- "THEY LISA FRANK TRAPPER KEEPER" never gets over it, never
- 4 miles at the gym after quite an absence/injury
- 5 miles at the gym
- 7 miles at the gym today, 6 miles the day before yesterday, and taking yesterday off because I really needed it and I listened to my body instead of pushing myself too hard for once
- a handful of people who always check on me when I’m feeling close to relapse 8( so many of you even at least to pretend to care about my well being, it’s so great. thank you x 213498712357164
- Aaron being a decent coworker prior to his departure ;;
- accounting for all the books I own in list format finally (not including references, manga, art books, etc., I have 107!)
- ART OF HICCUP TOPPING ! GOD BLESS THE ENTIRE NORTH AMERICAN CONTINENT
- asiago cheese crutons
- babe coworker guy giving me his backup sinus medicine for free ;; what a guy
- baking a carrot cake that turned out super good
- baking cookies at whatever hour it was in the morning
- being able to pay my phone bill
- being able to pay rent, internet, and phone bill this month without cutting off my limbs
- being good w/ Orlando, he is SUCH A GuY man what a guy
- being off work today and for the next 2 days
- being off work today during the terrible windy weather
- buying a fuckload of apricot nectar
- canon genderfuckery in Misfits, god bless america
- celebrating 5 months with her ;;;;;;;;
- chapstick, the tool of the gods
- chatting with Lucyyyyyy, always
- Chise amazingly still having the same phone number longer than 6 weeks so I was able to text her and wish her happy birthday ;_; miss her
- chocolate milk
- cleaning the apartment
- cleaning the apartment decently
- cleaning up my computer (deleting a ton of shit I didn’t need, copies of old artworks I didn’t need, tons of old chat logs I never reviewed or needed, ex-related shit, thinspo, a shit-ton of diet-related bookmarks, copies of photographs— lots of things)
- coworker letting me keep his extra pair of jumper cables, what a good guy, I swear ;-;-;-;
- coworker Marissa’s word choice/language use
- cutting my doki entries out of the notebook to collect in a jar for the year— I wrote 23 dokis in less than 2 weeks?? fRIENDsHIp sdgklsg
- deactivating my facebook account
- Deanna and all of her super attractive babeness all up on my dash for the past two days
- Deanna’s compliments, always
- deciding to eat after all
- discovering a local store that only takes cash but sells produce WICKED cheap, god bless
- downloading good tunes and animez to watch in the near future
- drinking a lot of water
- drinking a ton of water
- Em continuing to live
- Emily’s sugoi face
- emotionally overcoming my recent urges to engage in relapse behavior
- ending the month much better than I started it
- enjoying drawing a lot, even if its all shit
- escalators
- feeling less moody
- feeling stupidly body positive for a whole day
- fighting 10000000 urges for a lot of negative things
- finally back to the point of completely and utterly loathing soft drinks
- finally getting ALL the recycling done
- finally having a decent bath (I took 3 in less than 36 hours, I finally had one that was satisfactory ;;)
- finally making plans to art collab w/ Reba
- finding a Lush store!! ;__; I have no money but I love that place holy frick sdglksjg window shopping hOLLA
- finding a rly good sushi roll called the Love Roll which is made into the shape of a heart ;w;
- finding my claddagh
- finding old art that made me feel better about my current art than made me miserable that I used to suck that much worse
- finding out that Ólafur Arnalds is coming out with a new album in April?????????????? thank universe
- finding/downloading the original score of Misfits, it’s fucking amazing
- finishing Animal Farm
- finishing re-watching .Hack//SIGN
- finishing season 3 of Misfits (holy fuck what a climax)
- finishing the 7th season of Dexter
- frozen gyoza, god bless america
- getting a good score and a decent pre-close at work
- getting a lemonade because new employee made a mistake
- getting a little extra time in at work
- getting a lot of good sleep
- getting a new bath towel and toothbrush
- getting a slurpee ;; (I’ve had Icees before, but I haven’t had one in like 90 years, starts to cry)
- getting a valentine from Shea in the post!! ;W;
- getting around to listening to Strata’s more recent stuff and diggin’ it
- getting free pancakes at IHOP w/ Ink
- getting ingredients to (very inadequately and pathetically) make my own sushi at home
- getting scheduled another 5 day week next week!
