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— Index

  • The wheel of the year
  • Favourites
  • If I were
  • Me in a playlist
  • My quiz results
  • In picrew images
  • Red, white and royal blue
  • The art of game design
  • Movie quotes
feb 22 2020 ∞
dec 14 2020 +
mar 18 2020 ∞
jan 12 2021 +

start date: 2020年06月10日 ┊ finish date: 2023年03月08日

▸ completed: 4/101

grown-up stuff

  • save R$10 for every task I complete (R$40/R$40).
  • renew my RG.
  • apply for a passport.
  • learn how to drive.
  • donate everything I don't use.
  • deactivate my Facebook account.

studies and work

  • take the IELTS test.
  • get a job.
  • go to college.
  • learn basic german.
  • start muay thai class.
  • start learning sign language.
  • learn to play the keyboard

health and self

jun 9 2020 ∞
jan 14 2021 +

your dreams and memories are blurring into one, the scenes which hold the waking world slowly come undone

damien (Δαμιανος): conquer, master, overcome, tame.

    • ⅹⅹ. they/them. o/ele/o. pt-br. en-us.
    • scorpio. chaotic neutral. enfp.

where you can find pieces of me:

  • images with an ominous vibe.
  • overcoats and scarfs.
  • cloudy and windy days.
  • the sound of the waves.
  • to skywatch or stargaze.
  • every single Bastille song.
mar 14 2020 ∞
jan 11 2021 +

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ 木漏れ日 /komorebi/ noun

  • sunlight filtering through trees.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ unfathomableadjective

  • incapable of being fully explored or understood.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ sprachgefühlnoun

  • intuitive feeling for the natural idiom of a language.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ wistfuladjective

  • having or showing a feeling of vague or regretful longing.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ kenopsianoun

  • the eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that’s usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ anemoianoun

apr 23 2020 ∞
oct 11 2020 +
jul 26 2019 ∞
jan 2 2021 +

Mark Fisher's article on The Occupied Times - Good For Nothing. March 10, 2014.

  • I offer up my own experiences of mental distress not because I think there's anything special or unique about them, but in support of the claim that many forms of depression are best understood – and best combatted – through frames that are impersonal and political rather than individual and "psychological".
  • Writing about one's own depression is difficult. Depression is partly constituted by a sneering "inner" voice which accuses you of self-indulgence – you aren't depressed, you're just feeling sorry for yourself, pull yourself together – and this voice is liable to be triggered by going public about the condition.

Of course, this voice isn't an "inner" voice at all – it is the internalised expression of actual social forces, some of which have a vested interest in denying a...

nov 7 2020 ∞
nov 7 2020 +

Sara Jaffe's article on Jstor daily - Queer Time: The Alternative to "Adulting". January 10, 2018.

    • Adulting (the verb form of the word adult) speaks about a series of behaviours associated with adulthood: Get a job, become financially stable, get married, buy a house, have kids...
    • For whom are those goals accessible? For whom are they a matter not of choice but of economic reality?
    • Sociologist Pamela Aronson suggests that these behaviours are based on outdated assumptions about class and gender.

"Queer lives are notable for their lack of chrononormativity, starting in childhood."

    • Jack Halberstam in his book In a Queer Time and Place argues that the queer experience of time and space in a heteronormative society is inflicted with time-warping experiences like coming out, medical transitions, an...
sep 13 2020 ∞
nov 7 2020 +

"gays... really love horror movies" - James Somerton

and so we identified with the monsters... not so much the heros.

  • The bride of Frankenstein (1935) dir. James Whale
  • Dracula's daughter (1936) dir. Lambert Hillyer
  • A nightmare on Elm Street part 2: Freddy’s revenge (1985) dir. Jack Sholder
  • The lost boys (1987) dir. Joel Schumacher
  • Hellbent (2004) dir. Paul Etheredge
  • The covenant (2006) dir. Renny Harlin

there is one instance in which Hollywood has been more than happy in portrait the LGBT community, in both horror and mainstream movies. We can always be the main draw for a movie if we are the killer.

  • Rope (1948) dir. Alfred Hitchcock
  • Psycho (1960) dir. Alfred Hitchcock
  • Cruising (1980) dir. William Friedkin
jul 12 2020 ∞
oct 11 2020 +