- so i graduated yesterday.
- dont feel any different
- fvs,e.r,mgeklrmer
- im rrelly depreessed
- my mother doesnt give a SHIT ahahhahahaa
- ive been personally excluded from too many things today and i just cant deal with it. thats what upsets me the most. being personally excluded..
- what ever did i do wronggregmggg
- and beach week is sooon
- timmys gonna hook up with people
- vvvv5555555555uu55uthfdfre
- went to the condo pool today
- this is pointless..
- i hate everyone bryyeyeee
may 31 2012 ∞
may 31 2012 +
- after posting that 3 seconds ago..
- i log onto facebook and see that baileys status is "jasmin is my lifee"
- which means jasmins at spencers.
- which means timmy lied
- which makes me fucking pissed omg i HATE HIMIUjfhuvdjkmzdk
- I LITERALLY HATE EVERYONE
- i wish i had the guts to hang myself
feb 25 2012 ∞
feb 25 2012 +
- no one even saw.
- he kept shoving me back.
- and i felt like i was just falling more invisible as everyone ignored it
- every bad name in the book was shouted at me.
- and from the audience, still nothing.
- i looked in a panic to make eye contact with anyone but it was as if they didn't want eyes to meet.
- i wanted to sink into the floor.
- down down
- i later went to the bathroom, alone.
- i curled up in the corner and cried.
- and cried and cried.
- i left the bathroom to where i found him standing with another girl.
- i got jealous and walked to another room alone.
- i then heard his voice echoing through the halls saying how annoying i was, and ho...
feb 12 2012 ∞
feb 12 2012 +
- its been a while. a lot has happened..
- we had some boring school..
- friday- magdas, got really drunk, parents had to come, i was incoherent, terrrribble,told them all my secrets accidentally
- now i have to go to the doctors, therapist, eat healthier.. gym more
- also on friday i had my psych exam.. and then my lang exam..
- saturday~biggest hangover ever. spencers bday.. odonells, dave n busters
- sunday- nothing really.. i thinkk.. nothing too intense.
- monday nothin
- tuesday- yesterday.. mom called me out on cuts.. cried.. broke down.. potbellys with allie.. macys..
- today Wed.- calc exam.. sewit had her drivers test.. failed... went to macys, watched smrkovski vids. emily came over... yogi castle..
jan 18 2012 ∞
jan 18 2012 +
- today was boring.
- i dont remember my dreams
- allie didnt come to school again:(
- at lunch me and timmy chillaxed
- it was great but like he acted like non of last night happened
- i AM still sad.
- i am in misery.
- he just kinda brushes it off
- after school me alex t, gage, spencer, and timmy went to wendys
- me and spencer are the only ones that ate
- i got myself a baked potato and it was the best dankest yummiest thing ever
- then we saw this scary undercover.
- then gage and alex left
- me and timmy and spencer were awkwardly there and so i just went home
- timmy drank. at spencers. like what a surprise
jan 4 2012 ∞
jan 4 2012 +
- i have lots of stuff to say on the recent events!
- buuuut im too high right now.
- and im gonna have to type later.
- dfjngdjkmnwgejkmrg me and elli are having great chats recently.
- yeah the end.
jan 2 2012 ∞
jan 2 2012 +
- so now its almost 1am.
- this time im not high while writing this.
- i went to chipotle with nicky and macy and there was a million people therenrgkwnergrnkg
- then steven invited us back to his place and we went there and just awkwardly watched a movie
- graham was kindos touchy with me... lolz
- dave knocked over a million mountain dew cans.
- we watched team america it was great
- now i wanna sleep.
- goodnight.
dec 29 2011 ∞
dec 29 2011 +
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- wow its been a while.
- im high....
- uncle julios tonight..
- matts
- timmys
- lots of stuff to catch up on cause im sooooo tired. but yeah.. crazy summer... ill write later pceeeee
aug 4 2012 ∞
aug 4 2012 +
- damn.
- another boring friday..
- half day
- got high with nathan timmy and macy
- went to panera
- timmy and i didnt really speak
- kfc/taco bell
- saw kfc greg.
- went to macys dads
- watched bring it on
- ate a million cookies and im stuffed
- sydni got mad we didnt invite her
- timmys at spencers
- oh yeah
- i forgot to say that the other day we decided not to be friends
- its awkward
- and sad
- but he didnt treat me like a human
- it was bad.
- i cried
mar 2 2012 ∞
mar 2 2012 +
feb 24 2012 ∞
feb 24 2012 +
- so its been a while
- tonight was the super bowl and giants won against patriots
- haley rip <3
- timmy problems
- dont even feel like talking about life.
- so i shall make another list of shit i gotta do
- good bye.
feb 5 2012 ∞
feb 5 2012 +
- so today 1/5/12
- its like 12 20am now though
- and i need to sleep
- but i just wanna say that i had the scariest fucking dream last night where i snuck out with my friends and it was dark and we went to this building and then someones parent came and then it was just me macy and timmy and then the buildings walls dissappeared and then it was just like the tile floor floating in space like we were standing on a platform and if you fell off you would probably fall forever and die
- and then timmy fell off and i was hysterical
- and then me and macy went to jump off at the same time but she jumped first and then somehow we landed on earth and our lives were redeemed but i couldnt find timmy:((
jan 6 2012 ∞
jan 6 2012 +
- so. lots to catch up on!!
- lols. okay so new years eve~i went to spencers
- timmy said he'd date me again--- MY WISH! IT CAME TRUE
- and then he said he didnt want to like the next day lol
- then we went to sheilas with macy and seth
- sheila obvs didnt want me there... o well
- sydni got her tragus pierced and i wanna kill myself.
- i kissed timmy when the ball dropped and it was perf
- went to nickys after
- i texted elli foreverrrr and we just talked and it was great!