- getting the recycling done
- getting to goddamn work on time jesus christ
- getting to hear Maddie’s flute playing!!! so good
- getting to sleep last night finally after 4 hours of attempt
- getting to work early 3 shifts in a row
- getting to work early today
- getting to work on time and having good numbers
- getting up early and making breakfast for Ink and I ;; it was good
- getting used to tap water finally
- going to a 7-11 for the first time in my human life
- good score at work yesterday
- good tunes
- grandpa attempting to kick out Savanna, praise jesus
- grandpa funding me a little space heater since there’s a blizzard a’comin and our central heat is entirely central— in the kitchen and nowhere else (i.e. our bedrooms, you know, where we really need the heat)
- grandpa funding me another lamp since I have no overhead light in my room. (one lamp to dim my room and, in the darkness, bind me? I THINK NOT)
- gummy vitamins
- having a beer for the first time in like, a month
- having a decent phone conversation with my little brother
- having a decent shift at work and closing on time
- having a good close and a decent score at work
- having a good close, finishing a bit early
- having a good, thorough close at work and just barely getting a decent score
- having a long much-needed convo with Reba and things working out good
- having the best emotional day of my life since I left home for absolutely no reason
- HB sending me nice texts all the time
- HB’s entire great self, lord what a person (would you look at those guns????????? help)
- HB’s guns (jesus mary and joseph, they are such guns)
- hot tea
- I’m On It by Famous Kid Brick
- Ink encouraging me to not do said negative things „ thank
- Ink sharing fried plantains with me, they were yummy ;w;
- Ink spending time with me watching Zexal ;_; ;_; ;_;
- Ink supporting my attempt to eat yesterday ,_, thank
- Ink’s unbridled rage @ me immediately responded with “tAKE ME AWAaaaaaaayy” and continuing to sing “pocket full of sunshine” at her when she asked “did you want to go to a place?” after we got out of IHOP. (IS THAT NOT A SUPER VAGUE QUESTION? GOD)
- IPA and white pizza
- Janelle Monae’s hot outfit at the Grammy’s tonight. Yowza, what a babe.
- just barely making a good score at work yesterday
- leaving the house for the first time in 3 days
- listening to my grandpa’s old studio music
- local places having my favourite lemonade from back home
- local places having the only Mountain Dew flavor I care about, which wasn’t available back home
- loitering around the house for extended periods of time
- lots of compliments on a nice necklace I’ve been wearing that a friend bought me for my birthday a few years back
- lots of snow
- Lucy getting to wear her boy’s uniform to her gender speech reppin’ her school!!! my hero /swoons
- Lucy sending me wonderful audio files of her really great voice
- Lucy telling me a story about her falling off the bed in her sleep and her American babes on webcam thinking she’d fallen out the window and shouting “Oh my god, we have to call Australia! Does anyone know Lucy’s last name?”
- Lucy, Lucy, Lucy
- Lucy’s anime hair
- making a lot of headway in organizing my goals
- making calamari for Ink and I
- making curry again, even though I couldn’t really taste it
- making it to February!! yeah man
- Marissa denying my offer to deliver her the salad she left at work, thus allowing me to consume it :9
- messing with the acrylic brush in SAI and discovering great things (what a dream)
- Milo always sleeping on/with/around me
- Milo flipping his shit and trying to attack my hula hoop when I started hooping in my room sdlfhsdgh baby
- Mimi appreciating her valentine via 6 caps-locked texts, sdkfhsdg
- Mimi surviving and living and existening in my realm of the world
- motherfucking good-tasting dinosaur shaped sugar cookies, my life is perfect
- mum and dad keeping up with me all day to make sure I was okay
- mum being a little more tolerable regarding the use of my name
- my boss’s patience with my bullshit (and my patience with my handful of shitheaded coworkers)
- my ear piercings still being open despite that I haven’t worn earrings in 900 years? aw ye
- my growing love for avocado
- my hideous Laundry Day outfit
- my little space heater also having a fan function
- my new little space heater working like a champ
- my parents starting to acknowledge the fact that I have a girlfriend
- my spine not being permanently injured and actually healing rather quickly
- my wonderful amazing very good coworker driving out of his way to jump my car off after I left my goddamn headlights on and my battery died
- new coworker being nice to me
- nice new coworker
- not actually losing my wallet like I briefly thought I had
- not becoming paralyzed or something terrible despite slipping in the snow and smashing my lower spine on the edge of a concrete stair
- not biting my nails for the past 5 days!!! yeah buddy
- not buying alcohol or work food recently
- not engaging in relapse behavior (I was in such a mood earlier, I wanted to hurt myself, but I got through it)
- not engaging in relapse behavior despite the urges
- not getting fired
- not getting fired after oversleeping and missing another shift of work hahahahhhagjajfdhskdghajdfhdfgh fuck me!!!!
