a practice in gratitude — "One resolution I have made, and try always to keep, is this: To rise above the little things."

june

• 28 – lunch with gony & boboy; journaled by the window while the rain poured; read her royal highness to sleep
• 27 – rewatched the half of it; grocery shopping with gony & boboy for the sleepover; watched all stars 4 together until 3 in the morning
• 26 – road trip with the family to legazpi; bought two new books at pacific mall's booksale; finished reading the house in the cerulean sea
• 25 – read the house in the cerulean sea; cooked lunch for the family; watched lovesong (2016)
• 24 – picked up twice blessed again; took a nap in the afternoon; updated listography after a while
• 23 – finished reading writers & lovers; nilagang saba & shawarma empanada for merienda; started a new journal!
• 22 – picked up writers & lovers again; left & right comeback party with nicole & my sister; new all stars episode
• 21 – read a monster calls all day; a small father's day celebration with my family; search for life by dirty projectors
• 20 – cooked chopsuey for lunch; watched the final episode of road to kingdom; laundry day
• 19 – cinnamon bites from glad!; watched queendom & queendom performances with my sister; listened to mitski before i slept
• 18 – road to kingdom finale & the boyz won!
• 17 – listened to seungcheol's playlist; watched throwback kpop music videos with my sister; to: mate
• 16 – had takoyaki for lunch as a treat; streamed checkmate like crazy & it charted to #4; tender moment with a stranger on twitter
• 15 – a good monday morning; went to booksale & found a copy of a monster calls; caught up with workmates i haven't seen in a while
• 14 – watched a chef's table episode; bought loglog for merienda!; moonmumbles
• 13 – streamed checkmate the entire day; got the cinnamon rolls i ordered from glad!; new rpdr all stars 5 episode
• 12 – grand mañanita & independence day!; getting lunch with friends and going to maia's house; zoom with lois and domi again <3
• 11 – laughed at lot while at work; met with friends after work for ab meeting; tbz's shangri-la stage
• 10 – lois telling domi & i about talking about tbz to her friend; jun birthday vlive; ate jan helped me with work because i was too tired <3
• 9 – chef's table; samgyup with nikka, nicole, and my sister; listened to my favorite tbz songs playlist
• 8 – made a playlist of my favorite tbz songs; watched (and cried over) hit the road episodes; zoom party with lois and domi!
• 7 – watched all stars 5 with gony and boboy; made lemon cucumber juice!; binge watched tbz vlives again after a long time
• 6 – watched a secret love and sobbed; anti-terrorism bill protest; went to the mall with friends & i bought two books from booksale <3
• 5 – first meeting with sir franz and ma'am riza; younghoon actor news hehe; talked to friends a lot
• 4 – eating lunch with the family; road to kingdom episode; my sister made mango shake which she brought to me while i was working
• 3 – mom bought japanese cakes; started reading reading writers & lovers; first virtual meeting with ab
• 2 – watched chef's table; finished reading days of abandonment!; played games while on video call with friends again
• 1 – dina's piece about kevin; finished watching dickinson; lying in bed with my siblings and just talking