- then yesterday: which i was too high to type out lol
- i didnt do much. but then i went with tim...
jan 2 2012 ∞
jan 2 2012 +
- i did nothing today.
- mom and dad went to north carolina
- timmy blew me off again
- did nothing.
- drove for like an hour.
- i wanna smookeeee
- not gonna happen though.. :(
- mom told me to dye my hair hahaha
- its kinda late doe
- im hungry!!!
- maybe timmy will go to the mall tomorrow
- OH i had crazy ass dreams last night.
- aaaaaaaaaannnd they just slipped my mind..
- jk theyre back.
- the first one was where seth worked at this chicken place in the mall and i stole some chicken and he chased after me holding one of his sperrys in the air. it was funny.
- then this other dream where me, furkan, a...
dec 29 2011 ∞
dec 29 2011 +
- okay so im reaaaaaaallllyyy high right now. like omg.
- spencer called me at like 10:45 and was like come out ~
- so we went and got jasmin but she fucked shit up and made such a hassle.
- then we went to mcdonalds and chilled there for a while
- then alex kassman came with jonie and jonie had painted his hair. painted not dyed. lol and some other fat dude
- oh and ADAM SERES WAS THERE <3 and ian and someone else.
- then this indian family came
- then steven toone and eithen gettier came. they took emily floria's jeep there. not licensed and very drunk.
- then some asians came and took lemonade.
- and then dave and steven gresh and graham came.
- then we went to timmys truck and graham a...
dec 28 2011 ∞
dec 28 2011 +
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- ive been here for about 8 days..
- its interesting. im already well adjusted
- i went out the second night
- got sorta tipsy
- but last night i got drunk
- it was sorta bad i just upset
- i scraped my hand on the concrete walls
- who's to say it was an accident or not
- idkkkkkkk
- but yeaaaahh
- nothing much else to say k bai
aug 31 2012 ∞
aug 31 2012 +
- DAMN.
- been a long time.
- high as a muddahfuckkah
- today i dyed my hurzz blonde but it failed..
- watched bms
- school obvs
- twins mulched
- went to family therapy
- went to macys
- went to poolsville
- smoked
- macys
- food, spongebob
- i called timmy
- and the asshole wwas like.. "i dont wanna hang out im getting drunk"
- and im like "..." i wont be here all break :/ (florida con alz)
- but yeah.. all i could do is have this scenario where some girl was going down on ...
mar 29 2012 ∞
mar 29 2012 +
- normally i would've by now..
- this isn't okay
- im angry
- and i think i've ruined every last friendship i had tonight
- don't people know to leave me alone when im pissed?
- roighsdnjfgnkjrg
- things will only get worse if they try and tell me theyre sorry or whatnot
- and it doesn't help that timmy calls me dramatic and shiz
- ..even if i am..
- it makes me more pissed.
- ughhghgh and im mad at everyone
- and i haven't a single soul to talk to.
- not even one..
- ughghghg getting sad again i must sleep this off.
- goodnight.
feb 25 2012 ∞
feb 25 2012 +
- gym
- shower
- clean room.
- get gas
- pierce ear
- do homework
- dye hair back blonde
- be happy.
- sleep until summer
feb 5 2012 ∞
feb 5 2012 +
- its sunday
- and i must explain my weekend from friday to today.
- friday: failed math test, after school went home, potbellys with allie and nicky and i got hit on like 5 times and it was cute.
- then i got gas with mom and went to cvs and got more hair dye
- then nickys, sydni and macy redyed my hair.
- its darker now:)
- people came over. got piss drunk.
- timmy came. sydni and adam had sex. timmy and me. macy and seth. nicky and joe. allie and leor. (just hook up)
- then the gals and leor slept over.
- oh also earlier me and nicky cut ourselves in the bathroom lol but i did a looot more than she did and everyone saw and it was terrible
jan 8 2012 ∞
jan 8 2012 +
- today was actually terrible.
- im tired as fuck so im gonna make this short.
- buut we actually didnt do much in school today.
- i gave elli a nancy drew game
- sydni came in late
- ms soule was absent
- crew meeting
- project with sewit
- drove in sadness
- went home, cried a fuckton
- cried some more
- talked to timmy, and hes telling me hes always here as a friend and that he still loves me but were no good for eachother and the way he was trying to say it was kind, and he was nice and all but i wanted to die "just as friends"
- kill me.
- so i cried more
jan 3 2012 ∞
jan 3 2012 +
- oh my jesus.
- so i got high again tonight. it was great.
- we went to nickys at 5. smoked at the cut. then went to macys and smoked at her apartment...
- her mom found out lololol
- timmys been fucking ignoring me and i bet you hes hooking up with someone right now i HATE him so much. uifsdhggkasdig
- me and nicky stalked about joes car for like 2 hours and when he finally came we were like LOL FUNNY SEEING YOU HERE.. and he was kinda a dick...
- but it was worth it.
- i had a dream where i was in target with timmmy and picking out shoes. and irvin was there... and also another dream where i was flying out of a plane and it was scaryyy/
- ......timmy just texted me "heyyy!!!" hes...
dec 31 2011 ∞
dec 31 2011 +
- ~high again~
- i woke up a fuckinnn 1pm lolz
- had a dream where we were having this big assembly at school.
- patrick alejandro had a big singing part in the assembly.
- something about jessica konecke and how she liked red
- anatomy class, timmy switched in.
- so anyways today >
- went to timmys at like 2pm
- ate some spaghetti.
- hooked up a lil
- smoked some weed in his bedroom and it was the shit
- got high as fuck
- hooked up for like 20 min and it was the best 20 min of my life.
- then we went on a beautiful nature drive.
- ended up at burger king and realized that...
dec 28 2011 ∞
dec 28 2011 +
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