.
• Marilyn Monroe.
• Liv Tyler.
• Sienna Miller.
• Evan Rachel Wood.
• Lauren Conrad.
• Blake Lively.
• Zooey Deschanel.
• Mila Kunis.
• Amanda Seyfried.
• Diane Kruger.
• Drew Barrymore.
• Taylor Swift.
• Eva Green.
• Shannyn Sossamon.
• Claire Forlani.
• Kirsten Dunst.
• Anne Hathaway.
• Kate Bosworth.
• Ginnifer Goodwin.

What makes me lazy:

• Rainy days.
• Watching a really good TV series.
• Making lists.
• Bubble baths.
• Laying in bed with my fiance'.
• Being ill.
• When I'm on my period.
• Eating to much.
• When I've had to much to drink.
• If it's too cold.
• If it's too hot.
• When I'm sad.
• Holidays.
• When family and friends are over.
• After I've just got done excercising.

In parentheses is the number of times seen.

• 311 (2)
• Papa Roach
• Muse (2)
• The Ataris
• Goo Goo Dolls
• Lifehouse
• Colbie Caillet
• Alice in Chains
• Foghat
• Velvet Revolver
• Flyleaf
• Blue Oyster Cult
• Blues Traveler
• The Wallflowers
• Gym Class Heroes
• Cute is What We Aim For
• Fall Out Boy
• Plain White T's.
• Foo Fighters

I know this makes me look bad but I was very out of control in high school. I am not this way anymore. And to anyone that follows me I'm sorry if this is TMI. -_-

• I had my first kiss when I was 14.
• I was head over heals in love with him.
• He was the first boy that I had done sexual things with (oral, fingering).
• I lost my virginity when I was 16.
• I was extremely drunk the night I lost my virginity.
• He was 22 and had a girlfriend.
• I've had sex with 12 men.
• And 2 women.
• I've had sex with people I barely knew.
• In high school I was labeled a "whore".
• I've had un-protected sex.
• I've had many one night stands.
• Most of the time I had sex in high school I was under the influence of drugs or alcohol.

• The women they choose for their covers are unique, beautiful, and interesting.
• Their playlists are amazing. I've gotten most of the bands I now love from Nylon.
• They recommend some really good independent films.
• The fashion is eclectic and fresh. It's always something so different yet extremely cute.
• They promote really good blogs and websites.
• I love trying all the makeup and hairstyles they have. It's always something you've never seen before.
• The fan art in the beginning. Some of them are so good!

• EOS lip balm.
• Walking the Greenway.
• Shopping at vintage/thrift shops.
• Fresh peaches.
• Rasberry icecream.
• Florida beaches.
• Sunny days.
• Hiking.
• Excercising.
• Creating playlists for my iPOD.
• Singing in the shower.
• Playing Guitar Hero with my brother.
• Visiting museums.
• Finding new and cute places to get lunch.
• Horseback riding.
• Driving with the windows down.
• Sleeping in.
• Daydream about my future.
• Baking sweets.
• Cooking for my fiance'.

• Ovaltine chocolate milk.
• Sweet iced tea with lots of lemon.
• Rasberry sweet iced tea.
• Mixed berry sweet iced tea.
• Diet Sierra Mist.
• Diet Coca-cola.
• Hazelnut Cappuccinos.
• Iced coffee.
• Arnold Palmer lemonade tea.
• Orange juice w/ no pulp.
• Cranberry, blackberry juice.
• Double chocolate chip frappuccinos from Starbucks.
• Iced water.
• Peach tea.
• Hot green tea with honey and lemon.
• Blueberry milkshakes.
• Strawberry banana smoothies.
• Hot chocolate with tons of mini marshmellows.

Physically:

• The fact that I've gained a significant amount of weight since I've moved to NC. And by significant I mean 40 lbs.
• My acne. I have it everywhere and it hinders my ability to wear certain clothing.
• My stretch marks.
• My breasts. They used to be perkier & smaller.
• My hair. It's boring, long, and just blah.
• My body hair. It's particularly dark and coarse. I hate it.
• My love handles. Go. Away.
• My upper thighs. They need some toning.
• My skin tone. I'm a little pale, I'd like to be darker.
• My fingers. I'd prefer them to be long & slender not short and stubby.
• My stomach. When I sit down there's a million rolls. I want my flat stomach back.

