Alex Conine, my best friend, took his life on July 14th, 2012. I want to remember everything about him.

• Meeting him at Fishy Park on 07/27/2007
  • He was dating Sara,and I thought his fedora was just so cool.
• His terrifying driving
  • When we all did a Chinese fire drill in his Volkswagen van and he turned left when the door was still open; I almost flew out while Zach shut the door. We lost a boot.
  • When I got my car and I called him to take me for a ride because I didn't have my license, and he revved it way too high and I got mad at him.
  • When we were all high and he passed a cop speeding, and then casually turned down a side street, turned off his lights, and...

• Beehive Tea Room
  • Beautiful little rooms, amazing atmosphere. Stick with tea, don't try and get anything too fancy here.
• Cafe on 1st
  • Blended chai is the best thing you can get here.
• Coffee Break
  • Kind of a weird atmosphere (filled with weirdos), and not the best coffee, but sometimes it's just what you need. Sub-par coffee.
• Coffee Garden
  • Great location, lovely music, good drinks. A great place to get things done. I tend to get tea when I'm here. Maybe it's the classical music pushing me towards pre...

favorite sounds

• people's soft voices
• rain
• thunder & lightning
• a cat's meow or purr
• church bells
• my stomach's deep rumble when i haven't eaten in a while
• foreign accents
• string instruments
• a zipper zipping
• scissors cutting through cardstock
• the crunch when i bite a carrot
• rain hitting the roof
• a bowling ball hitting pins
• film developer being agitated

least favorite sounds

• nagging/yelling voices
• continuous alarm clocks
• somebody biting into a juicy apple

• fuck
• precise
• dreamy
• tricky
• puddle
• poem
• soliloquy
• cheeky
• silhouette
• superfluous

• the road
• eating animals
• i know why the caged bird sings
• american psycho
• blindness
• johnny got his gun
• the picture of dorian grey
• lord of the flies
• the metamorphosis
• notes from underground
• waiting for godot
• J.B.
• the stranger
• nine stories
• catch - 22
• the electric kool aid acid test
• hairstyle of the damned
• heavier than heaven
• requiem for a dream
• fear and loathing in las vegas

• alieniloquy - speech on subjects other than the matter at hand; off-topic speech
• alloquy - speaking to another or many others; an address
• altiloquence - pompous or high speech
• ambiloquous - using dubious or ambiguous expressions
• amphoriloquy - cavernous voice of a patient heard over a patient's lung cavity
• anteloquy - a preface
• antiloquy - speaking against some idea; contradicting or
• biloquist - one capable of speaking with two distinct voices
• blandiloquence - complimentary speech; flattery
• blesiloquent - speaking with a stammer or lisp
• breviloquence - short-windedness; tendency towards brevity in speech
• caverniloquy - cavernous voice of a patient heard over a patient's lung cavity
• centiloquy - work consisting of one hundred aphoris...

and things that i plan on telling those who follow me

• don't shave your whole body. you will end up having to continue for the rest of your life, or else be really really hairy.
  • example: that one time you shaved your toe or your nipple or your stomach and now there are random hairs that are really long and dark.
• don't promise anybody that you'll love them forever, because you won't.
  • on that note, don't make promises you can't keep. period.
    • this means most promises.
• you need to keep all the things you think somebody will make fun of your for having, even if you shove it away in a box

• "when they touched me I died" on my inner left arm
• cameo on my left thigh
• Alex Conine penny on inner right forearm
• triple t (ttt) on my right ass cheek
• SJB on my left foot
• Ampersand on my left shoulder

• Audrey Hepburn
• beluga whales
• coloring books
• daisies
• elephants
• fingers
• greenhouses
• humming
• children's imaginations
• jello shots (vegan jello, of course)
• kitties
• licking the spoon after making cake
• the man in the moon
• New York City
• octopus suction cups
• people-watching
• quarter collections
• raisins (the golden ones, mostly!)
• silly faces that ruin group pictures
• tattoos
• ugly babies

• basorexia: an overwhelming desire to neck or kiss.
• lygerastia: the condition of one who is only amorous when the lights are out.
• brontide: the low rumbling of distant thunder.
• dactylion: the tip of a middle finger.
• nudiustertian: pertaining to the day before yesterday.
• gargalesthesia: the sensation caused by tickling.
• petrichor: the smell of rain on dry ground.
• dendolatry: worship of trees.
• lethologica: the inability to recall a precise word for something.
• psithurism: a whispering sound, i.e: the sound of wind in trees, or rustling leaves.
• witzelsucht: a feeble attempt at humour.
• epeolatry: worship of words.

