🌷April

week one started off okay. Currently reading 2 romance books and certain scenes are making me think of someone. He's being distant. It's making me feel down. He reached out to me and told me he had a huge crush on me and finds me attractive. Why did he reach out to me in the first place? Feeling down and I haven't read any of my books in almost a week because they make me think of him.

🌻March

week one mostly okay. Neighbours are being anti social. week two why do my neighbours hate me? My TV broke. Finally been to the hairdressers! Bought some books from the charity shops (I found Midnight Sun!) week three I shared my feelings with Ian and he ignored me. Feeling depressed, but after a good cry, I gained clarity on why I had been acting this way. week four why does March feel never ending? Why do my neighbours go out of their way to make as much noise as possible? Tired of feeling earthquakes everytime they 'close' (slam) a door.

⋆⁺₊❄ ‧₊˚ ⋅ February

week one I think I've burnt myself out with reading. I've been reading book after book after book due to library due dates and reading is starting to feel like a chore rather than a hobby. February is being a realy hard mental health month. I really want to self harm. week two was okayish. week three An acquaintance from my past reached out to me and expressed that they have feelings for me. logged into that game after exactly 2 months and already feeling the negative energy from the toxic player base. Scum neighbours are triggering me to self harm so I cut off most of my hair instead of slicing up my skin. I hate my hair but heyho, atleast I'm still clean from self harm. Am disappointed that my hairdressers appointment would have only been 2ish weeks away after waiting since the beginning of Jan. Depressed. week four emotionally drained. No motivation to do even the simplest of tasks.