• fairies
  • thumbelina
• virgo chasing after pisces and aries
• three pisces women???
  • poseidon - i ching hex 51
• pygmalion and aphrodite - love in imagination

• write and illustrate a book (many books)
• have a music career
• creative direct and produce a girl group
• run my own magazine
• have a franchise

• skin tint in g9 (?)
• boy brow in clear
• if these are good then: lash slick, lip gloss in clear

(already own a poss. ok concealer)

only screen time permitted is for:

• reading ebooks
• writing and doing book research (in timed increments)
• watching films (pre-1980, one per day), logging on lbd and spreadsheet
• working or attending work/school meetings
• checking email
• listography (tasks and happy things lists)

when not doing these things, offscreen ideas include:

• drawing/painting
• going outside
• reading
• showering
• crocheting
• diarying

close laptop off when idle or eating; hav...

• got my first paying job
• got interviewed by a Big Magazine
• got a 1:1 on my Hist Ling essay
• had someone confess to stalking me (is this good?)
• got offered a scholarship for having good grades
• formulated an idea for my book

• first draw out thumbnails
• then charcoal 'cartoon'

• romantic
• maenad with rabbit familiar
• true winter -> crimson base type (+ rose, slavic, crystal)

color your style

• essence colour (quiet, vulnerable, intimate, version of white): rose beige??
• romantic colour: pantone orange 021c
• dramatic colour (power, charisma, authority, version of blue): pantone 7678c (purple)
• energy colour: juniper green
• tranquil colour: olive green

three bases

• first base (most formal): black, slightly green undertones
• second base (less formal): dark chocolate brown
• third base (least formal): chestnut brown...

(kibbe romantic)

• tops
  • white blouse (ruffled! lacy! 70s!) ➞
  • black blouse (victorian) ➞
  • bottoms
    • cigarette pants
  • dresses
    • lbd ➞
  • shoes
    • black trainers ➞ ?
    • wearable closed toe heels ➞
    • high boots ➞
  • accessories
    • belt
• things i want but don't need:

reading/writing

• read ２00 chinese books
• including these topics:
• social etiquette
• science and technology
• arts
• physical education
• psychology
• linguistics
• economics
• politics
• law
• philosophy
• history
• religion
• academic research
• policies + regulations

speaking/listening

• listen to chinese podcasts
• 圆桌子？

• adam smith
• albert camus
• alexander the great
• aristotle
• barthes
• buddha
• c.s. lewis
• chaucer
• clausewitz
• copernicus
• dante
• darwin
• derrida
• descartes
• emile zola
• freud
• galileo
• gandhi
• george bernard shaw
• goethe
• habermas

• neologisms in chinese
• 60s hk melodrama
• syntactic structure of chinese jokes

• all mandarin films with jenny hu
• all mandarin films with lily ho
• all mandarin films dir. li han-hsiang

• to read 100 books (just in 2021)
• to have seen 5 films from each year 1930-1979
• to have seen 10 films from each year 1930-1979
• ten books from the 'very short introductions' series per month, to be picked at random (200 in all)
• to watch 100 chinese films
• to read 50 chinese books
• to listen to 500 osts

• 鲁迅 《热风）随感录二十五》《朝花夕拾》
• 张爱玲 《姑姑语录》
• 丰子恺 《给我的孩子们》
• 周作人 《北京的茶食》
• 汪曾祺 《五味》《人间草木》

• nina hagen best singer
• azealia banks best lyricist
• loona best girl group
• you can't change your sex
• surrogacy should not be legal
• the government should outlaw prostitution but only penalise pimps/buyers and give prostitutes a safe way out with financial and occupational help and counselling
• the alternative sexual landscape as a whole is awful and totally cringe but fetish iconography is really cool
• but there should absolutely not be a social movement based around fetishists or 'kinksters' (vomit) because then they're just ruining the whole thing for themselves lol. if people accept your deviancy then it's not deviant any more. 'cute' fetishists are disgusting. have some shame if it turns you on so much
• actors should not be allowed social media...