• my loved ones dying before i do
• dying at a young age
• my pets dying
• not doing all the things i want or experiencing enough before i die
• cockroaches, spiders, and praying mantis'
• embarassment
• my fiance' losing interest in me
• my fiance' cheating on me
• my fiance' finding another women more attractive than me
• driving in a 4 lane highway/interstate
• driving in the rain or snow
• when my brother climbs mountains or cliffs
• when my sister goes out with her friends (i'm afraid of her overdosing or crashing)
• asteroids hitting earth
• burning to death

• she is a very independent woman
• admits her mistakes and apologizes
• has always been there for me, even when i pushed her away
• her passion for horses
• she is one of the most brilliant painters i've ever seen and i'm not just saying that because she's my mother. she genuinely has raw talent that i find absolutely beautiful.
• she has never judged me for my past
• her green thumb and knowledge of flowers and all sorts of plants
• how graceful she has aged, most people think we're sisters
• she is a very hard worker, always has been
• her way with words, she always knows exactly what to say
• she is very outgoing and not afraid to speak her mind. something i wish i possesse...

• BITING MY NAILS. -_-
• Forgetting to turn off the oven.
• Speeding without realizing.
• Rolling stops.
• Talking during movies.
• Brushing off compliments.
• Losing my page in books that I'm reading.
• Taking my earrings off in the car and forgetting to bring them inside.

• 101 Dalmatians and Peter Pan (Wendy) are the only two Disney cartoon features with both parents that are present and don't die throughout the movie.
• 111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321
• 12 newborns will be given to the wrong parents daily.
  • Thankfully my son was the only one born that night.
• 27% of U.S. male college students believe life is "A meaningless existential hell."
• 315 entries in Webster's Dictionary will be misspelled.
• A cat has 32 muscles in each ear.
• A cockroach can live several weeks with its head cut off.
• A dime has 118 ridges around the edge.
• A dragonfly has a lifespan of 24 hours.

• Nylon.
• Cosmopolitan.
• Glamour.
• Seventeen.
• Real Simple.
• Parents.
• Good House Keeping.
• Better Homes & Gardens.
• Family Circle.
• Womens Day.
• All You.
• Womens Health.

• I have long wavy brown hair.
• Light green eyes with a dark blue lining around the outside.
• Size 9 in jeans.
• Size M-L in t-shirts.
• Size 34 D in bras.
• Size 7.5 in shoes.
• 5'1" height.
• 140 lbs.
• I have a freckle on both index fingers in the same exact spot.
• I have a scar on my lower abdomen from my c-section.
• I'm always wearing a diamond ring on my left ring finger.
• I have three freckles in the shape of a triangle on my lower right hip.
• I have dimples on my lower back.
• I have a scar on my right knee from where I tripped and fell on a broken beer bottle while extremely drunk.

Love:

• We have SO much variety when it comes to fashion & accessories.
• Make-up.
  • We can hide blemishes.
  • Or enhance the features we like.
• Soft skin!
• All around we have better hygeine.
• We tend to be more caring and sensitive.
• We get treated with gifts, treats, and dates more often.
• We're not as hairy.
• We're not expected to do hard labor.
• I get to experience all the little pleasures of carrying a life within my body.
• I like being able to try new hairstyles and colors.
• I don't have to shave my face.
• Chick flicks.
• Gossipping with my sister.

• Baked chicken with rosemary, sweet basil, and garlic.
  • Homemade chicken gravy from the drippings.
  • Mashed potatoes.
  • Green bean casserole with mushrooms.
  • Spinach salad with onion, tomato, and cucumbers.
  • My homemade oil and vinegar dressing for the salad.
• Baked salmon with dill weed and a garlic butter sauce.
  • Baked sweet potatoes with sour cream, butter, salt, and pepper.
  • Steamed asparagus with lemon pepper.
  • Bearnaise sauce to go over the salmon.
• Grilled chicken pasta.
  • Fettuccini noodles.

• 3: The number of pets I have.
• 23: My favorite number.
• 2: The number of times I've been in love.
• 14: The number of people I've had sex with.
• 17: The age when I moved out of my parents home.
• 8: The number of times I've dropped acid.
• 1: The number of children I have.
• 2,127: The amount of money in my bank account.
• 17: The number of states I've been to.
• 0: The number of countries I've been to.
• 12: The number of times I've flown in an airplane.
• 110: My ultimate goal weight.
• 85: The number of books I own. (Yes, I've counted them.)
• 2: The number of times I mop my floors daily.
• 14: The age I had my first kiss.
• 16: The age I lost my virginity.
• 90: The time in minutes it takes for me to g...

