i will blow a little kiss to every bloom i see! how lovely it is that winter never fails to melt to spring!

calendar

• ✔ march 1: liz day!
• ✔ march 13: evan's bday!
• ✔ march 15: steph's bday!
• ✔ march 16: liz's top surgery!
• ✔ march 20: liz's bday! / first day of spring
• ✔ march 21: beca's bday!
• ✔ march 25: blaize's bday!

goals

• maybe adopt a cat? sort through feelings
• be at peace
• write & read

hyperfixations

• cloud from final fantasy 7
  • i wish i wasn't like this....i see a pretty boy and i'm like "i love him" and also "i want to be him" and now i'll never know peace again
• enrique & hypnos from the gilded wolves, again
  • is it gender envy? is it the bisexuality? who knows?

best moments of the month

• the sleepover with liz, building my desk and setting up my office; having an impromptu liz day and ordering thai food while watching svu; rewatching adventure time; getting the news that i'll be vaccinated soon; visiting lil's workspace at lodgic and instantly falling in love; the sun coming back and feeling like more of me is waking up every day; driving to oshkosh with dad; tyler coming over for the first time in a YEAR!!; getting my first covid vaccine!; calling blaize for their birthday; spending time with melissa & carolyn; playing sims and watching movies while i'm paralyzed from period cramps; spending the day with nick and watching midsommar while sitting on the floor; spending the day cuddling with mars and stroking their hair as they snoozed on my lap; feeling mars lean over and kiss my cheek repeatedly; the way mars would squeeze my hand three times to signal that they love me