from least to most regrettable

• Car accident. Or buying the Probe in the first place. My mother invested too much money in repairs.
• Giving up on Maddy Pox. We should have gotten her professionally trained. And other pet mishaps that I'm too ashamed to mention here.
• Not responding well to a female friend's admission of love.
• Not kissing A.M. and S.J.
• Quitting drum lessons. And piano and cello lessons. I really wish I could play an instrument.
• Not visiting and applying to more colleges. Knox College seems to be a better fit for me, but the best scholarships are given to incoming freshmen so I've essentially lost my chance.
• Some things I did in Alaska which widened the gap between my father and me.
• Not trying harder to learn Korean.
• Telling Jones too much and not confronting her after.
• Not pushing myself in high school. Getting a 4.0 is not that hard, and it would have given me plenty more opportunities.
• Giving Michael everything and the way I handled our breakup.
• Having a boyfriend throughout high school. I probably would have had more fun and would have been more outgoing if I were single.
• Not maintaining a better relationship with my father. Maybe then he would be more willing to contribute money toward my college expenses. I know that sounds terrible, but it's true.
• Hooking up with a random guy at a bar to prove a point. It was stupid, reckless, and dangerous.
• Going to Gainesville with Michael instead of painting Abby's room with Jamie and Bailey. Or any other time I've neglected my friends to be with a boy.
• All the times I called my sister "stupid" when we were younger. Not being a better sister and role model, in general.
• Any time I got impatient with my mother.
• Attending college immediately after high school. I think I really would have benefited from a gap year.
• Not putting away at least 15% of my holiday money and paychecks since I was thirteen.
  • Also, depleting what little savings I had in my account during my first year of college.
• Buying the Diana F+ kit. I should have saved for a DSLR, a much better investment since film is becoming obsolete and costs money to develop.
• Being too scared to call Boardman out on his ignorant and somewhat racist assumption that a grammatical "error" was the result of English being my second language. Um, I was born in Florida.
• Attending Beloit in the first place. Now I can't leave because I know what I'd be missing. I should have gone to UF or a community college, then transferred. Plus, attending an in-state school for the first two years would have saved me a staggering amount of money.
  • 7/16/10: They say it's never too late, but with age opportunities arise less often. I am lucky to have such a supportive mother and a chance to start over. Beloit College is the first place to ever feel like home, but no education is worth a lifetime of debt. I plan to get my Associate's degree at a community college while living with my mother and a PharmD degree at UF.
  • 8/26/10: I want to retract my statement. I do not in the least regret attending Beloit College. What I regret is not making my one year more worthwhile. I wasted time and money, mostly clung to the comfortable, didn't take advantage of everything Beloit had to offer, and didn't get to know people I thought were interesting (namely C.S.). I believe I learned more from this one year and experience than from my entire life's experiences. Attending and then leaving Beloit made me confront the truth. Of who I really am and of what I truly desire.
• Not withdrawing from A&P II just because I didn't want to lose the money. Now my GPA is majorly screwed. I can't stop regretting my poor decision, and I sincerely hope this doesn't ruin my chances of getting into UF.
• Taking Chris for granted.
• Crushing my mother's dream by being a grump during my high school graduation. She couldn't finish even one year of high school in Korea due to poverty and looked forward to my graduation since I was born. Everything on this list is inconsequential compared to this one regret.