may

• 31 – keepsake by hatchie; listened to music all afternoon & made new playlists; parents brought a headboard to our room
• 30 – watched rpdr finale with friends; tbz's time of call event & jacob's birthday; drank sweet red wine with my parents while eating cheesecake. vibes!
• 29 – ate my cheesecake happily!; jacob's birthday celebrations; played games with friends & watched a thriller film until the ungodly hour of 4 am
• 28 – read days of abandonment; cooked macaroni soup for 12 people and made oreo cheesecake; road to kingdom
• 27 – drank tea & ate banana bread while waiting for a meeting to start; watched she-ra and hit the road; watched killing eve s1 finale on zoom with gony & boboy again; lunch was delishuz
• 26 – svt's 5th anniversary contents (i was so happy and laughed a lot); roasted chicken for dinner; video project approved!
• 25 – finished reading the dream thieves; we had chaofan takeout for dinner; moving furniture around with the famly while listening to abba's discography
• 24 – dedicated side b by carly rae jepsen; picked up the dream thieves again; i feel happy and i've been talking to many friends after taking a short social media break
• 23 – finished reading to the lighthouse, finally; watched more killing eve & rpdr episodes with gony, boboy, and a new friend; cooked macaroni soup for dinner
• 22 – walked home (first time in a while) after a good day at work; mom made pancit bato; watched killing eve with gony and boboy
• 21 – exchanged messages with dina; gony talking about cloud to me and boboy; road to kingdom! new tbz performance! something to love
• 20 – karla's long & tender message; a clear blue sky and bright, beautiful afternoon clouds; tita arlene sent over palabok and lumpia for her birthday
• 19 – avocadoes for desert!; read lunch poems by frank o'hara; allowed myself to watch a few kpop videos
• 18 – talked to lis in the morning; first of generation z interviews; mom brought home more than a dozen of avocados from partido
• 17 – harvest time by charlotte dos santos; read the time passes section in to the lighthouse; watched little forest with lois and domi
• 16 – cooked for my siblings; domi showed me photos of a field of daisies; finished writing a letter for kevin!
• 15 – tita lisa sent some aglio olio & lumpia over; watched tbz videos with lis and lois; the rain poured
• 14 – made soup for dinner; tbz 1st place again on road to kingdom!; decluttered my personal laptop
• 13 – bought tekken with my brother; watched we need to talk about kevin with domi; read to the lighthouse
• 12 – talking to gony and boboy while on ed; listening to hozier while reading to the lighthouse; tbz generation z! (and talking to domi about it)
• 11 – dreamland by glass animals; we had pizza and ice cream as a late mother's day celebration; listened to a live lecture on art & society
• 10 – read to the lighthouse while listening to my green fields playlist; lots of laughter on this day; a bright orange sunset
• 09 – organized my music and fixed my spotify playlists; cleaned room; sat down to write
• 08 – parents brought home fried noodles; watched ang huling el bimbo with friends; streaming tbz videos with lois and domi
• 07 – chopsuey and melon milkshake for lunch!; went on a walk with my sister + bought milktea and tuna pie for my siblings; 8music
• 06 – started reading to the lighthouse; watched shoplifters (2018) with gony; took uquizzes with lois and domi
• 05 – listened to an ed lecture; tbz's new the play episode; we have fruits again huhu
• 04 – sat down in the morning to write; watched jojo rabbit; generally felt so at ease today, with myself, with work, with friends
• 03 – talking to lois and domi; made soy garlic chicken for dinner; found some earphones again and listened to new music while waiting for sleep
• 02 – read poetry, mostly lisel mueller's; zoom party with friends (thea's birthday!), started reading tell me how you really feel
• 01 – prepared brunch with my dad; made pancakes for everyone; watched the half of it with domi and lois <3

april

• 30 – everyone flocked to our room in the afternoon after we turned the ac on; streaming road to kingdom's first episode; tbz first place! period!
• 29 – woke up feeling well rested, made breakfast with my brother; meeting with elr (she is such a comforting presence); read the dream thieves; talked to trisha anne
• 28 – read agnes martin's writings and found so much joy in it; my sister putting on orange lights and playing jazz music; had siomai for dinner (reminded me of uni days)
• 27 – meeting with sir adrian & team; we had pizza & ice cream for parents's anniversary!; head full of trc thoughts
• 26 – made very aries life decisions with gony i can't stand us; watched princess protection program with my sister; talked to gony & boboy almost all day
• 25 – grilled cheese & hot tea for breakfast; read check please & raven boys; svtbz night with domi and lois that took a turn for the emotional
• 24 – finished reading the borrowers after lunch; cooked pasta; read the raven boys while drinking iced jasmine tea
• 23 – made veggie pancakes; read the borrowers and check, please! sticks and scones; watched hannah montana & another cinderalla story with my sister
• 22 – merienda time with the family & had jasmine green tea; read the borrowers; watched the girl who leapt through time with domi and lois, going thru a lot rn
• 21 – watched the globe's romeo and juliet; talked to eve about the midnight lie (i love her so much); made graham balls as per my sister's request
• 20 – watched the globe's hamlet and harold bloom's shakespeare lecture; went grocery shopping with mom; prepared dinner with my siblings <3
• 19 – finally finished reading the poppy war!; made vegetable pancakes; cleaned our room
• 18 – made butterscotch brownies; the phantom of the opera free to stream on youtube; read the city in which i love you while drinking tea
• 17 – talked to a colleague (and ranted to each other) about our webinar's speaker; read the poppy war; sawayama and fetch the bolt cutters release day!
• 16 – had breakfast with my parents; made fettuccine alfredo; watched the guernsey literary and potato peel pie society <3
• 15 – picked up the poppy war again; talked to domi and lois about childhood memories; wrote letters on slowly; played a twitter game with friends again
• 14 – grocery shopping with my dad!; mom made salad; played a twitter game with friends and almost died laughing
• 13 – zoom meeting with the entire team; buko shake at lunch; binge-watched rpdr season 9
• 12 – woke up to the last ever check, please! update; ate jan made carbonara; watched thoroughbreds with eve and lois
• 11 – has french toast & tea for breakfast; watched john mulaney: the comeback kid; video call and played online games with my insane friends
• 10 – finished bgq task; went on telegram & spent the evening talking to friends; watched the boyz' mbti video
• 9 – read an article on arrietty & translation; finished reading the trees the trees; cooked fried rice & was so satisfied with it!
• 8 – watched barbie in the nutcracker and the royal ballet's nutcracker; made lasagna a second time; watched the secret world of arrietty with domi and lois <3
• 7 – crying over friends' words, gifts, and letters; making cheesecake and lasagna as planned; long conversation with domi and lois (if conversations on the internet can be described as hushed, it would be this)
• 6 – woke up to lois and eve's messages, took the 'which austen heroine are you'; read the poppy war for most of the day; made lemon cucumber juice!
• 5 – watched (500) days of summer; talked to eve and lois about book fandom hits; updated listography
• 4 – bulalo, french toast, and beef steak for the soul all in one day; watched the sunset on our balcony; watched kiki's delivery service with domi and lois (and enjoying much more than i remember); watched new rpdr episode with boboy
• 3 – crazy but fulfilling work day; watched snowpiercer on netflix party with friends; started reading the poppy war
• 2 – listened to cavetown's sleepyhead; rewatched emma and listened to the soundtrack; watched whisper of the heart with lois and domi
• 1 – watched knives out and enjoyed it; talked to lore; made vegetable pancake / yachaejeon; howl's moving castle netflix party with lois and domi!

