- ☆ Things: the little pixel icons that everyone submitted to me!!, star earrings, cheesy breadsticks, avocado every day of my fricken life, texting, an organized jewelry box, patriotic fingernail varnish (I’ve painted mine cherry red and done a red, white, and blue star glitter overlay), Shinya’s new adorable outfits, my wonderful new things that Shinya purchased for me, department store sales, everyone’s kindness, Tzumi’s art, Thayora’s art, Shea’s wonderful writing, Shark’s eyebrows, polyamory, for the computer chair that I got at goodwill for fifteen grandpa dollars ;; praise lord, for getting a lint roller, re-watching Annie, re-watching Inglorious Basterds, being able to wear my OP kicks for the first time in a long time, disinfectant spray, rotisserie chicken, trying a plum, snakes, Patalliro!, Kotori, qiow‘s art, Lynsey’s beautiful face, Edie’s beautiful face, Olivia’s beautiful face, Chardonnay, Kitkat bars
- A Better Son/Daughter by Rilo Kiley
- A Drop Filled with Memories and Meditational Field from the Paprika soundtrack
- Addie’s fucking autocorrect jesus chrjutgiohjtytje;fak thank u
- affirmations seeming to help
- Ahhhhh art of pre- or post-sexual encounters THEY ARE SO CUTE CRIES
- All of Chloe’s amazing 63 art too ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; weeeeepsss
- ALL OF OLIVIA’S AMAZING 63 ART, THANK U SO MUCH
- All of the adorable fanart of NagiRei from Free!???????? Omg its so cute AAAHH
- all of the heavy rain we’ve been having
- All of the hilarious things they’ve done since I’ve gotten them
- all of the photos of Kelsey’s amazing cosplay (and face)
- all the adorable eene fanart that exists
- all the adorable MU fanart that exists
- all this fanart of yugioh bare booties lately, dang
- arizona green tea
- Asa, for being THE BABE OF MY LIFE, for their gorgeous face and shape and general existence physical, mental, and otherwise, for having the prettiest hands ever?, for sharing so much in common with me somehow despite how great they are and what a fuckass I am, for having such inspiring taste and interests, for sharing any part of themselves with me, because it is so much of a pleasure;
- Asa’s great fuckin face and existence and life
- Asa’s hair and nail game (1000000000%)
- Asa’s incredible sense of anatomy and all of their draws in general lord jesus what an inspo BREATHES……..
- Asexuality, thank u lord
- assorted color ink pens!!! and crayons and markers
- Astral
- baby sharks
- baking an amazing chocolate cake
- barbecue kettle cooked chips
- bear claws (the pastry)
- being able to drink tap water without feeling sick
- being able to tell her that I haven’t!!!!!!! YEAH
- Being covered in kitten scratches like old times
- bendy straws
- best friends forever comic
- Beyonce
- big sparklers
- BIKE RIDING YEAH
- black mascara
- black mascara that washes off easily but only when you’re ready to wash it off BLESS
- Body positivity
- borden chocolate milk
- borzoi and windhounds
- bubble wands
- catching up with Tarick after 3523958238963497 years of separation
- cats
- Cee-lo Green’s album The Lady Killer
- chapstick
- Chloe
- Chloe dealing with my old art spam the other day. bless u 8’(
- Chloe drawing me Alit like THE COMPLETE ANGEL SHE IS HHHHHHHHHHHHHH
- Chloe drawing us all the time like the amazing supercake she is
- Chloe making an appreciation post for me ;;;;;;;;
- Chloe making that Brokeback Mountain manip for me SDKFGSKGSDJFSDK
- Chloe, Chloe’s art, Chloe’s existence, Chloe’s texts and shape and life, holy shit
- Chloe, for her adorable, wonderful art, for sending me positive, heart-warming texts every day, for being so accepting and supportive of me always, for listening to my dumb rants and answering my questions and for keeping up with conversation back, for giving me so much more of her time than I could possibly deserve, for ALL OF THE ADORABLE DOODLES SHE SENDS ME ALWAYS ;; OCTODRESS SHARK WEEHHH;
- CHLOE’S ADORABLE ART OF FUUYA IN THIGH HIGHS (YELLING)
- Chloe’s face, Chloe’s existence
- Chloe’s lovely texts
- Chloe’s perfect art and the shapes of the people in her art and her everything
- Chloe’s positivity and her SWEET FACE ITS PERFECT
- Chloe’s wonderful art style
- Chubby Kotori, chubby everyone, all of the chub
- cleaning the house pretty good
- COFFEE, heath creamer, hazlenut creamer
- coloring books
- courage the cowardly dog
- cutting a lot of bad shit out of my diet (bad as in makes me feel bad)
- dark chocolate oatmeal cookies from Kashi
- Deanna appreciating my dumb art and my dumb letter ;; love u
- Deanna appreciating my shitty jokes
- Deanna doodling us today!!!!!!!!
