feb: so addicted to heartopia that i started making content about the game on tiktok and paused all my hobbies because of it / for the first time in years i stepped away from twitter / finally after many months i got my hair cut really short and everyone at the salon complimented me / said i wouldn't watch bbb but i'm casually watching it / had to schedule some exams because of the bacterial infection i had / started watching my little pony / i still feel anxious and worried about the future / i made a new friend! and my motivation to update my neocities and blogspot is back too

jan: i was feeling down on my birthday and cried because i miss my parents. my in-laws threw a mini party for me and then we went out to eat. i felt loved. / i had a really intimate conversation with my in-laws, and for the first time, i truly felt like part of the family. it felt great. / the start of the year always makes me super anxious, and this one is no different. my thoughts feel restless and overwhelming, but i can't really explain what i'm feeling or why. i have no motivation at all for my hobbies. i just want to stay in bed and sleep all day, shut the world out for a while. / discovering heartopia was the best thing ever, it's literally all i do every day. / randomly got sick and it turns out it's a bacterial infection... definitely not on my 2026 bingo card.