jan: i was feeling down on my birthday and cried because i miss my parents. my in-laws threw a mini party for me and then we went out to eat. i felt loved. · i had a really intimate conversation with my in-laws, and for the first time, i truly felt like part of the family. it felt great. · the start of the year always makes me super anxious, and this one is no different. my thoughts feel restless and overwhelming, but i can't really explain what i'm feeling or why. i have no motivation at all for my hobbies. i just want to stay in bed and sleep all day, shut the world out for a while. · discovering heartopia was the best thing ever, it's literally all i do every day. · randomly got sick and it turns out it's a bacterial infection... definitely not on my 2026 bingo card.