• Pls do not get it twisted. Yes, I am soft... and maybe I am so in love with you. But there is also another side of me where I am clued on, quick-witted, sharp, straight to the point of my words. I can call you out, question you, and make you slip up on your strategy that you have been doing all along. I see right through you.

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I Didn’t Realize It Was Emotional Abuse—Until I Did. 💔🕊️

I want to share something deeply personal—not because it’s easy, but because someone else might need these words the way I once did. Maybe that someone is you. For a while, I thought I was just in a relationship with someone who was hurting. Someone with deep insecurities, or maybe even trauma. Someone who loved me so much, it hurt. I thought I could fix it—wit...

🌀 Delusional Disorder

• Jealous Type - believes that their partner is unfaithful
• Persecutory Type - believes others (partner + maybe their friends or strangers) are secretly talking about them, judging them, or trying to isolate them
  • These thoughts are often not reality-based, and resistant to reassurance.
  • The emotional tone still includes suspicion, possessiveness, insecurity, but it's channeled into paranoid or referential beliefs, not just romantic jealousy.

💭 Possible Thoughts They Might Have:

• “You and your friend were whispering, it was about me, I know it.”
• “You’re slowly making everyone think I’m the bad one.”

• Maybe it was trigerred by loneliness and psychosocial stresses

Good Friday, April 18 – San Agustin

This is difficult to write, but I feel I need to.

That night was incredibly painful and disorienting—not just for me, but especially for my son, Liam. And I hope, as you read this, you can try to see it through our eyes.

The day had been peaceful, even joyful. We were camping at the beach with Aljer’s family. Everyone had been kind. His cousins welcomed me and Liam. His brothers were warm. We cooked, we set up the tent, we shared food and stories. I even took photos of Aljer while he worked on the tent. We laughed over dinner. There was no conflict. No sign of what was coming.

Later in the evening, I spent time with Mohan, his little nephew, his relatives, cousins, and brothers. We played counting games. I had chocolates but Mohan couldn’t have any because of allergies, so I s...

• He is jealous and paranoid.
• He is showing signs of psychosis and delusion where he puts meaning to innocent things incorrectly.
• He would create scenarios where I would react from a place of stressed attitude.
• He creeps on the window to see if I am talking to someone.
• He is verbally abusive.
• He is manipulative.
• He is a gaslighter.
• He uses guilt-tripping
• He does not care about Liam and the needs of my child.
• He is controlling.
• He uses my past against me.
• He is stuck in the past.
  • He cannot let go of the pain that people caused him.

• I left my family for him.
  • This should be a heavy-weight reason that I choose him and love him. But still, he doubts my sincerity for him, and questions me by accusing me of chatting with me, letting men in our house, displaying myself to be seen by men even when I am inside the car, saying that I always seek male attention. I always assured him I love him and will never choose anyone else than him because I am already willing to build a family with him that is why I left my family. His response: "Anyone can leave their family."

📍 The Early RED Flags [First-Second Month, Sep–Oct]

• You accused me of sneaking out at night simply because a black car was parked outside our house.
• You accused me of going out of the house without your permission because you saw in the video call that I was wearing pajama-style pants. The reason why I wore it is because there were so many mosquitos at that time.
• In the comment section of my posts, you would accuse me or my friends of talking about you. Specifically, accusing me of talking about a boy, "the crab king" where my friend and I were just exchanging playful banters referring to Game of Thrones.
• You felt jealous of a waiter at KR just because I walked ahead in a hurry—when you knew we were rushing to catch the bank...

• Puta at maka-Dios. Referring to me as the puta and he is the religious one.
• "You are not special."
• "I will NEVER marry you."
• "Checkmate. I win."
• "Nagpaduding na sad ka. That's what you want: You always want attention."
• "Naa kay HIV?"
• "Plastic ka."
• "You don't do this to someone who loves you so much. I am genuine to you. But you don't love me."
• "Sa uban grabe ka makahatag, sa ako... you don't care."
• "Give me back the rings."
• "Don't touch me."
• "Dili nako. Dili na sad ko. Mas samot ka."
• "Gago ka."
• "You see now, bright kaayo ko noh? Bilib naka?"