• Three words that most define myself:
  • Introverted.
  • Caring.
  • Organized.
• Three important people:
  • My fiance'.
  • My son.
  • My mother.
• Three things you'll find in my bedroom:
  • Books.
  • Guns.
  • A big comfy queen sized bed.
• Three things I can't do:
  • Make conversation.
  • Snap my fingers with my right hand.
  • Lick my elbow.
• Three things I do very well:

• Ayn Rand.
  • Not only do I admire her ability to be outspoken on the subject of atheism in a time where many people weren't, I've always admired her views about politics and government.
• Olympe de Gouges.
• Emily Dickinson.
• Jane Goodall.
• Margaret Mead.
• Marie Curie.
  • "Mother of Modern Physics"!
• Elizabeth Cady Stanton.
• Alice Paul.
• Marilyn Monroe.
  • She is just so beautiful, elegant, and absolutely lovely to watch.
• Audrey Hepburn.

• Citizen Kane (1941)
• The Godfather (1972)
• Casablanca (1942)
• Raging Bull (1980)
• Singin' in the Rain (1952)
• Gone with the Wind (1939)
• Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
• Schindler's List (1993)
• Vertigo (1958)
• The Wizard of Oz (1939)
• City Lights (1931)
• The Searchers (1956)
• Star Wars (1977)
• Psycho (1960)
• 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
• Sunset Blvd. (1950)
• The Graduate (1967)
• The General (1927)
• On the Waterfront (1954)
• It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
• Chinatown (1974)

• A high school diploma.
• A cellphone.
  • Mine recently died.
• Short hair.
• Cable TV.
• A laptop.
• Patience.
  • Working on this.
• Blonde hair.
• Brown Eyes.
• Alot of money.
• Enough time in the day.
• A messy house.
• A full length mirror.
• Sexy lingerie.
• Cancer.
• Long nails.
• Married parents.
• Nightmares.

Extraversion:

• This trait reflects a person's preference for certain kinds of social situations, and how they like to behave in such situations. People high in extraversion are energetic and seek out the company of others. People low in extraversion -- what some might call introverts -- tend to be more quiet and reserved.
  • You scored average for this trait, suggesting you lead a balanced life between extraversion and introversion.

Agreeableness:

• This trait reflects how we tend to interact with others, especially in terms of our altrusim and friendliness. People who score higher in agreeableness tend to be more trusting, friendly and cooperative than others. People who score lower tend to...

• She's fucking adorable.
• Have you seen her in Our Idiot Brother? Totally hot.
• I love her hair.
• Oh, those beautiful blue eyes.
• Her style. So classy, yet sexy.
• Her complexion and skin tone. Perfection.
• She's a great actress.
• She has a great voice and I love her music.
• Her speaking voice is beautiful too, though.
• She's funny.
• She's smart.
• She's talented.

• Create a book titled, Abandoned Houses of North Carolina.
  • Since moving to North Carolina I've fallen absolutely in love with the old tattered and abandoned houses scattered throughout this wonderful state.
  • Why not photograph them all and put it in a book?
  • I may start out small. Like, for instance, create a mini book of abandoned houses in only the county I live in.
• Get a book of my poems published.
  • I don't know, though. They're so private and I'm not sure if I like the idea of random people reading such personal thoughts.
• Learn French.
• Visit Paris, France.
• Create my own cleaning business.

• Marijuana.
• Salvia.
• Mushrooms.
• Ecstacy.
• MDMA.
• LSD.
• Cocaine.
• Dramamine.
• Codeine.
• Xanax.

• Holga camera.
• The complete series of the Gilmore Girls.
• Gardening tools.
• Tea kettle.
• Black peep toe heels.
• Movies.
  • Another Earth.
  • Midnight In Paris.
  • Our Idiot Brother.
  • Like Crazy.
  • Bridesmaids.
• Scrapbooking stuff.
• Bodycology cupcake scented lotion.
• Some hanging baskets for my flowers.
• A new grill.
• Polaroid film.
• A new battery for my digital camera.
• Some cute pajamas.

