— fiction .ᐟ

• acts of desperation, megan nolan
• the vegetarian, han kang
• the dangers of smoking in bed, mariana enriquez
• dykette, jenny fran davis
• elsewhere, yan ge

— nonfiction .ᐟ

• woman writing about desire, collected authors
• the chronology of water, lidia yuknavitch

— poetry .ᐟ

• our numbered days, neil hilborn
• the cost of living, merrit malloy
• on second thought, priscilla uppal
• father's on the phone with the flies, hertz müller
• please come off-book, kevin kantor
• phantom pain wings, kim hyesoon, translated by don mee choi

— indie/alternative .ᐟ

• songs, adrianne lenker
• dragon in the new warm mountain, big thief
• the record, boygenius
• punisher, phoebe bridgers
• stranger in the alps, phoebe bridgers
• sling, clairo
• letters from dreamland, leo.
• evermore, taylor swift
• folklore, taylor swift

— showtunes .ᐟ

• beetlejuice: the musical, 2019
• chicago: the musical, 1997
• frozen, 2013
• tár: music from & inspired by the film, 2022
• the sound of music, 2005

— pop .ᐟ

• dont smile at me, billie eilish
• happier than ever, billie eilish

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the grief is never-ending but so is the love

— personal .ᐟ

• rescue dogs from kill shelters
• meet a partner that i love
• live around the world
  • berlin, germany
  • new york city, usa
  • london, uk
• travel around the world
  • switzerland
  • russia
  • china
• go to coachella

— education .ᐟ

• go to columbia university
  • major in english & philosophy
• do a fully-funded mfa
• spend time in fellowships

i deserve good things. my lips are soft. my calves are oiled. my hair is free of smoke. i have resolved that i will not dwell; that i remain kind & soft & sweet despite it all.

• spend more time in the sun & water
• make more public art
• stop wearing fast fashion
• go to three concerts
  • 0/3
• reduce nicotine consumption
• solo travel local & not
• be less invested in people
• walk addie once a day
• learn new things
  • performance art
    • stage design
    • costume design

— personal .ᐟ

• lose 10 pounds
  • 0/10
• clear acne & finalize skin/body/haircare routine
• get labret & belly piercing
• get patchwork tattoo sleeve on arm
• actively use substack
• find everyday jewelry stacks
• organize storygraph

— school .ᐟ

• get new laptop
• organize notes for math & latin
• set up notion

— maintenance .ᐟ

• clean out closet & sell clothes on depop
  • upcycle things i don't wear "as often"

— face & body .ᐟ

• septum
• right eyebrow

— ear .ᐟ

• first lobes
• second lobes
• third lobes
• right helix
• right conch

— skincare am .ᐟ

• innisfree clarifying cleansing foam
• i dew care bright side up vitamin c serum
• cerave moisturizing sunscreen

— skincare pm .ᐟ

• innisfree volcanic pore clearing cleansing foam
• innisfree volcanic pore clearing clay mask
• innisfree volcanic pore clearing toner
• belif aqua bomb hydrating toner
• benzoyl peroxide spot treatment
• the ordinary salicylic acid 2% serum
• the inkey list caffeine eye cream
• i dew care juicy kitten serum
• provence beauty hyaluronic acid facial serum
• innisfree dewy glow jelly cream
• lanolips strawberry lip scrub