• everything: a short introduction
• history of africa
• indian philosphy: a short introduction
• islamic history: a short introduction
• judaism: a short introduction
• modern ireland: a short introduction

• bones in body
• muscles in body
• nerves in body
• flags of world
• capitals of world
• biology prefixes and suffixes
• natural laws named after people
• nobel winners: peace, medicine, physics, literature
• world leaders: current, historic
• people in russell's history of western philosophy

currently

• drawing
• old films
• modern and ancient languages
• reading
• knitting
• basic coding
• yoga

in the future

• electronic music production
• crochet (amigurumi)
• sewing my own clothes
• guqin

• ultimate goal: mandarin chinese fluency - pass hsk6 +
• short(er) term goals:
  • learn all poems on saved list
  • learn hs6 vocab (written)
  • read at least 2 chinese books a month (when back to uni)
• short term goals:
  • get into a cpop group and watch all their content
  • finish current chinese book 饥饿的山村
  • finish a chinese drama
  • learn vocab for next chinese class
  • copy down hellotalk corrections and study
• cefr: currently between b1 and b2 :( my goal is to get comfortably to b2! i need to get back into the language big-time and...

• maintain my friendships - reach out to new friends regularly, organise meetups irl and online, prioritise my social circle above all else. could even make a list of friends and ensure i keep in contact with everyone
• become a better conversationalist, ask more than i answer
• read around my subject - choose and read relevant books regularly
• join societies - become very active when this starts up online and resolve to chase this up irl
• talk to people in my classes

how to maintain friendships:

• text regularly
• vocalise appreciation
• remember birthdays
• offer help
• ask for advice

• very focused artist, treating art like a full-time job in a desperate attempt to reach my full potential
• weird student with unexplained chinese proficiency
• 60s beatnik
• obsessive clout chaser and emailer
• forbidden 20th century knowledge holder

• shoe: uk 2-3, euro 35-36, us 4-5

• 墨香同修 - 魔道祖师 (original web novel the untamed is based on)
• eileen chang - half a lifelong romance (半生缘)
• eileen chang - love in a fallen city (倾城之恋)
• 寻找母亲 (please look after mother)
• 素食者 (the vegetarian)
• 细雪 (the makioka sisters)
• 枕草子 (the pillow book)
• 源氏物语 (the tale of genji)
• 人间便利店 (convenience store woman)
• 金瓶梅
• 新世纪爱情故事 (love in the new millennium) by can xue (+ others from this author)
• wolf totem (狼图腾) by jiang rong
• any by kenzaburo oe 大江健三郎

• manuela von meinhardis = 'vanished minor alumnae'
• laura prepon = 'near popular' ('Limited partnerships befuddle near-popular actress. (5, 6)')
• dorothea wieck = 'hotcake weirdo'
• nina hagen = 'a henna-ing'
• marquis de sade = 'dadaism queers', 'masquerades id'
• joseph losey = 'hopeless joy'
• greta gustafsson = 'saunters faggots'
• ernst lubitsch = 'butler's snitch'
• christa winsloe = 'realistic shown', 'clarities shown', 'historical news', 'stoical whiners', 'clownish satire'
• dante alighieri = 'genitalia hider'

• each task crossed off is 1 point. you can also have half and quarter points (divide tasks appropriately)
• tasks can be chosen tactically or randomly
• the most productive day is 10 points

categories and sample tasks

• work
  • work a shift
  • attend a meeting
• language
  • read in target language (for an hour, or until encountering 100 new words)
  • practice manchu vocabulary
  • read 3 articles in chinese (qq, etc)
• creative
  • work on book for an hour

• capricorn
  • marlene dietrich
  • dorothea wieck
  • edwige fenech
  • christa winsloe
• pisces
  • laura prepon
  • nina hagen
  • elizabeth taylor
• aries
  • mina mazzini
  • camille paglia
  • joan crawford
  • liu lan-hsi
• gemini
  • azealia banks
  • monica vitti

• eventual goals:
  • live by a canal
  • meet dream vampire wife
  • high-flying legal job
  • trilingual
  • well-known writer, illustrator and blogger
• to research
  • process of getting legal qualifications - how long to qualify?
• 2021 - age 19-20
  • give up kpop, ff, ct
  • read 50 chinese books
  • read 5 books about law ready for legal course
  • post more on blog (every week) ✔️
  • update clothes
  • start to write book - 10,000 words ✔️...

