☆— january

it's nice to have my brother here with us again - pal's bday and drinking some vodka to not feel like shit ! - SUPERBAND S2 IS COMING - god... - 08/01 cried on my bday in front of my family and frens but whats new; i think it's over for us; hyunjin watched ´the greatest showman´ - feeling so anxious; whats the point of everything anyways - more pills! - scared about the sun not coming out lol - nilie's bday<3; i ruin the vibe - alice in boderland - RADIANT CHILDREN ARE INSANEEEE - talking w serg - yuto i love you; oneus's first album i love you - i love my small genius bub; bro's bday :) - ´bridge to therabitia´ will always hurt - kinito and thiago day <3; cant see a future for me anymore - glad i met w my frens even when i wanted to cancel; color rush :( - big star - han is an alien so am i

☆— february

it's pathetic the amount of time i spend talking out loud w myself - long day; her texts made me sad...huh ?? - i love my frens - I LOVE SENKU - i hate that she only appears in my dreams - pre-sundays feeling SUCKS - our precious hui, stay heathy and happy, we'll be waiting for u - MY BROTHER SAW ME TALKING W MYSELF... this is embarrasing - ´the queen's gambit´ - no one cares about the things that matter for me, more than me - health being shitty again - bad weather and regrets ? - zhennan - skz warms my heart - reading a lot - tearing up has been so easy lately - onf's voice: it's so hard ! - scared of march... please be nice

☆— march

i think i'm more sick uh - reading and reading - big breakdown and fake scenarios w more breakdowns - anything related to music makes tear up... in a different way now... - chuang 2021 - wanna go to korea...i just wanna go abroad tbh - I GOT MY PHONE !!! FUCKING FINALLY - 08/03 period :) happy woman's day lol - sungjin enlistment - islandia - no chances fot gks :/ - PENTAGON CB... WOODZ CB... CHANGBIN AND FELIX'S SONG... stop it - im bad w technology fr - 18/03 day with frens <3 - hyunjin ♥ hbd luv - going to sleep rlly late these days - i miss hyunjin so bad - seungmin and chagbin's song <3 - self harm thoughts - i talked to twt oomf in dms omg - rodita liked both of my comments on insta aaaa - not dreaming so much this month uh - OSCAR... - day6 are coming !!- ablo and slowly apps xd

☆— april

i just really miss hyunjin - "you love him and all he does is criticize every thing in your life" - so sad with chuang second elimination :( what to do - i get mad one second and all i think is in self harm - oomf said something nice about me fangirling after a long time and i wanted to cry:(<3 - "always curious about iffy tomorrow" - this joochan guy... - cant stop thinking about self harm - i answered one letter in slowly - tokyo ghoul s1 - gengyin - i laughed and aunt said "its been a long time since i heard you laugh" - i almost did it... - started to watch blacklist - sadnesssss - i miss hyunjin performing so much - kingdom.. - i deleted slowly - mad w bro1 these days - HAN - day6's music makes me happy - that felix video about compliments...made me tear up lol - WISH YOU BACK.... I LOVE JISUNG'S MUSIC SO MUCH - chuang final... - painted my nails omg - tbz's kevin...stop; 26/04 period - GWSN IS COMING - algodon

☆— may

organized this month with little lists lets goo - getting into aurora's music - tasting waters with korean classes again - tbz's kevin - so if u havent date someone u are not cool and people make u feel pathetic bc ?? not cool - finished the last 10 pages of the little prince !!! - 06/05 felt so relaxed it was insane - stye is back NAOOO - i've been so hungry god - getting overwhelmed by music is my passion - can kevin be my fren - oneus cb ! - mayfly teams in kingdom CRAZIES - 22/05 period - frensss - postin/using more ig - perhaps she doesnt hate me - dvwn'voice,,,his music wow - panorama - gwsn cb !!! - aunts saying that i've changed and they like this version of me; i've noticed it too but i dont know how to feel - i need to let out my feelings,,not only the good ones

☆— june

this wonderful woman told me this "you can eat the whole world, throw it up and eat it again" and we just met - going back to conversational english time w frens - dancing w bro2 - skz won kingdom !! so proud - txt's title is so good - HaPpY ! i love han's music - back on watching movies regularly - SEOHO DAY<3 - dad made me believe he killed my turtle xd - tried some make up,,- i've been reading ´little women´<3 - onewe and lucy cb! - 18/06 aunt passed away... - finished ´blacklist´ and ´tokyo ghoul 3´ - fucken toe bad again - 25/06 hyunjin back !!! my lovestay boy i've missed you so bad

☆— july

or we shall say HYUNJULY - could manage to say happy bday to her - karaokeee - 03/07 chan read my comment on vlive !!! - I... i have depression lmao - 05/07 cut a chiken by myself hehe - reading piano no mori <3 - 09/07 HYUNJIN SKZ PLAYER... hes insane,, missed him dancing so much - day6 cb! - i love hyunjin's drawing - sent cv to more places - sad - mbti changed from infp to infj - josephine and anthony got married omg - feeling so bad lol- finally could start spb s2 - finished yanans drama - shinwon piano covers! - messy