- Deanna working through all of the shit and nonsense and heat and disgust to be the awesome incredible babe she is every fucking day
- Deanna, for her super babe hair which I will never stop gushing about, for listening to me and my stupid rants always, for being supportive and loving and encouraging always, for being my lifespo so hard in every way all on her own, for keeping me in her life despite how busy it is;
- Deanna’s babely face
- Deanna’s haircut looking good on her, even though she doesn’t like it ;__;
- Demashitaa!! Powerpuff Girls Z, cute as fuck
- Despicable Me 2
- detoxifying face wash
- DEXTER and this fucking season, I am going to die
- drinking more water!
- Edie and how she’s an absolute sweetcake
- Edie’s babely face
- Edie’s perfect face and offering to make me a macaron ring wwwwaahhhhh ;; ??GDFH? THANK U
- eggplant parmesan
- Einzel’s everlasting encouragement
- Eli getting more friendly the more I hold him ;w;
- Emily, all of Emily’s existence, despite… things;;; ;;; ;
- Ever After
- everyone getting my penpal letters!!!! Im so glad
- Everyone’s lovely asks ;-;
- FANART OF GIRL CHARACTERS AS LESBIANS ESP. CHARACTERS WHO ARE NOT CANONICALLY LESBIANS, THANK U GODDESS
- FICTIONAL LESBIANS!!1!!!!!!
- finally finishing my list on myanimelist
- finding a perfect cheapy thing for Shea at Target and sending it out!, ohh man its perfect
- finding out that my really shitty first psych resigned HAHAHAHA
- finding out that my thyroid is perfectly fine and well!
- finishing & sending off Deanna and Edie’s penpal letters
- finishing Kelsey and Einzel and HB’s penpal letters and sending them out!
- friends, friendlings, all of u all of the time
- Fun.’s album Some Nights
- getting accepted into the Stupidly Cheap Prescriptions program!!!!
- Getting approved for financial aid
- Getting approved for food stamps
- getting my prescriptions filled
- getting to episode 40 of GX finally
- getting to talk to Chloe on fb chat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chloe in real time [me sobbing] Chloe
- GOOMBAPRINCE’S ART HHHHHHHHHKTRHHRHRRRRRRH
- Grandpa letting me buy groceries
- grandpa saying I could get a new cat if I want one ;___; thank
- green lights
- GX RIVALSHIPPING (BREATHES LOUDLY ALL OVER EVERYTHING)
- hand sanitizer
- having a foundation that matches my skin tone
- Having a good talk with Orlando about Things, his support, his friendship, him in general, streaming Dex for me
- HB doing so well with band and musician things!!! I am so prouddddddd
- HB, for being around, for being alive, for existing vaguely in my presence at all, for all of the effort they put into every day, for everything;
- HIDAKA’S REALLY CUTE MESSAGE THANK U ;;
- home grown tomatoes
- how amazing Shinya and my grandpa are ;_; Thank u so much for literally legitimately funding me to live ahghjljbklja;ldkjfajsjh
- how babely Deanna is 10000000000% of her life, god
- How cute I used to be??? wow
- Howl, wow he’s hot wow thanks Studio Ghibli
- I hope Ink is enjoying their vacation they deserve to and I just want this most recent episode of Zexal to be good for them I just want all of the good things for them
- Idolshipping, breathes again
- Ink getting the check I sent them & it depositing okay!!!
