People I just wanted to be close to:

• Alena
  • she was cute, but very oblivious
• Ben
  • we got close, but he pushed me away
• Heather
  • she had a boyfriend and did drugs & I wasn't down with it
• Ryan
  • would have been long distance, his crush was fleeting
• Sean
  • would have been long distance, he faked our friendship

People I really admired/respected:

• Chibi
  • it would have been long distance & she wasn't interested
• Ica-san
  • way, way, way out of my league
• Lindsay
  • way older than me, asexual/straight

People I thought were super beautiful:

• Matt
  • he was insane, out of my league, didn't know I existed
• Nick
  • out of my league, not interested in me whatsoever
• Trey
  • super older than me, had a girlfriend, out of my league

People I would have actually dated:

• Fluffy
  • she was my best friend, but she was/is straight
• Grace
  • she always had a boyfriend and we were both too shy