• there are many theories as to how we came to be
  • (i’m not sure which one i believe).
  • did we appear as dually flickering lights
  • above a hazy skyline?
  • fluttering, distant,
  • choking on stifling fog:
  • first solitary decades of life
  • as a lukewarm utterance into the vacuum,
  • whispering, “oh, what is this emptiness?”
  • haggard gesturing suggesting
  • half is not missing, but whole
  • and someday, when beacons collide,
  • not coincidence, but prophecy,
  • wrenching claims of meant-to-be
  • the sparks erupt in ultraviolet chaos,
  • volcanic, raging,
  • a mighty wallop of colour and sound,
  • a shattering cry of belonging
  • splitting time itself.
  • i don’t think so.
  • i don’t think i was born to love anyone
  • except myself, and even that,
  • some days, i’m not sure is true.
  • i don’t think our initials are carved
  • into anything immortal,
  • let alone battered into the very cosmos;
  • the air didn't lock into place upon our arrival,
  • awaiting the moment our silhouettes
  • would one day fill the empty space.
  • i could fall in love with a melody,
  • let crawl through my body
  • (or a train ride, or alabaster sheets;
  • there are chemicals that do these things to me),
  • i could grow fond of many things
  • but how particular my fondness of you
  • how fervent, how violent, how gentle
  • i think we're just moths
  • riding on the backs of giants
  • and i wasn't drawn to you
  • because our wings are both blue
  • but because they're the same colour
  • as everyone else’s
  • and you were willing to listen to
  • why that scared me
  • we’re not star-crossed
  • but we can still wrap ourselves in the seams
  • of a quilted universe that we did not stitch;
  • bathe in the glow of a sun
  • that does not shine for us;
  • run atop an earth that
  • does not feel our hurried footsteps
  • as they thump,
  • thump
  • thump
  • how lucky we are
  • to have nothing expected of us.
  • quickly—all the time we will ever know
  • is tapping her toes on the doorstep
  • and i do not want to keep her waiting
oct 25 2016 ∞
oct 7 2019 +