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  • About me
  • Quotes
  • Witchcraft
  • Queer theory
feb 22 2020 ∞
feb 16 2021 +
mar 18 2020 ∞
jan 12 2021 +

start date: 2020年06月10日 ┊ finish date: 2023年03月08日

▸ completed: 8/101

grown-up stuff

  • save R$10 for every task I complete (R$80/R$80).
  • renew my ID.
  • apply for a passport.
  • learn how to drive.
  • donate everything I don't use.
  • deactivate my Facebook account.

studies and work

  • take the IELTS test.
  • get a job.
  • go to college.
  • learn basic german.
  • start muay thai class.
  • start learning sign language.

health and self

jun 9 2020 ∞
sep 18 2021 +
jul 26 2019 ∞
jan 2 2021 +

your dreams and memories are blurring into one, the scenes which hold the waking world slowly come undone

damien (Δαμιανος): conquer, master, overcome, tame.

    • ⅹⅹ. they/them. o/ele/o. pt-br. en-us.
    • scorpio. chaotic neutral. enfp.

where you can find pieces of me:

  • images with an ominous vibe.
  • overcoats and scarfs.
  • cloudy and windy days.
  • the sound of the waves.
  • to skywatch or stargaze.
  • every single Bastille song.
mar 14 2020 ∞
jan 11 2021 +
feb 3 2021 ∞
jul 12 2021 +

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ unhingedadjective

  • mentally unbalanced; deranged.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ menacenoun

  • a person or thing that is likely to cause harm; a threat or danger.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ 宝贝 /bǎobèi/ noun

  • rare, precious, treasure.
  • darling, honey, sweetheart.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ unfathomableadjective

  • incapable of being fully explored or understood.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ waldeinsamkeitnoun

  • the feeling of being alone in the woods.
  • experience of being alone, surrounded by the forest and feeling totally at peace.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ 木漏れ日 /komorebi/ noun

apr 23 2020 ∞
oct 21 2021 +

stolen from...

  • *writing in my diary using a glitter gel pen* I'm losing my sense of humanity
  • idk what it is about sitting in chairs and having both feet on the floor but it's so uncomfortable and awful and I'll never willingly do it if there's literally any other option.
  • whew ok, time to work! ..okay. okay. let’s get started. …,,okeyy ah lets do this. yep…. okay. yes sir lets do this. let’s get started….just gonna start now yep. ,,okay. okay. okayy. ok. …ok..okey…..alright ok.. right hhh.
  • coming out of my cage and they're shouting oh fuck it's loose call for backup I repeat call for backup subject has breached containment area
  • my vibes arent off I am cursed theres a difference
sep 29 2021 ∞
oct 16 2021 +
  • We’re going full Mr Darcy, but sluttier.
  • Doodoodoodooodooodoooo perrryyyyyyyyy.
  • I got my grubby hands on three different canons, 0 regrets but I think they want to issue restraining orders.
  • Is this a one night stand if we don’t talk about our big case of Yearning? who knows.
  • As of chapter 4 there is no toe sucking but I am determined this story isn't over yet!
  • Post-Canon, but I haven't actually SEEN the end so.......
  • Explicit Language, I think, I haven't really checked but it's me so.
  • Are the Knights TM and Uther coexisting because I don't remember the canon timeline, or because I don't care about the canon timeline? you'll never know.
  • Friends to Lovers, slow burn tho, and by ...
sep 18 2021 ∞
oct 16 2021 +

Sara Jaffe's article on Jstor daily - Queer Time: The Alternative to "Adulting". January 10, 2018.

    • Adulting (the verb form of the word adult) speaks about a series of behaviours associated with adulthood: Get a job, become financially stable, get married, buy a house, have kids...
    • For whom are those goals accessible? For whom are they a matter not of choice but of economic reality?
    • Sociologist Pamela Aronson suggests that these behaviours are based on outdated assumptions about class and gender.

"Queer lives are notable for their lack of chrononormativity, starting in childhood."

    • Jack Halberstam in his book In a Queer Time and Place argues that the queer experience of time and space in a heteronormative society is inflicted with time-warping experiences like coming out, medical transitions, an...
sep 13 2020 ∞
nov 7 2020 +

Mark Fisher's article on The Occupied Times - Good For Nothing. March 10, 2014.

  • I offer up my own experiences of mental distress not because I think there's anything special or unique about them, but in support of the claim that many forms of depression are best understood – and best combatted – through frames that are impersonal and political rather than individual and "psychological".
  • Writing about one's own depression is difficult. Depression is partly constituted by a sneering "inner" voice which accuses you of self-indulgence – you aren't depressed, you're just feeling sorry for yourself, pull yourself together – and this voice is liable to be triggered by going public about the condition.

Of course, this voice isn't an "inner" voice at all – it is the internalised expression of actual social forces, some of which have a vested interest in denying a...

nov 7 2020 ∞
nov 7 2020 +