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feb 22 2020 ∞
feb 21 2022 +
mar 18 2020 ∞
jan 10 2022 +

start date: 2020年06月10日 ┊ finish date: 2023年03月08日

▸ completed: 18/101

grown-up stuff

  • save R$50 for every task I complete (R$900/R$900).
  • renew my ID.
  • apply for a passport.
  • learn how to drive.
  • donate everything I don't use.
  • deactivate my Facebook account.
  • renew my voting certificate.

studies and work

  • take the IELTS test.
  • get a job.
  • go to college.
  • learn basic german.
  • start some kind of fighting class.
  • start learning sign language.

health and self

jun 9 2020 ∞
may 5 2022 +
jul 26 2019 ∞
jan 10 2022 +

Through the forest, down to your grave where the birds wait, and the tall grasses wave, they do not know you anymore. Dear shadow alive and well how can the body die?

damien (Δαμιανος): conquer, master, overcome, tame.

    • ⅹⅺ. they/them. o/ele/o. pt-br. en-us.
    • scorpio. chaotic neutral. enfp.

where you can find pieces of me:

  • images with an ominous vibe.
  • overcoats and scarfs.
  • cloudy and windy days.
  • the sound of the waves.
  • to skywatch or stargaze.
  • every single Bastille song.
  • late nights in the city.
  • old books and libraries.
mar 14 2020 ∞
apr 10 2022 +

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ unhingedadjective

  • mentally unbalanced; deranged.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ menacenoun

  • a person or thing that is likely to cause harm; a threat or danger.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ larger than lifeidiom

  • greater, grander than most others of its kind.
  • a person more interesting or exciting than most people.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ 宝贝 /bǎobèi/ noun

  • rare, precious, treasure.
  • darling, honey, sweetheart.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ unfathomableadjective

  • incapable of being fully explored or understood.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ till kingdom comeidiom

apr 23 2020 ∞
may 2 2022 +

Kelpies • Scottish

  • "Ten children were playing by a lake when a kelpie showed up. Nine of the children clambered onto the creature's back, but the last one hesitated. The boy reached a hand to pet the horse, but his hand got stuck to its neck. When the horse tried to drag the children into the lake, the little boy ripped his hand off to free himself. The boy survived while the other children were carried off and drowned, with only some of their entrails being found."

Leucrocuta • India and Aethiopia

  • "In Ethiopia, there is an animal called crocottas, vulgarly kynolykos [dog-wolf], of amazing strength. It is said to imitate the human voice, to call men by name at night, and to devour those who approach it. It is as brave as a lion, as swift as...
nov 1 2021 ∞
apr 10 2022 +
feb 3 2021 ∞
apr 14 2022 +
  • We’re going full Mr Darcy, but sluttier.
  • Arthur makes a mistake... again, Arthur pendragon makes another mistake, and another one, and then another.
  • I'm reclaiming Christianity for the gays I am sorry but someone has to do it.
  • Doodoodoodooodooodoooo perrryyyyyyyyy.
  • Major character death but they dont stay dead long not gonna lie, is it major character death if they dont stay dead, I dont know tbh, someone dies but its not for long.
  • As of chapter 4 there is no toe sucking but I am determined this story isn't over yet!
  • Post-Canon, but I haven't actually SEEN the end so.......
  • Please don't let the tag "armpit kink" turn you away before you give this a try.
  • Friends to Lovers, slow burn tho, and by ...
sep 18 2021 ∞
may 3 2022 +

Do not go gentle into that good night by Dylan Thomas.

  • Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

The raven by Edgar Allan Poe.

  • Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before;

The haunted palace by Edgar Allan Poe.

  • And travellers, now, within that valley, Through the red-litten windows see Vast forms that move fantastically To a discordant melody; While, like a ghastly rapid river, Through the pale door A hideous throng rush out forever, And laugh—but smile no more.

A dream within a dream by Edgar Allan Poe.

  • Yet if hope has flown away In a night, or...
feb 6 2022 ∞
may 2 2022 +

stolen from...

  • *writing in my diary using a glitter gel pen* I'm losing my sense of humanity
  • turns out i simply cannot handle things or situations
  • idk what it is about sitting in chairs and having both feet on the floor but it's so uncomfortable and awful and I'll never willingly do it if there's literally any other option.
  • whew ok, time to work! ..okay. okay. let’s get started. …,,okeyy ah lets do this. yep…. okay. yes sir lets do this. let’s get started….just gonna start now yep. ,,okay. okay. okayy. ok. …ok..okey…..alright ok.. right hhh.
  • coming out of my cage and they're shouting oh fuck it's loose call for backup I repeat call for backup subject has breached containment area
  • my vibes arent off I am cursed theres a d...
sep 29 2021 ∞
may 5 2022 +

Sara Jaffe's article on Jstor daily - Queer Time: The Alternative to "Adulting". January 10, 2018.

    • Adulting (the verb form of the word adult) speaks about a series of behaviours associated with adulthood: Get a job, become financially stable, get married, buy a house, have kids...
    • For whom are those goals accessible? For whom are they a matter not of choice but of economic reality?
    • Sociologist Pamela Aronson suggests that these behaviours are based on outdated assumptions about class and gender.

"Queer lives are notable for their lack of chrononormativity, starting in childhood."

    • Jack Halberstam in his book In a Queer Time and Place argues that the queer experience of time and space in a heteronormative society is inflicted with time-warping experiences like coming out, medical transitions, an...
sep 13 2020 ∞
nov 7 2020 +

Mark Fisher's article on The Occupied Times - Good For Nothing. March 10, 2014.

  • I offer up my own experiences of mental distress not because I think there's anything special or unique about them, but in support of the claim that many forms of depression are best understood – and best combatted – through frames that are impersonal and political rather than individual and "psychological".
  • Writing about one's own depression is difficult. Depression is partly constituted by a sneering "inner" voice which accuses you of self-indulgence – you aren't depressed, you're just feeling sorry for yourself, pull yourself together – and this voice is liable to be triggered by going public about the condition.

Of course, this voice isn't an "inner" voice at all – it is the internalised expression of actual social forces, some of which have a vested interest in denying a...

nov 7 2020 ∞
nov 7 2020 +