ㅤㅤ one of these nights // tonight i can write

    • i, who stopped that day with this old story / i'm going through heartache longer / than the times we loved
    • i no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe i love her / love is so short, forgetting is so long

ㅤㅤ charles bukowski // adrift // 4.48 psychosis // valley of the dolls // idontwannabeyouanymore

    • there is a place in the heart that / will never be filled / and / we will wait / and / wait / in that space
    • i don’t know whether i’ve lost the way / or whether from the beginning i was lost, / for whoever i’m with, a corner of my heart is still always lonely
    • i can fill my space / fill my time / but nothing can fill this void in my heart
    • born with a void, hard to destroy with love or hope / built with a heart broken from the start
    • was i made from a broken mold?

ㅤㅤ helena // homemade dynamite

    • can we pretend to leave, and then / we'll meet again / when both our cars collide
    • might get your friend to drive / but he can hardly see / we'll end up painted on the road / red and chrome, all the broken glass sparkling

ㅤㅤ tear // kill this love // burn it

    • my heart breaks, please i'd rather burn it / so that the pain and my lingering love don’t remain at all anymore
    • i tried putting the memories on fire / i hoped my regrets would become the ashes but / it became even hotter
    • the past you, the present you / anything is fine, so, set fire to it / whether it'd become the blazing sun / or cinders that remain / always, the choice and decision is yours to make

ㅤㅤ you never know // working for the knife // so far away // one of these nights // alone // right where you left me

    • even as the whole world is changing / it feels like i’m still the same
    • i always knew the world moves on / i just didn't know it would go without me
    • why am i here alone when everyone else is running?
    • i can’t quickly forget, because even when the pages of the calendar turns, i’m still in the same place
    • i become afraid of my current image where loneliness has stopped at that time
    • did you ever hear about the girl who got frozen? / time went on for everybody else, she won't know it

ㅤㅤ heather // happiness // happier

    • but how could i hate her? she's such an angel / but then again, kinda wish she were dead as she / walks by
    • i hope she'll be a beautiful fool / who takes my spot next to you / no i didn't mean that / sorry i can't see facts through all of my fury
    • and now i'm picking her apart / like cutting her down will make you miss my wretched heart / but she's beautiful / she looks kind / she probably gives you butterflies

ㅤㅤ flower // serendipity

    • before i called his name / he was only / an object without meaning / when i called his name / he came to me / and he blossomed into a flower
    • when you called me / i became your flower

ㅤㅤ new year's day // one of these nights // doughnut

    • you squeeze my hand three times in the back of the taxi / i can tell that it's gonna be a long road
    • goodbye, we said our awkward goodbyes / i turn and say, today’s road is so long
    • the moment i waved and turned around / i was overcome with loneliness

ㅤㅤ deprê // as it was

    • agora você vai embora / e quem fica é sempre quem chora
    • seems you cannot be replaced / and i'm the one who will stay

ㅤㅤ the truth untold // the 1

    • maybe back then / if i had just a little more courage / and stood before you / would everything be different now?
    • i persist and resist the temptation to ask you / if one thing had been different / would everything be different today?

ㅤㅤ lover // christmas tree // restless

    • can i go where you go? / can we always be this close forever and ever?
    • i'll tell you / a million little reasons / i'm falling for your eyes / i just want to be where you are
    • please put me in your pocket / please take me away with you / no matter where, i want to be at your side

ㅤㅤ never grow up // ribs // 28

    • so here i am in my new apartment / in a big city, they just dropped me off / it's so much colder than i thought it would be / so i tuck myself in and turn my nightlight on
    • this dream isn't feeling sweet / we're reeling through the midnight streets / and i've never felt more alone / it feels so scary getting old
    • i am breathing but / seems like my heart is broken / yeah, now i've become an adult who finds it hard to grasp my dream / and that's growing up

ㅤㅤ child // 2080

    • why are there so many things to do / when i’m still going so slow? / i’m so young / i still get shaken just like that
    • the fast-paced world does not wait for my youth

ㅤㅤ this love // cardigan

    • your kiss, my cheek / i watched you leave / your smile, my ghost / i fell to my knees / when you're young, you just run / but you come back to what you need
    • i knew you / leaving like a father / running like water / when you are young, they assume you know nothing / [...] i knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired / and you'd be standing in my front porch light / and i knew you'd come back to me
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