family

• Brother -- for doing good in school even though he doesn't particularly like it, for juggling (poorly) with me and making me laugh when I was feeling down, and for being receptive when I correct him;
• Grandpa -- for being the light of my life, for supporting me, funding me to live, and wanting my health and happiness above all things, I could not ask for a greater support or love, thank you infinitely;
• Mum -- for calling to check on me all the time, for loving me, and for not committing suicide;
• Sister -- for coming to visit me briefly and for always hoping the best for me, no matter how much she is struggling;

friends

• Asantewaa -- for running one of the most seriously rocking blogs, for giving me their new phone number and keeping me in the loop, for appreciating my existence even a fraction as much as I appreciate theirs, for having such a damn good art style, always asking me how I am, and always inspiring me every day, thank you for receiving my package and being so great to me always;
• Chloe -- for being such a babydoll, texting me to cheer me up and check on me, drawing me things on the reg, and being so wonderfully sweet and supportive all of the time;
• Deanna -- for checking on me constantly and sharing themselves with me, for sending me the loveliest letter, for being such a trooper during all of the hard times and the hair woes, for being such an inspiring babe absolutely forever, and being so sugar sweet to me during all of the chaos and always giving me good advice and wishing me well ;; thank you so much;
• Einzel -- for their lovely response letter, for supporting me both quietly and actively always, for doing good work all the time, and for being the most incredible friend there is;
• APK -- for being utterly wonderful company every day, for being sympathetic to my neuroses and family woes and caring about me so much, for being quietly supportive and offering their help, for making me laugh, making me smile, inspiring me regularly, helping me cope with life in general, sharing themselves with me, and helping me to feel so absolutely comfortable all of the time, thank you for everything;
• Jim -- for being such an adorable and enjoyable person, for running a great blog, being a kind person to me, and their existence in general just cheering me up;
• Kelsey -- for getting up every day and fighting the good fight, for coping with their issues and health in the best way they know how, for putting up with work and school, and not giving up;
• Lucy -- for being an amazing listener, being one of the best forms of emotional support I have in my life, for drawing me ladylove and being an all-around wonderful artist, for all of their queerspiration and lifespo in general, making me laugh, keeping me company, talking me through difficult times, hoping the best for me so actively, and for being a most incredible friend, thank you a billion zillion times for everything you do and everything you are;
• Maddie -- for their super adorable Ariel cosplay!!, for keeping Lucy and I in good company always, and for working through their home and school life no matter how difficult it gets, for not giving up, and for being such a sweetheart;
• Morgan -- for being a bodacious babe every damn day of the year, for sending me that absolutely lovely package, and for graciously receiving mine in return, thank you so much;
• Orlando -- for keeping it real, taking care of themselves, continuing to be my friend, and being a bomb-ass person in general;
• Rebecca -- for growing up on me and attempting to move out of the nest like the brave soul they are, for keeping me company, loving and supporting me, and being hilarious and great in general;
• Shannon -- for working through their insecurities and life problems with realistic efforts, for not giving up, for being one of the coolest online people I've met despite that we don't regularly talk, I deeply appreciate your existence and Im wishing you the best always;
• Shea -- for coming to Six Flags with us during my trip up, for driving all over the damn place looking for somewhere to get dinner that night, for cuddling with me, for making me the shirt, for that incredibly sweet card, for thinking of me, for supporting me, for taking care of themselves, surviving every day, and trying to cope with life so that we can achieve something better in the future, for being such an amazing human being, a talented writer, gif maker, editor, and commentator, for working so hard and so long, for everything they've done and how far they've come, for everything ever, for allowing me in their life, thank you;
• Shinya -- for buying me everything ever oh my god, for keeping me company, caring about me, keeping me sane, seriously for funding half of my life I swear to god I will never be able to repay it ever at all I am so grateful for all of the things I am spoiled much beyond my worth as a person and I am continuously astounded by their kindness, for making me laugh, giving me things to look forward to, for helping distract me when I feel poorly, and for being there through thick and thin, thank you endlessly;