- Ink, for their amazing, inspiring art always, for being so much themselves and reminding me of so many good, particular things in life;
- Ink’s incredible art
- Jamie Batista’s character on Dexter
- Jun Manjoume and how shitty he is
- just knowing that Asa is alive and existing and being rad every day
- Justin Timblerlake’s album The 20/20 Experience
- Kelsey living and coping with depression and hard life
- Kelsey, for posting that wonderful supportive message to me, for putting me on her very good things lists all of the time, for keeping me company, for confiding in me time and again, for sharing herself and her struggles with me, for texting me and caring about me and keeping up with me always, for her support, her wit, and her strength;
- Kitties being traumatized by the vacuum for the first time
- Kitties discovering their reflections for the first time
- KV (kaitos-v-ibrator) in general, but also because they are a cake
- Leonardo DiCaprio (especially young) (deadeyes Deanna)
- Lucy, for checking up on me as always, for trying to cope with their scoliosis and school and stress and everything all the time, for being so inspiring to me and keeping me close under their watch and being concerned and being happy for me and treating me like I’m important always;
- Lucy’s character in Despicable Me 2
- Lucy’s support and existence and survival
- Maddie appreciating her penpal letter!!!!
- Maddie, for being happy for me and supportive of me, for sharing herself with me and opening up to Lucy and I at all;
- Making play lists and FSTs, its really fun ;v;
- merfolk, mermen, mermaids, mereverything
- Mich, for drawing me that WONDERFUL HUG DOODLEDRAW, OH MY GOD IT WAS SO CUTE AND SO NEEDED THAN KYOU ENDL ESSLYYYYYYYYY AGUGHHHH,
- Mich’s adorable androgynous existence
- Mich’s adorable anime hair ffff
- Milo, I miss him so fucking much „
- Mimi not being dead
- Morgan trying so hard to keep themselves together through all of the stress and hell they’re enduring at home, and trying to deal with dysphoria on top of it and anxiety and job hunting and everything else; A+++ proud of u babe
- Morgan, for planning to send me a thing in the post! ;;, for being so gosh dang cute and posting so much cute, inspiring stuff all the time, for fighting the good fight and making it through the chaos, for being my friend;
- Morgan’s adorable cosplays
- Morgan’s art and how their people are always tiny and wide, it’s so good `v` yes
- Morgan’s really super face and existence
- MORGAN’S SAUCY LUST COSPLAY PHOTOS WHEW what a babe (fans self dramatically)
- MORGAN’S SHAPE, GOD GLORY HALLELUJAH what a shape
- MORGANCEST GOD I LOVE DEXDEB WHEEZES EXCITEDLY
- Moto’s absolutely KILLER ART RRRRHOGMMHKBLlksjfglkhklsdf
- mum blending my haircut better ;v;
- mum bothering to ask whether or not I’d bought a new knife
- mum turning 49, her birthday cake, her tunafish, her concern
- Mum, for being appreciative that I took her to the store, for letting me buy nice foodthings, for being fully supportive;
- my brother’s hair color
- my grandpa all of the time forever
- my grandpa all the time, esp. for not drinking and for being proud of me and just being so so absolutely good to me lately
- My grandpa, for everything ever all of the time
- my little brother registering for the 10th grade ;; proud
- my new clothes because they FIT I OWN CLOTHES THAT FIT! AT MY SIZE! IM SO HAPPYHKB;JJSD
- My new kitties Eli and Oskar ;;;;;;;;
- my new piercings not hurting or causing trouble!!!!