march

• 31 – zoom meeting + gratitude and tenderness for colleagues as we celebrate our 1 year; made banana apple smoothie for dinner; dressed up and put on makeup just to feel something
• 30 – productive morning; had ampalaya and made mango smoothie for lunch; watched the kingmaker with gony and boboy
• 29 – prepared dinner with ate jan; reminisced childhood stories with my siblings; watched dickinson with eve and lois
• 28 - journaled; happily had a cursed conversation with eve and lois; watched rpdr's new episode remotely with gony and boboy, speakers and all
• 27 – watched phantom thread; got work done and planned for the week ahead; finished reading regarding the pain of others
• 26 – felt much better and much more open; watched rpdr videos on youtube; laughed my ass off talking to gony and boboy
• 25 – finished rpdr season 10 (and obsessed over aquaria); made pancakes for merienda and spaghetti for dinner with my sister; talked to many friends (most especially mona)
• 24 – productive morning; we were finally able to buy new groceries (a small distraction from the news); dad made sinabawang isda for dinner
• 23 – gony's birthday huhu; watched rupaul's drag race season 10 all day; mom made adobong kangkong, our favorite
• 22 – watched columbus; bullied lois about beef burger woozi time with eve; watched & talked to boboy and gony about the new rpdr episode!
• 21 – watched emma for the first time; read regarding the pain of others
• 20 – watched the last black man in san francisco; read a captive prince chaptered fic; journaling & reflecting on the week that's gone
• 19 – finished reading the midnight lie; watched little miss sunshine; played online games with gony, boboy, and maia (literally walang magawa)
• 18 – reading (and loving) the midnight lie; listening to fiona apple's discography; the buddymeter quizzes that friends have been making and taking
• 17 – worked while listening to new music; cooked aglio olio for the family; started reading the midnight lie
• 16 – first day work from home! quite productive; cooked fish lumpia & egg fried rice for dinner; finished reading oranges are not the only fruit
• 15 – read oranges are not the only fruit the entire day; my reveal albums arrived! scanned the photos for domi, lois, & chloe; went grocery shopping
• 14 - watched haikyuu with lisette <3; cleaned room and washed my laundry by hand; the boyz rooftop vlive, a happy time
• 13 – last day of school! we work from home starting monday; going on a discord channel with gony and boboy because we couldn't meet on saturday; finished reading the master's tools
• 12 – chatting with teacher enah & teacher llousa before the work day started; got everything on my to-do list done; bought two books from the neapolitan novels
• 11 – went to national bookstore & bumped into toni!; cooking dinner & journaling; talking to ate jan in the evening
• 10 – read the master's tools by audre lorde; watched two episodes of rpdr season 12;
• 9 – full day at work & resolved an issue with ease; met gony and boboy over milk tea; finally got to talk earnestly with gony
• 8 – read antigone by jean anouilh; watched youtube videos including a really interesting series called 5 levels; lunch outside with the family & korean soy garlic chicken for dinner
• 7 – finished reading red, white & royal blue; spent the afternoon napping, cleaning, and watching a bit of paddington; an evening with the best friends and their s/o <3
• 6 – new experiences in legazpi for work; met teacher ofel and judged beside her; watched if beale street could talk on the commute home
• 5 – productive day up to the last minute; comfortably left the school (classes were over at 2 pm); met with trisha anne & walked her to her classes
• 4 – took a day off work & slept in; finished reading the place on dalhousie & cried; productive afternoon running errands
• 3 – watched videos about american politics bc of our conversation with lauren; read about writing poetry at a second-hand bookstore; caught up with nathalie <3 huhu
• 2 – watched seventeen & the boyz videos; productive day in & outside work; watching if beale street could talk
• 1 – editing a college essay and submitting it to ma'am paning for a local journal; reading the place on dalhousie; letting my body rest the entire day