• How did you know you were pregnant?
  • My period was late and I started to experience all the normal symptoms.
• How old were you?
  • 20.
• Was it planned?
  • Not exactly but we weren't using protection either so I knew the consequence was there.
• What foods did you crave?
  • Peaches!
• Any morning sickness?
  • In the first 3 months, yes. -_-
• What was the worst side effect?
  • The morning sickness and back aches.

• “Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then He is not omnipotent. Is He able, but not willing? Then He is malevolent. Is He both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is He neither able nor willing? Then why call Him God?” – Epicurus
• There is simply no evidence.
  • I don't believe in unicorns, faries, the Loch Ness monster, or bigfoot, because they lack evidence. Why would I throw out that logic for god?
• The Bible is evil.
• The stories in the Bible don't match up with reality and are historically incorrect.
  • The earth being only 6,000 years old.
  • Noahs Ark. Really, c'mon.
  • The virgin birth.

• Hiking.
• Rock climbing.
• His dog Ares.
• Video Games.
• Ranch dressing with EVERYTHING.
• Alaska.
• Traveling.
• Skateboarding.
• Monk.
• Apple juice.
• Obstaining from smoking, drugs, and alcohol.
• Politics.
• Watching videos on Youtube.
• His 5,000+ collection of Pokemon cards.
• Guns.
• Classic muscle cars.
• MMA fighting.
• Working out.
• White chocolate.
• Exploring.

• YOUR REAL NAME : Crystal Griffin
• YOUR GANGSTA NAME : (first 4 letters of real name plus izzle.) Crysizzle
• YOUR DETECTIVE NAME : (fav color and fav animal) Green Owl.
• YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME : (your middle name and street you live on) Louise Tripple Springs.
• YOUR STAR WARS NAME : (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name.)Gricr.
• YOUR SUPERHERO NAME : (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink.) Purple Tea.
• YOUR ARABIC NAME : (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of you dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, and last letter of your moms middle name.) Rilrnfn.
• YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME :( Parents middle names.) Ann Vincent.
• YOUR GOTH NAME : (black, and the name of one of your pets.) Black Pixie.

• Male kiss : I was 14 and at my boyfriend Jacobs house. We were both sitting on the couch in his room, holding hands, I was so nervous. He kissed my forehead, lifted up my chin, and kissed me. I had no idea what I was doing and I'm sure I was awful, haha.
• Female kiss : The night I had my first alcoholic beverage. We were playing truth or dare and her name was Beth. She was gorgeous.
• Alcoholic beverage : Straight from the bottle, Jack Daniels. I was 13 and with a couple of girlfriends. We stole it from her dads liquor cabinet.
• Car : 1990 blue Subaru legacy. I was 20 and paid 1300 for it.
• Love : His name was Jacob. He asked me out in the 8th grade and we dated off and on for 3 years. I was head over heels in love with him. He made me absolutely crazy.
• Job : Dishwasher at Triggers Seafood restaraunt. I was 15 and the only girl working in...

• Abused animals.
• Roadkill.
• Litter.
• Homeless people.
• 2 girls 1 cup.
• Women choosing to stay in abusive relationships.
• My mother crying.
• My father when he's drunk.
• Car accidents.
• Anything on documenting reality.
• Kids being picked on.
• Obese children.
• Anyone overweight in general.
• Blood.
• Dread locked hair.
• The Westboro Baptist church signs.
• My reflection in the mirror.

There was once a time I was happy with myself. I had confidence and I loved the way I looked. I was also 110 pounds and I worked out. Since moving to NC I've really let myself go, I've gained 50 lbs. I need a change. I cannot do this anymore. My fiance' deserves better. I deserve better.

• CW: 155 lbs
• GW: 135 lbs
• Work out for 30 minutes to an hour each day.
• Do strength training twice a week.
• Do yoga every other day.
• Run or take walks at the Greenway.
• Take my brothers dog for walks daily.
• Take up a hobbie that includes physical activity.
• Run/walk a marathon.
• Do not eat out of boredom or emotion.
• Portion control!

• I love you more than you could ever imagine.
• I love you more than anything in the universe.
• I love you more than chocolate chip waffles.
• Or sweet tea.
• I love you more than reading a book on stormy days.
• I love you more than finding unique vintage items in thrift stores.
• I love you more than hiking.
• I love you more than music.
• I love you more than bubble baths.
• I love you more than your mother loves you.
• I love you more than you love me.
• I love you more than I could ever try to explain.
• I love you more than my iPod.
• I love you more than Reeses peanut butter...