- My new teal and white bicycle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111
- my partial heterochromatic eye color
- my pixel fambly ;w;
- my sister turning 27, existing, survivng through her health problems
- MY THIGHS BURNING WHITE HOT LIKE THE SUN I MISSED THIS FEELING THANK U
- MY YUGIOH STARS ARTBOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH SHEA OH MY OGDGKHLFJOIGJADG;BK
- nail varnish
- nectarines
- new haircut
- new psychiatrist being nice and helpful and Not a Dick, praise be
- new york style cheesecake
- next therapy appointment being in 2 weeks instead of a month!!!!!!!! YES
- not having to pay immediately for all my mental health visits
- Nyxalecto’s hair style for Shark // art in general, god bless
- oatmeal raisin cookies
- Olivia’s amazing Mizael Cosplay and beautiful fucking face, omg
- Olivia’s incredible art
- Organizing my to-do lists and such semi-successfully??/
- organizing underneath my bathroom sink FINALLY
- Orlando being happy for me and caring about me at all ever
- Orlando being okay after 100 close encounters with death jesus christ ;_____;
- Orlando calling me cute ;____; no u
- ORLANDO I am so grateful for him all the time, what a fucking guy
- Orlando streaming and watching two episodes of Dexter with me!!
- Orlando, for listening to my liveblog of the first episode of the new season of Dexter, for sharing his drag adventures with me, for being such a good thing in my life always;
- Orlando’s great hair cut/shave
- Orlando’s video sldgjdflkhjlkjasdf it was A+++++++ I’m so excited thank you jesus god bless america ORLANDO IS A NATIONAL TREASURE
- Oskar sleeping in my lap ;__; he’s the baby
- Panera Bread
- Pendulum
- people who let you merge
- photos depicting non-sexual intimacy
- pomegranate lemonade
- psychiatry appointment tomorrow! WITH A REAL PSYCH!
- purikura photos
- rainy days
- raw fruit
- Reba and Chloe’s support the night before last when I was having my bad episode ;; thank you both hhtghbgdhfdgfhjgkljasdf
- Reba doing their best so control funds for school purposes and just trying in general, doing their thing ;; ganbatte darlin
- Reba working so hard and getting their payment in for school!!! so proud
- Reba, for tagging me in a bunch of cute, supportive posts ;___; you are so amazing thank you, for being such a babe all of the time, for their amazing art submission for the realmscon badge contest!!!!!!!! It’s amazing and shows your incredible talent ahuu; for checking on me and for fighting the good fight every day, for caring about me so much always and just being the best positive influence, for that WONDERFUL drawing of the two of us and me in the flower crown, what a cute amazing thing oh my gosh thank you so much;
- Reba’s babely face
- Rebecca texting me and caring about me despite all of the hell she’s facing right now in her life, goddddddddddd
- Rebecca, for texting me and caring about me and what happens to me, for being supportive, even when things in her own life are stressful and keep her away for long periods of time;
- Rebecca’s existence and life, I love her so fucking much it’s sickening, wow I just love her no matter whether we talk or not, I love herrfjghnjklhlkdkgskljdlkjsgdklsj
- Recovery
- red wine
- Remote getting better and talking to me and surviving and living and good things happening in their life!!!!! praise be
- rum & A&W root beer
- Scapegoats
- Shea texting me and keeping me company
- Shea, for working so hard every day, for reaching out to me when they’ve needed or wanted to, for calling me, for texting me, for caring about me, I’m so glad they received my letter!!!!!!!!!, for sending me cards in the post and caring about me so much and being so supportive and loving and wonderful, for getting things done and earning that AMAZING GRANT FOR THEIR RESEARCH WHICH THEY TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY DESERVE!!!!!!!!1!!!!! SO PROUD OF YOU, I LOVE YOU S O MUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHH;
- Shea, omg, all of Shea all the fricken time
- Shea, the whole person
- Shea’s absolutely sweet tipsy texts
- Shea’s incredible writing, the incredibly sweet card they sent me in the post, their wonderful voice, and wonderful existence in my life and everywhere outside of my life
- Shea’s strength to register to try for grad school dsglkdjkhljsdlkfj
