post 7th period, post h, post being lonely and with horrible coworkers

• regret
• his red car no longer on my radar
• reason to not feel inadequate physically
• reason to not feel socially awkward
• won't cause h to feel confused, if i ever did
• no need to impress
• limerence anxiety vanished
• leaving was proving i didn't care
• can't compromise myself any longer
• only have dreams of him now and lists
• signs he was open to me but i was too shy/sabotaged everything
• start shaking nervously having to be near him