• Sylvia.
• Emma.
• Louise.
• Victoria.
• Leilani.
• Esme'.
• Elisabeth.
• Aubrey.
• Autumn.
• Summer.
• Isabel.
• Lenora.
• Claire.
• Kasha.
• Madaline.
• Mae.
• Elise.
• Lisbeth.
• Taylah.
• Josalyn
• Valarie.

• Lost my virginity while I was drunk and he had a girlfriend.
• Had unprotected sex.
• Skipped a lot of school.
• Failed classes.
• Partied WAY to much.
• Got involved in the wrong crowd.
• Had sex with people I did not know very well.
• Blacked out.
• Had sex with a guy my friend liked.
• When my parents called the cops on me because I lied and told them I was at a friends when really I was at a party.
• Flashed my boobs at people.
• Lied about my age to hook up with an older guy.
• Made out with a girl to attract some guys.
• Took hard drugs.
• I stole some things from Hollister.

10 things you want for christmas :

• Record player.
• Tea kettle.
• iTunes gift card.
• Vintage jewelry.
• Black Swan DVD.
• Pretty baking pans.
• Money.
• Anything involving owls.
• Gift cards for Target.
• Cute jammies.

9 musicians/bands you love :

• Modest Mouse.
• Joy Division.
• Of Montreal.
• Wavves.
• Wolf Parade.
• King Kahn & the BBQ Show.
• Fiona Apple.
• Coldplay.

• I would be thin.
• My skin would be flawless.
• I'd be effortlessly beautiful.
• I'd have Kirsten Dunst' wardrobe.
• I'd follow my dreams.
• Travel the world.
• We'd live infinitely.
• Fairies, gnomes, unicorns, and elves lived in the forests.
• The rivers, oceans, and lakes are free of pollution.
• Rainforests would not be slaughtered.
• We'd all be vegans.
• We'd never say hurtful things to each other.
• Murder would never occur.
• Children would not go to bed hungry and they'd all have happy parents who loved them very much.
• Life would be simple and care free.
• Money grew on trees.

• Creamy peanut butter w/ rasberry jelly sandwhiches on whole wheat bread.
• Peanut butter, honey, and banana sandwhiches.
• Peanut butter on graham crackers.
• Peanut butter and oreos.
• Vanilla icecream topped with berries and caramel sauce.
• French fries and ranch.
• Veggie pizza and ranch.
• Porkchops w/ applesauce.
• Milk and cookies.
• Strawberries and chocolate.
• Bacon and syrup.
• Eggs and ketchup.
• Red grapes and munster cheese.
• Hummus and raw veggies.
• Dark chocolate and mint.
• Lemon with sweet iced tea.

A.

• apple trees
• affection
• abandoned houses
• amusement parks
• antlers
• auto-biographies
• ancient greek mythology
• animal instincts
• asian culture
• airports
• art, of every kind
• angel food cake
• apricots
• avocado
• anchor tattoos and prints
• asteroids
• arcades
• auqariums

B.

Physically:

• My eyes. They're very light green with a dark thin blue lining on the outside. People compliment me about that the most.
• My feet. They're particularly small, always clean, and polished.
• My smile.
• My calves. They're dainty & small.
• My ears.
• My butt. It's nice and round, haha.
• My voice.
• My height. I love being short.
• My collarbones.
• My neck.

Personality:

• I am a very loving person.
• I genuinely care for others.
• I like to give back.
• My intellect.
• My sense of style. I'd say it's classy & ...

• Naturally thin women who can eat cheeseburgers, debbie snacks, and potato chips all day long and not gain a single pound.
• People with flawless skin.
• People who travel the world.
• Free spirits.
• People who are outgoing and charismatic.
• Girls who are comfortable with their bodies.
• People who are very musically talented.
• People with lots of money.
• Photogenic people.
• Girls with curly hair.
• Girls who are able to do their makeup extremely well.
• People who don't procrastinate.
• People with photographic memories.
• Very articulate people.
• People that manage their money wisely.
• Peole that live in Asheville. -_-

• Jason Alexander
• Bruce Springsteen
• Ray Charles
• John Coltrane
• Augustus Caesar