- Shea’s wonderful, flawless sober self texting me and checking on me and constantly brightening my day by existing
- Shigeru for dealing with 0.0000000001% of my complete idiocy
- Shigeru, for helping me to understand, for showing so much patience with me and for doing their best every day to get better
- Shigeruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
- shimmer lights shampoo
- Shinya buying me bleach for my hair and ziploc bags
- shinya buying me breakfast and contributing to my existence and being such a babe always
- shinya buying me so many goddamned nice things all the time jeusSGJ CHRITGDJ
- Shinya getting a new phone!! she deserves it so much
- Shinya getting all kinds of new clothes that fit her really well, she is so cute ;-;
- Shinya going to my therapy appointment with me
- Shinya keeping me company all the goddamn time and dealing with me and saying nice things about me in therapy and hrhhghhhhhhhhhh ;________________;
- Shinya making bank and working so hard every weekend to get by
- Shinya taking me to Olive Garden for dinner
- Shinya volunteering to take me to see Despicable Me 2 tomorrow
- Shinya writing messages on the bathroom mirrors so I’d see them when I got out of the shower ;-; what a cake
- Shinya, for asking someone to open a dressing room door because I was too anxious to do so, for buying me a Hogwarts t-shirt, for letting me pick out 3 items from a buy 3 get 3 free deal at Bath and Body Works, for buying me another ear piercing set!!!! (two holes on both sides now ;w;), for buying me a chocolate chip frappe on the way home, for being my sugar mama so hardcore lately and always!!, for being so supportive, for listening, being attentive, being involved in my life, caring about me, supporting me and spoiling the shit out of me despite how much I really honestly do not fucking deserve any of it at all, oh my god. Oh my god. ;; Thank you x 2984573298678923742983567364234. Starts crying, wails incessantly;
- Shinya’s friend Michael giving me a mango pineapple smoothie for free at McD’s because their machine was broken when I went to buy one, so I had to buy a regular soft drink instead, and he felt bad and gave it to me after they got the machine fixed ;; what a guy
- SNAKES
- snk fanart, woo baby
- STARFIGHTER SDGKLJDFLKHJLGKJADFLKJSFHLJ
- starting my new exercise regime!!!!
- starting to re-read The Boyfriend List
- strawberry scones
- Talena, for her adorable face and existence, for sending me a supportive message about my cat, and for constantly sending her support to me in all parts of the past and present, and for being such a good friend in general;
- tattoos
- Teeny snakes
- teeth whitening chewing gum
- Telena’s adorable face and self
- Telena’s outfits from work?? omg I love them, they cheer me up so good
- that sound Vector made (you know the one- HUUU~U)
- Thayora’s art!!!!!!! WOW
- The Blue Umbrella by Jon Brion & Sarah Jaffe
- the cryllic alphabet
- the energy to work out!!!!!! returning!!!!! to my husk!!!!!!
- The fact that AFI is coming out with a new album, because Chise is SO fucking excited about it and Im happy for her
- The fact that Shea genuinely cares about me at all
- the fancy non-alcoholic drinks from Olive Garden
- The new amazing high heels Shinya bought me holy JESUS they’re amazing perfect sklgjdsfjkh
- the older guy at the post office who should probably recognize me by now that’s really sweet and helpful
- the plethora of adorable sharkbait fanart in existence ;;
- The possibility of being more mature but almost as cute as I was I guess hhhhhh
- the smell of gardenias
- the urge to be in a relationship and have dokis and be affectionate with friends returning to my husk, bless
- The Vapor Transmission album by Orgy
- the Zexal Fanwork Marathons that Asa starts
- therapy appointment going really well!! prescribed affirmations 3x a day :9
- Therapy going better than I think it will every time ;; so good
- tj & amal comic
- TORI’S FEM HAIR FOR YUUMA, HOLY FRICK ITS MY FAVOURITE SLKGJSDFHKLJSDF
- tzumi’s art BREATHES DEEPLY FOREVER
- vanilla frozen yogurt
- Watchmen
- well-deserved anguish
- Yugioh GX in general, jesus
- Yugioh Zexal holy shit I’m broken agsufhsdf in the best way tho augh ANGUISH
- Yuuma
- Zexal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IN GENERAL hhhhhijgjsdGFJH
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