february

• 29 – read the gay girl's guide to ruining prom; found a copy of my brilliant friend at savage mind; met with gony and barbie for milktea
• 28 – successful program at school!; got to listen to my admin's benedictions on teaching, which is always lovely; finished reading the wild iris
• 27 – kwentuhan with sir jeff during lunch break, talking about work, love, family; went to sm with sir jeff to have dinner & drink milk tea; i bumped into yman and vixela at jollibee
• 26 – a really good work day preparing for program; meeting with sir jeff, who just arrived in naga, to resolve a booking issue; dad & i fetched mom at work and went out together to buy kakanin at 11 pm
• 25 – did two batches of laundry & fixed our room!; met with gony and boboy at chef's kitchen & went mall hopping with smirnoff in my bag; helped my siblings with writing for their projects
• 24 – finished reading this is how you lose the time war; talked to arri for a while about her birthday plans; mom cooked my favorite prito & sinabawang isda
• 23 – commute to pili for relatives' house blessing; on a table with my titas talking about the women in our family; reading this is how you lose the time war
• 22 – donated book to the public library; watched little women at the cinema and walked home; wrote kevin a letter & celebrated his birthday
• 21 – read the comic heartstopper; it's a friday? not many good things this day
• 20 – comfortably got a couple things done at work; watched before sunrise (1995); gave away an extra coke float i bought at the mall
• 19 – got everything together last minute at work and my anxiety was eased; a gathering at our house for lola's death anniversary; found time to do self-care, skin care, and sleep early
• 18 – met with nikka, nicole, and ate jan at the mall and talked and laughed for what seems like hours; heartfelt talk with my siblings in our room and the balcony; edited my mom's video for a work requirement
• 17 – my grade 1 students greeting me with a hug; chatting with trisha anne in the morning before work started; finished watching sex education season 2
• 16 – did my laundry & cooked dinner, simple accomplishments; mom's first day at work!; sunday mass, groceries, and lunch with the family
• 15 – arrived home and slept for the rest of the morning; watched videos of kpop girls with domi and lois; started reading daisy miller by henry james
• 14 – started watching sex education; walked around sm calamba with colleagues; caught a bus home with miko
• 13 – happy reunion with friends and mentors; the beautiful harry potter-themed awards night; drinking with colleagues (both friends and strangers) until 1 in the morning
• 12 – day trip to batangas, my dad accompanying me to the bus terminal and buying me food; the bus actually being super comfortable; arriving to the hotel, catching up with cathy, and resting
• 11 – cooked bulgogi ramen for lunch; getting ready for batangas trip; catched chan on vlive then went to sleep
• 10 – listening to the boyz's new album on my walk home from work; tuning in on the boyz's comeback showcase & screaming with domi; chan's birthday celebrations
• 9 – met with ry impulsively!; went to a dino cupsleeve event at taft with ry & met mikko; the boyz's mv release, chatting with boboy & suppressing my screams on the bus
• 8 – walking around moa in the morning to look for freebies / ode to you in manila / even more freebies & post-concert talk with friends
• 7 – bus ride to manila with my sister & friends i'm comfortable with
• 6 – pampering day with nikka; buying a bus ticket for manila and a having sincere group hug to celebrate
• 5 – lunch with the team at iriga courtesy of ma'am gina; had time! on a weekday! to visit the public library and browse the filipiniana section; celebrated annrey's birthday with the extended family <3
• 4 – the news that i'll be spending the work day out of the office tomorrow; talked to ma'am paning; slept extra early
• 3 – watched the good place finale; went out for lunch to walk around centro and bought an ice cream; ukay-ukay with ate jan and found a skirt to wear at oty in manila
• 2 – cleaned room and organized my sister & i's closet; read bluets in our new room (first book to ever read in it!); sunday family dinner at bigg's
• 1 – met with friends at kape naga (feeling extra love for them tonight); started organizing my new book shelf; kecob on vlive