- not getting into a car accident or something terrible despite the gross conditions of the roads due to the snow storm
- organizing all my art on my computer, sooo worth the hour
- Orlando being alive, goddamn
- Orlando existing and being alive and having a birthday in my realm of life where I can celebrate also
- Orlando in general, what a guy
- our adorable little easter egg shaped cookies ;;
- owning boots
- pain relief cream for sore muscles
- painting my nails cherry red
- painting my nails mint green
- Panera giving me a 5-shift week/23 hours in the midst of the Available Hour Recession we’re having at work, thank fuck
- parents sending me a portion of their income tax return of their own accord so I can live semi-comfortably, thank thank thank
- peanut butter
- planning to make breakfast for Ink and I in the morning ;w;
- reading more
- Reba
- Reba drawing me a super cute Valentine ;_; cries
- Reba’s rewrite of The Cask of Amontillado
- recognizing more regulars
- renting/watching ParaNorman (it was rly cute ;;)
- riesling
- said coworker letting my borrow his jumper cables in case I had more trouble ;_; what a fucking guy, thank fuck
- saving 0.20c a gallon on gas by buying 4 boxes of cereal (I will never eat anything else ever again)
- seasonal beer flavors
- seeing a building downtown that made a heart shape out of red lights in the windows of their office buildings ;_; it was so cute, I’ve never seen something like that in person before
- seeing a customer with a Dexter hoodie
- seeing one of my old coworkers from FL submit to a fuckyeah blog that I follow slkdgjflkhlgskjdfsg
- seeing the driver in front of me at a red light take a long swig out of a gallon jug of lipton tea
- Shea’s amazing goddamn face, help me lord
- skyping with Lucy for the first time too!!!!!! rly rly rly rly good ;;;;;;
- skyping with Orlando again for a billion hours, god bless america he is the greatest fucking person
- SKYPING WITH REBA FOR THE FIRST TIME, YELLS OUT EVERY SINGLE WINDOW IN NEW YORK SDGKLJSGJAKFHKAJDHGJKSHGJKAHFDKJSHGKJHDFKAJHDKGHKSJDHGSDSDSH
- sleeping a lot, comfortably
- so many notes on my hijack art 8’( this fandom spoils me so bad, so much honorrrrrrrrr
- spending the last bit of the money I own on delicious things
- starting Animal Farm by George Orwell
- starting Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad
- starting the sixth season of Dexter
- starting YGO ZeXal with Ink 8w8, I’m enjoying it so far
- strawberry milk
- stretching a bit
- super enjoying aforementioned poorly-constructed home sushi ;;
- sweet regulars at work, always grateful for them ;;
- taking it easy
- Talena getting out of a bad relationship and off into the wild blue yonder of freedom ;; congrats babe!!
- talking to Deanna about goddamn LOTR roller derby genderbends (Grimli, Leggy Lass, Arascorn, Farafear— I’m gonna fuckingknvfnbksdgadgiu)
- talking to Ink for a long time ;;
- talking to Ink for the first time in like 3 days
- talking to mum and grandpa and having good conversations
- talking to my grandpa on the phone
- talking with Orlando a lot
- talking with Shea a bit
- that fucking video of that comedy skit over ROTG footage. I will never fucking get over “…even in your head, which means NEVER, you are NEVER growing up” jesus fuck
- the cusomer in front of me in Target letting me go ahead of her because I was just buying a bag of my fav blue corn tortilla chips and she had like 23598234 items ;; nice of her
- the toilet not overflowing as bad as it could have /it fixing with an easy plunge
- the way just a slight bit of mascara makes my eyes look
- this goddamned month almost being over
- this goddamned month ending FINALLY
- this older lady customer saying I was “very nice” and attempting to tip me a dollar (she put it in the donation box thinking it was a tip jar, I guess, which was better anyway XD)
- this season of Dexter, god its so good
- this young fella customer pronouncing “Thai” as “thigh”, holy fuck I thought I was going to spit laughing right at the cash register omg (“Can I have your ‘Thigh’ Chopped Chicken salad, please?”)
- tissues
- tomato soup from Panera Bread, ffff
- TOPS selling squid rings for $3 a bag??? calamari for a year here I come
- trimming my hair
- TTG BEING SO FUCKING ATTRACTIVE? GRATEFUL 4 DAT BIOLOGY what a fucking attractive person, like, it almost makes me mad
- us singing “once upon a dream” dramatically together at the table
- using my Northern Lights soap from Lush, ohhhmann
- vanilla froyo with fresh banana and chocolate syrup
- Vidchatting w/ Orlando for almost 2 hours last night ;; rly good to see that handsome face awwuuwu
- walking around the Galleria
- walking back into front of house to overhear a coworker say to a manager “every time I go to do something, he’s already doing it!” talking about me. why yes I am the master pre-closer, thank u `w`
- watching a flock of birds fly into a tree and brace the storm together
- watching lots of .Hack//SIGN
- watching Suicide Room even though it nearly goddamn killed me I am so devastated but it was such a well produced film I justjdhnoithywtdsgklhjkkgdlf
- watching The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus with Reba
- watching Up for the third time and crying like a nut lol
- wearing my binder outside of the house
- what vivid, interesting nightmares I had last night
- withdrawing rent and internet money and being financially okay this month
- working hard at the gym, enough to feel a healthy level of soreness afterwards
- Yes by LMFAO
- ZEXAL jesus christ what a good anime (starts to cry)
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