• If I were a month I would be: April
• If I were a day of the week I would be: Saturday
• If I were a time of day I would be: 8 AM
• If I were a planet I would be: Venus
• If I were a animal I would be: Beluga Whale
• If I were a piece of furniture I would be: A Bedside Table
• If I were a historical figure I would be: Lincoln, I think.
• If I were a liquid I would be: Water
• If I were a tree I would be: Weeping Willow
• If I were a flower/plant I would be: Sunflower
• If I were a kind of weather I would be: Warm and Rainy
• If I were a musical instrument I would be: Viola
• If I were an emotion I would be: Self-Acc...

• water
• rapid
• nugget
• churn
• flap
• moist
• growl
• cursive
• chunky
• sloth
• choose
• picture
• secretion
• ooze
• cream
• ficticious

• 4 months, 3 weeks, and 2 days
• wristcutters: a love story
• girl, interrupted
• born into brothels
• perfume: the story of a murderer
• candy
• slc punk
• a clockwork orange
• home movie
• helvetica
• good hair
• man on wire
• bus 174
• the royal tennenbaums
• the cove
• buffalo '66
• requiem for a dream
• thumbsucker
• trainspotting

• Cafe Trio
  • Trio flatbread and a cheese pizza if you're on a budget.
  • Tomato soup, butternut squash ravioli, and creme brulee if you're not.
• The Copper Onion
  • Bee's knees to drink.
  • Sauteed mushrooms for an appetizer.
  • Ricotta dumplings as an entree.
  • Chocolate pudding with olive oil and sea salt, and whatever ice cream they have that night for dessert. I promise.
• Vertical Diner
• Sage's Cafe
• Gourmandise
  • Grilled cheese, always.
  • Any of their desserts. Any of them.
• Lone Star Taqueria

• bikram yoga
• hasselblads
• sleepytime tea
• tattoos
• munchkin kitties
• good books
• bright eyes
• documentaries
• the moon
• short stories
• 35mm film

• when you get a shopping cart that has a messed up wheel, which makes your cart veer one direction, and you have to use such force to keep it going straight, but it's too late to go back and get another one because you've already put your bread in the cart.
• when a person is chewing gum and they somehow suck it in to make a bubble and it pops about 7,675,338 times, all very loudly.
• when people don't ever say "bless you" or "excuse me" when they or somebody else sneezes.
• when you watch the clock for like five minutes, only to miss 11:11 by a minute.
• when your phone dies at a horribly inconvenient time and you don't have whatever numbers you need memorized.
• when people don't even know something to be fact but act like they know it. This can be related to either intel...

favorite smells

• chanel no.5
• cigarette smoke
• cinnamon
• skunk
• febreeze
• candles/matches recently snuffed
• rain
• clean clothes, right out of the dryer
• christmas trees
• chai tea
• kolkata, india

least favorite smells

• strong liquor
• old cigarette butts
• old campfire
• apple cider
• beer

• Adelaide
• Aimie
• Alice
• Amelié
• Artemis
• Astrid
• Audrey
• Aurora
• Cecilia
• Chaelynn
• Cricket
• Eleanor
• Eloise
• Emory
• Florence
• Genevieve
• Maribelle
• Nymphadora
• Scarlett
• Tangela
• Vada

• dermatologist
  • although i don't want to have to go to college a lot
• psychologist
  • see above
  • i'm not very good at helping people though
  • maybe i'm too messed up to help messed up people
  • or
• teacher
  • but i won't get paid enough, and
  • sometimes children get annoying
  • i'd have to find the right school too
  • and find a subject that i could teach
  • and i'd have to be intelligent
• musician