january

• 1: exchanged new year's greetings & messages with friends / started on my 2020 journal / finished watching sky castle (and other videos concerning it until i'm satisfied)
• 2: listened to norah jones' come away with me / fell asleep in the afternoon while listening to music / prepared various fruit bites to bring to our family road trip
• 3: early morning road trip out of town / lunch stop at atimonan and befriending a dragonfly / stopping by the road for a view of an orange sunset
• 4: went tiangge shopping at taytay with the entire family / visited the pelilla wind farm and took many photos of each other / walked around lucena with my sister
• 5: stopped by a restaurant with a view of laguna bay for lunch / went to sunday mass with the family / my mom's birthday dinner at our favorite fancy restaurant
• 6: went to church not to pray but to calm myself down / read fics as a form of distraction / friends planning for our weekend trip to sorsogon
• 7: walked around the school & interacted with school personnel / listened to anastasia broadway cast recording / watched bestdressed & cheyenne barton's new year vlogs
• 8: took a day off at work / read maybe this time by kasie west / talked to lis & lois about foolish hearts by emma mills <3
• 9: woke up feeling well-rested & took my time in the morning / met with gony and bought new clothes together / parents said yes to my weekend getaway with friends!
• 10: feeling the relief of a small moment of tenderness / traveling from naga to sorsogon with friends / drinking & sharing truths until the soft hours of the morning
• 11: watched the sun rise with friends / tried surfing for the first time / watched my first (& a spectacular one at that) moonrise by the sea
• 12: watched a golden retriever play by the sea / learned to play monopoly deal with friends we almost didn't wanna leave the beach / we got svt in manila tickets!
• 13: bought takoyaki to share with parents / bumped into yman & vixela at the mall <3 / started playing a game called adorable home
• 14: a productive workday / watched the farewell (2019) / spent the evening with gony, boboy, and maia at the coffee table
• 15: fun day with my grade 1 students / watched hustlers (2019) & loved it / accompanied my sister to the mall & talked about oty
• 16: this one student i have that always helps me tidy up the room after class / watched interviews of casts & directors of various 2019 films / ukay-ukay with nikka, nicole, and ate jan
• 17: watched once (2007) over a cup of coffee / watched lady bird (2017) and felt a tenderness i didn't feel the first time watching it / bought dinner with my mom, bought fruits, and talked about her exam today
• 18: laundry day / read in bed & finished reading eros the bittersweet / watched new haikyuu! episodes with lis & lois before going to sleep
• 19: spent the morning watching little women (1994) / cooked breakfast for the family / went grocery shopping with the family
• 20: kinda lost it over kpop boys / saw a guy in a motorcycle holding a bouquet of flowers / read lucky caller by emma mills all afternoon 'til evening
• 21: watched little women (2019) and interviews of the cast! / met with gony and boboy at a cafe / dad's birthday - i bought a cake with ate jan and we prepared food with our mom
• 22: first day of having chan with me at work for a week! / watched the good place season four (i love) / read bluets by maggie nelson
• 23: lunch with college friends! even kuya ysra unexpectedly showed up / impulsively attended benilda santos' book launch (& gained valuable wisdom) / went to savage mind with chan and spent maybe an hour browsing books
• 24: chan & i had lunch at our barkada's usual go-to place during college / went to savage mind again and bought two books / read antigone by sophocles
• 25: bought flowers for my sister / met with friends to go to nabua / sleepover at thea's, dinner, watching parasite, playing cards and charades til 4 am
• 26: watched another film with friends before leaving / an orange sunset on our bus ride from bato / caught up on our family sunday dinner
• 27: watched his dark materials: the golden compass at the office with chan / kwentuhan with the grade 6 students staying by my room / watched youtube videos & the good place to unwind
• 28: grade 6 students helped me with my classes / ate jan's birthday dinner! / servers at the korean restaurant gave ate jan a cake & played her a birthday song
• 29: eating vegetable pancakes for morning & afternoon snacks / gave ate jan her birthday gift & went make-up shopping in the evening / a calming day at work
• 30: watched booksmart (2019) while eating a cake / a calming sunset sky on my walk home / talked to the last of the grade 6 students staying by my room
• 31: pop songs were played on speakers & everyone was encouraged to dance in their classrooms or at the hall / re-watched booksmart (2019) / it's a friday & the end of the month!