- i would like very much to
- live in a small hole in the ground
- like a mole
- a small hole
- for an even smaller mole
- maybe dug into the side of a hill
- and i will close off the entrance
- to keep out the chill of the winters,
- heat of the summers
- no one would know, but please tell my mother
- i’m sorry, i’m sorry
- but it had to be done
- because when you can’t run from the
- invisible weight of the world
- teetering on your shoulder blades
- just smother yourself with dirt
- bury yourself alive
- so at least then you know where the
- suffocation is coming from
- because when i can feel my stomach
- being pulled out through my lips
- and forced back down again
- whenever its decided so
- i’d at least like to know
- who’s responsible
- so i can thank them for giving me
- a gag reflex crafted from steel
- and the artistry to construct a
- creative, well-rounded list of a thousand and one
- ways i could die
- i’ve learned that when fire and ice combine
- they don’t divide,
- they multiply
- two extremes don’t cancel
- they intensify
- and yes there’s something
- bringing the cold
- but oh i bring the burn
- if i was a mole
- in the side of a hill i wouldn’t
- seek that same masochistic thrill that
- keeps my human heart humming
- human mind numbing
- someone please help me, i think i’m becoming
- insignificant again
- that’s the third time today
- a mole wouldn’t cry when
- asked of its day
- when i was little i was told
- i had an excellent imagination
- who ever would have guessed
- i’d use it in the creation
- of my own personal hell
- where everything’s my fault
- and no matter how small i get
- i always take up too much space
- while at the same time taking up
- no space
- because have you ever thought about
- how big space is
- everyone’s so small
- but i’m the biggest small of them all
- not if i was a mole in the side of a hill
- with neither the heat
- nor the chill
- it’s quiet
- and cosy
- but really, that’s silly and
- i don’t suppose we
- could come to some sort of agreement
- for there’s lives to be lived
- business to conduct
- there’s moments to experience
- and there’s nothing to discuss
- things to think too much
- everything to think too much
- i always think too much
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