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at least till saturday and then after my period is over dec 18 2011 ∞
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thank you mom thanks! u r a big help i hate you sometimes i hate you i hate you chris broke up with me again i told him his stuff is waiting at my house but he hasn't picked it up yet+++ (?) will we get back together (?) dunno, ... dec 12 2011 ∞
dec 12 2011 + i don't want a lot this year
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dec 12 2011 + good good times tonight 2 packs of marlboro reds and his basement
kissing___ i missed it so much-- pinning me down on the floor faces close waiting_ kissing
touching__not too much i wouldn't let you-- "taking it slow" remember? you do but you want to take it back-- "maybe i shouldn't"-me
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dec 4 2011 + should i stay or should i go leave the baby to itself or watch it grow up to hate me like some desolate child
death is not the answer but might be someday just don't do it to me please don't do it to me i'm begging you
you hurt me inside took all goodness out and filled it in with damages and half hearted hello's and sudden unwanted goodbye's all i ask is for you to say the words and mean them but you don't won't say them at all
dec 3 2011 ∞
dec 3 2011 + i am cold and lonely and lost too young and too old i don't understand anything fully too often overcome by sadness and bad bad feelings
fragile not fragile not i want to be a fairy or a butterfly or a flower or a grey and white feather
i will never be innocent again, i have given it away too quickly and for the wrong reasons to whom may be the wrong person sexual disgusting shallow i loved you first for you and then only for the sake of loving someone anyone even when you don't love me back even especially when love becomes a dead word and means i have no conception of dec 3 2011 ∞
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may 2 2012 + got high for the first time friday night
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dec 17 2011 + i am so obsessed with what people think of me it's absolutely ridiculous i hate the size of me
"naturally, we are all caught in down moods and it's a matter of chemical imbalances and an existence, which at times seems to forbid any real chance of happiness." dec 14 2011 ∞
dec 14 2011 + 12:18 am sunday night
probably gunna be late late late again tomorrow 11:58 am- was late
fuck this school fuck it fuck it i need drugs "My past is perilous, but each scar I bear sings; Monuments to where I have been; And melodies to where I am going" -Incubus +baby came over++++ touchy touchy feely (i can't help it) no all the way though/not prepared/ other stuff was done dyed hair- again----fuck SCHOOL FUCK IT F... dec 5 2011 ∞
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even if i had somewhere to go on new years i wouldn't go because i can't leave mom alone __ that would be too sad and lonely for her
an apartment in new york city with roommates from different countries who were clean where x could sleep over and candles warm sheets dream catchers and cigarettes and coffee__// or maybe my own place with white walls and wood floors decorate for christmas even though i don'... dec 4 2011 ∞
dec 4 2011 + when did this body die? when it was hated or why it was hated? in between your bedsheets it is beautiful too big too bulky too not much me please don't look at me i'm too round and soft like putty when i want to be sharp and hard all the wrong things in all the wrong places i don't want to be saved
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dec 3 2011 + abrupt abrupt abrupt
my first forward advances towards you the movement of your hands on me your taking of what is mine and me becoming yours your bad feelings overtaking you and changing you and us and me feeling it too much then not enough but still too much the changes are too abrupt too too too your breaking and my shattering because of it changing feelings you feel but don't tell
abrupt- how happiness and love turns to lust and then to nothing at all dec 2 2011 ∞
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"I can see it coming from the edge of the room/ creeping in the streetlight/ holding my hand in the pale gloom/ can you see it coming now/ I think I'm breaking down again" [Breaking Down] "I would give all this and heaven too/ I would give it all if only for a moment/ that I could just understand/ the meaning of the word you see/ cause I've been scrawling it forever/ but it never make sense to me at all... poor language it doesn't deserve such treatment/ and all my stumbling phrases never amounted to anything worth this feeling oh this heaven, never could describe such a feeling as I knew it words were never so useful/ so I was screaming out a language that I never knew existed before" [All This and Heaven Too] "And it's over/ And I'm going under/ But i'm not giving up/ I'm just giving in." [... dec 14 2011 ∞
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dec 6 2011 + my emotions are in your shadow__ tinted by you always since__whether through pain or bliss if you want me to stay i will---i need to hear those words come from your mouth---if you want me to leave i will---
I will deal with emotionals and heavy.hearts and sulkiness and harsh words if it's what you truly want ---NEED--- keep coming back keep coming back keep coming back__ i will be here for a while i am weak without you without a doubt dec 3 2011 ∞
dec 3 2011 + went for a walk_ so nice out and not cold
saw the druggie walk into a sign/makes me sad /pathetic miss you miss you miss you miss you i won't say the words that i feel until you feel them too diet coke, salad, black coffee++++ outfit- burgendy sweatshirt cut off neck--brown tank-- long skirt--boots---hat dec 4 2011 ∞
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