other friends, even though we don't regularly speak

• Ai, for being such an astounding sweetheart through and through, being supportive of me, and making me smile;
• Anisha, for running an incredibly inspiring blog and Listography and being kind to me;
• Asa, for telling it like it is;
• Edie, for their adorable face and lovely existence;
• Emily, for staying alive and being such an adorable person;
• Hika, for their perfectly sweet face and absolutely fun personality; * Ink, for their amazing art and patience with me;
• Lynsey, for reminding me of so many good things in life;
• Mimi, for being brave and stepping forward and out into a better life;
• Mich, for graciously receiving my extremely late package and lack of a birthday gift, checking to see how I was, and not putting up with anyone's bullshit like the gq babe they are;
• Olivia, for being such an inspiring, talented artist and being so kind;
• Reba, for working so hard all the damn time and being a sweet and inspiring human being;
• Telena, for coping with their own life and issues and not giving up;
• Thomas-Lea, for their great personality;
• Tori, for their hilarious comics, great sense of humor, wonderfully friendly personality, and for being supportive to me;

artists

• Jin -- for consistently producing and sharing their amazing work, it inspires me every moment
• Thayora-- for their incredibly cute art style, engaging talent, getting together Zexalloween, and allowing me to use their precious cat-eye Manjoume as an icon, thank you so much ;;

other folks

• GCSC staff -- my professors, for dealing with the incredibly raucous student body, most of which isn't interested in learning, and the Department of Disabilities staff, who were extremely kind, very patient and understanding, and supremely helpful to me in my endeavor to withdraw from class, I am extremely grateful for their help and kindness;
• LM staff -- front desk staff and pharmacy staff specifically, for always being kind, courteous, and willing to help without treating me like something is wrong with me;
• Ms. Angie -- for always being kind to me, saying hello, and offering me into her home should I ever want to go;

things

• food & beverage -- coffee, french vanilla + hazelnut + peppermint mocha coffee cream, neurobliss + neurosleep beverages, Redbull for keeping me alive while I was in school, mojitos, Smartwater, capri suns, chicken curry, rye bread, cereal (all Ive eaten lately), yogurt, caesar salads, banana milkshakes, almonds;
• technology -- new phone, my first Kindle, my first laptop;
• music -- The XX, Lorde, Belinda, Murder by Death, Strata, Lana Del Rey, Rihanna, Wintersleep (always);
• new material items -- thigh highs, trouser socks, pyjama shorts, wing earrings, deer sweater, Kattobingu shirt that Shea made me, dinosaur hair clip, striped dress Shinya bought me, red lipstick, short blue wig, cat-eye glasses, space necklace, washed-out denim skirt, brief-style underwear, city shirt, comfy pajama bottoms, blue cardigan;
• etc. -- body positivity, my kitties, my new tumblr handle, male!Kotori SWEET JESUS, yugioh zexal even though it's killing me, my medication, my hair growing out, being hugged, skyping with friends

places & events

• Trip to Atlanta to take Sisi to the airport, featuring a visit to Six Flags, Johnny Rockets, IHOP, the Georgia Aquarium, Econo Lodge hotel, Waffle House, and Atlanta's Skyview;
  • first trip to Six Flags
  • first ride on an upside-down roller-coaster
  • first trip to an aquarium
  • didn't have an anxiety attack at all!!
  • first kiss I've gotten in almost three years
• Sharkbait 30 Day Challenge;
  • so many good fanmixes and depressing art, thank you so much
• Getting out my thoughts about people for therapy, slowly but surely;
• Getting into my first D/s relationship, my first relationship in general since March/the start of my recovery;
• Getting a 90 on my first Earth Science exam;
• Withdrawing successfully from 4/5 classes to prevent myself from relapsing;
• Finally posting that GX Rivalshipping fanmix like I said I would a month ago;
• Sending out Lucy's letter and Mich's package finally; sending out penpal packages for the first time in ages;
• Lucy drawing me girl love, thank you so much;
• Moonbathing the other night because the weather was so good;
• Getting 2 compliments on my Batman shirt while out the other day;
• The girl at Earthbound seeming to flirt with me;
• Forever 21 coming out with a million bat things that I can lust after but never own;
• My brother celebrating his 16th birthday;
• Shea celebrating their 23rd birthday