• you can assign properties to things by making a graph and seeing which edges/vertices are where??? (is this called graph theory????)

• central ratings system
• books + films + music releases + tv + video games all in one
• your profile shows 5 favourites and 5 most recent for all categories
• can link (voluntarily) to spotify, netflix, other streaming services, also ereader platforms to automatically add what you've read, seen or listened to
• can create multimedia lists
• can create and aggregate academic book lists (free education) - curate into masterlists equivalent to entire degrees worth of reading
• can create lists of citations within a book (makes proper scholarship easier) - eg. navigate to an academic book's page and in the sidebar there'll be a list with all the books linked, and their respective pages - click on them and see what's cited there, and so on

• how to read a book - m.j adler
• a mind for numbers - oakley
• an introduction to english grammar - greenbaum and nelson
• creative and critical thinking - moore
• classical rhetoric for the modern student - corbett
• the oxford essential guide to writing - kane
• the art of fiction - lodge
• pre-calculus - stitz and zeager
• music in theory and practice - benward
• the interpretation of cultures - geertz
• improve your social skills - wendler
• how to speak, how to listen - adler

• mae west
• lana turner

• 50 of the most influential books under 100 pages
• a book from each century
• literally everything from 'want to read' on goodreads
• all of shakespeare's plays
• the national epic of every country (that has one)
• all 1st edition penguin classics
• https://www.goodreads.com/list/show/3091...
• https://book.douban.com/tag/%E9%9D%92%E6...

• ancient babylon
• jewish history
• linguistics and humour
• psychoanalysis

actors

• lauren bacall
• marlene dietrich
• nina foch
• kay francis
• marilyn monroe
• claudia cardinale
• romy schneider
• bette davis
• bebe daniels

directors

• li han-hsiang
• vincente minnelli
• michael curtiz
• douglas sirk
• stanley donen
• victor fleming
• josef von sternberg
• ernst lubitsch
• george cukor

general

• interlingua page
• wikipedia in zhuang
• standard zhuang wiki page

videos

• 900句 companion video 1 from mandarin
• 900 句 companion video 2 from mandarin

• write instructional book on reading/appreciation of tang/song poetry for eng-speaking chinese learners
• legal interpreter
• translator
• artist
• illustrate books
• ancient language reconstruction

1. those who started a new chapter of history

• earliest to unite the chinese people, huangdi
• the gentleman king who kicked off the western zhou, ji fa/wu of zhou
• the emperor to unite six kingdoms, ying zheng/qin shihuang
• from a delinquent to a founding emperor, liu che/wu of han
• ruler of zhenguan, li shimin/tang taizong
• the first female emperor in history, wu zetian
• the model of a humanist king, zhao kuangyin/song taizu
• rebel hero, zhu yuanzhang/hongwu emperor
• the country's father, sun yat-sen
• creator of the prc, mao zedong
• strategist of the revolution, deng xiaoping

2. pivotal kings and emperors who earned a name for themselves

• the creator of scholarly freedom, king xuan of qi/tian bijiang
• he who promoted hu attire and horseback shooting, wuling of zhao/zhao yong

visual artists

• peter paul rubens
• henri de toulouse-lautrec
• edgar degas

directors

• federico fellini
• josef von sternberg

photographers

• clarence sinclair bull
• pierre et gilles

INTERNET

• how the internet works
• what http is
• how browsers work
• how dns works
• domain name
• hosting

HTML

• basics
• forms/validations
• conventions and best practices

CSS

• basics
• layouts
• floats
• positioning
• display
• box model
• css grid

cards i own

• a1128-11 (dorothea wieck, 1939)
• 61/2 (dorothea wieck, 1926)

wishlist

• dorothea wieck: any but specifically the four 'anna und elisabeth' cards
• greta garbo: queen christina-related
• hertha schiele: anna und elisabeth-related
• magda schneider: any
• lida baarova: any
• marlene dietrich: any
• joan crawford: any

• the wreck of the deutschland - gerard manley hopkins
• that nature is a heraclitean fire and of the comfort of resurrection - gerard manley hopkins

finished

• general philosophy (oxford)
• financial markets (yale)

ongoing

• tang poetry (national taiwan university)

in the future - personal

• understanding plants 1 and 2 (tel aviv university)
• introduction to classical music (yale)
• a journey through western christianity: ... (yale)
• introduction to philosophy (university of edinburgh)

in the future - to complement degree

• religious transformation in early china:... (chinese university of hong kong)
• intellectual change in early china: warr... (cuhk)
• religion and thought in modern china: th... (cuhk)
• religions and society in china (national research university)

• darkling
• foolscap

• edwige
• ludmilla
• edelgarde

• i can do these things already:
  • draw competently, quickly and realistically from observation
• i want to be able to:
  • select automatically interesting and harmonious colour palettes with fluency
  • select optimal compositions
  • reliably depict different facial expressions etc. from memory
  • render objects realistically or semi-realistically from memory
  • draw people (and animals other than horses) from my imagination in full-body and varied poses (not just 3/4 of head, no sameface)
  • create my own detailed visual worlds
  • solve artistic problems
• resources to follow:

days: 38

• dates
  • june 2-4: chinese exam
  • july 2, 3:30pm: theory test
• goals
  • 100 chinese articles read
  • continue building up story, fill out oc profiles
  • read gurney book
  • 10hr theory revision (look at clips on gov website)
• standards
  • consistent midnight bedtime
  • consistent 8 am wake up
  • 10 activity points per day
  • 1 film per night

• purposefully seeking out intellectual/political discomfort
• taking charge of your own education/health
• not being a fan or involved in fandom

sample day plan

• 2h work
• 3h writing
• 3h art
• films + reading until bed

book

• plan, write and illustrate complete book (epic poem)
• 60 illustrations
• look for publisher
• get 100 rejection letters

films

• watch one film every single day june-next sept

personal

• live near river/waterfront
• art nouveau house
• social media or random internet usage at 0
• spend most free time reading/on creative pursuits
• will have written/illustrated a book
• will have passed hsk9
• at least trilingual
• no idea what's going on in wider world or in politics, never reads news
• sew all my own clothes

• lenin
• stalin
• trotsky
• mussolini
• marx
• cixi
• queen christina
• catherine the great
• william blake
• teddy roosevelt

in progress for the next decade or so lol before I make a massive 4chan-style infographic. everything is chronological

BOOKS

ALBUMS

• nina hagen band - nina hagen band (1978)
• angstlos - nina hagen (1983)
• pretty on the inside - hole (1991)
• live through this - hole (1994)
• celebrity skin - hole (2000)
• rbb - red velvet (2018)
• xx - loona (2019)

FILMS

• madchen in uniform (1931)
• the scarlet empress (1934)

• albert camus
• medieval britain
• fire
• modern drama
• the devil
• accounting
• genomics
• the history of physics
• engels
• poetry

• 孑孓
• 凹凸
• 匍匐
• 趔趄
• 乒乓
• 曱甴
• 蚯蚓
• 蜉蝣
• 蜘蛛
• 囹圄
• 囫囵
• 园囿
• 缱绻
• 迎迓
• 徘徊
• 忐忑
• 怂恿
• 酩酊
• 贿赂
• 旮旯
• 龃龉

accents (general)

• glasgow
• transatlantic
• new jersey

impressions

• lauren bacall
• joan crawford
• greta garbo

learn the biggest literary language for each civ.

• western civilisation
  • latin
  • ancient greek
• latin american civilisation
  • classical nahuatl
• orthodox
  • latin? old church slavonic?
• eastern
  • buddhist
    • sanskrit? classical chinese? pali?
  • confucian
    • classical chinese
  • hindu

• adorno: minima moralio
• baudrillard: simulacra and simulation
• bourdieu: distinction
• lasch: culture of narcissism

greek civilisation and the classical liberal arts

• homer
  • iliad
  • odyssey
• aeschylus
  • oresteia
  • prometheus bound
• sophocles
  • oedipus rex
  • oedipus at colonus
  • antigone
  • philoctetes
  • ajax
• thucyides - history of the pelopennesian war
• euripides
  • hippolytus

• czech poster aesthetic
• cultural accumulation: discuss media + history thematically from ancient times to present day

music

• 'zarah' by nina hagen
• easily flammable and explosive by chen li

titles episodes

• synchronised dancing
• why do 60s movies look so different
• fire worship

• "Värmlandsvisan", (arr, Westberg)
• "Allegro Vivace nr. 1", (Langey)
• a piece from "Herr Arnes Pengar"
• a piece from "Episod", (Alexandersson)
• a piece from "Svit nr. 3", (Mussorgskij)
• "Bellmanssång", (Järnefelt)
• "Den eldröda blomman", (Järnefelt)
• "Adagio Pathétique", (Godard)
• a piece from "Svansjön" ("Swan Lake")
• "Symfony Pathétique No. 6", (Tchaikovsky)
• "Romeo and Juliet", (Tchaikovsky)
• a piece from "Rigadon de Dardanus", (Rameau)
• "Meditation", (Borch)
• "Prelude", (Järnefelt)
• "Dramatic Tension", (Audino)
• a piece from "Masquerade nr 1; 3;", (Lacome)
• "Contredance", (Beethoven)

• ravel/mussorgsky - pictures at an exhibition (1874)

• watch a film made in a different language you don't speak, use target lang for subtitles
• do an online course in your target language from coursera, edx etc. (bonus: make and study flashcards in target lang)
• do duolingo FROM your target language to a third language
• research and cook recipes written in target language

• Classic of Changes or I Ching (易經 Yìjīng)
• Book of Documents (書經 Shūjīng)
• Classic of Poetry (詩經 Shījīng)
• The Three Ritual Classics (三禮 Sānlǐ)
• Rites of Zhou (周禮 Zhōulǐ)
• Ceremonies and Rites (儀禮 Yílǐ)
• Book of Rites (禮記 Lǐjì)
  • "Great Learning" chapter (大學 "Dà Xué")
  • "Doctrine of the Mean" chapter (中庸 "Zhōng Yōng")
• The Three Commentaries on the Spring and Autumn Annals
• The Commentary of Zuo (左傳 Zuǒzhuàn)
• The Commentary of Gongyang (公羊傳 Gōngyáng Zhuàn)
• The Commentary of Guliang (穀梁傳 Gǔl...

• 《将进酒》·李白
• 《水调歌头》·苏轼
• 《沁园春·雪》·毛泽东
• 《长恨歌》·白居易
• 《念奴娇·赤壁怀古》·苏轼
• 《虞美人》·李煜
• 《天净沙·秋思》·马致远
• 春江花月夜·张若虚
• 《离骚》·屈原
• 《静夜思》·李白 ✓
• 《蜀道难》·李白
• 《短歌行》其一·曹操
• 《琵琶行》·白居易
• 《永遇乐·京口北固亭怀古》·辛弃疾
• 《饮酒》·陶渊明
• 《登高》·杜甫
• 《青玉案·元夕》· 辛弃疾
• 《黄鹤楼》·崔颢
• 《诗经国风.周南》
• 《声声慢》·李清照