january

• hot summer breeze, feeling popular, seeing lots of friends, being addicted, transcending, behaving like a fucking teenager, alice glass - without love, buying a keyboard.

february

• mental breakdown, trying to kill myself, sending everyone to hell, not wanting anything anymore, fucking bitches will drown in my power, i'm hot as fuck, wisdom tooth, puscifer, deftones, the pretty reckless.

march

• friends, cleaning and letting go, i'm a fucking rockstar, quarantine?, being a model.

april

• tcc, trying to kill myself again, blank space.

may

• red velvet cake, being really depressed and thinking ugly stuff, adopting pipoca, thinking about how can i protect my sister forever, airplane by j-hope, getting a new tattoo matching with my best friend, buying a guitar, 'oh so you like my personality? thanks, it's a disorder', restarted watching naruto on the 22nd, trying to have a healthy conversation with someone who hurt me really bad, taking my sleeping pills and going out to do drugs as the fucking inconsequent teenager i was then coming back home and watching naruto.

june

• my birthday, la la land, caçadora de corpos, i miss my 15s, being horny, realizing i gained weight, sasuke uchiha, move - taemin, festa junina, randonautica, 'trouble' album by natalia kills, 'father sky, mother earth', american horror story, i think gatita is going to die, michael b. jordan.

july

• being pretty, kawe and renata, helping ananda with her stuff and smoking lots of weed, murilo and patrick, gatita is really sick, dreamt twice about being in a blackpink concert, met nana, successful by ariana grande, watching movies with her, first time by jonas brothers, feeling nostalgic, dreamt about doing a rhinoplasty, 48_club, lobi-somem espi-nafre & chuva chuva, dreamt about going to a fashion show where blackpink were performing and i helped rosé get calm, dreamt about dating sasuke, monara, 'extrair leite de amendoa' tweet, thinking about pinksé, bellyache by billie eilish, i got a match with my dentist, shameless by camila cabello, got into a band.

august

• 'future nostalgia' album by dua lipa, skincare, tcc, the office, had a wet dream about a guy i used to like but now he has a girlfriend, dreamt about a car accident, gatita died, i cried so fucking much, i feel bad when i feel good, valorant, wet dreams, wings descriptors, changing some things in the house, seeing my friends, distant motorcycle sounds.

september

• bili died, put it straight by g-idle, my pronouns: ca/dela, ouija, dreaming about scorpions, the babysitter, 'some people were born just to be buried', dreamt about meeting rosé, watching 'inception' with dad and 'parasite' with him and mom, met tina, working in lu rocha's art studio, 'looking for trouble and if i can't find it i'll create it myself', dreamt about the glee meme and people wanting to dance battle me, had a wet dream with henry cavill ?, highly suspect, yamato calling kakashi 'senpai'.

october

• HALLOWEEN, scooby doo with thais, wet dreams with a forbidden person, ten tonne skeleton by royal blood, 'white pony' album by deftones, you've seen the butcher by deftones, fighting with my uncle, internship, dming johnny stevens, yung lean, dreamt about the perfect boyfriend but he doesn't exist, talking a lot to vilarte, going out a lot, kissing strangers, fleabag with helo, traveling in time with my friends on the 19th to black swimming pools and trampolines, going to the movies with my sister and then with my aunt, 'como pode um buraco tão pequeno como uma vagina mover tantas montanhas', dreamt i was out with my girls, 'sociedade anônima do corre', made friends with a convict, dreamt again with the same forbidden boy, thais jet laura karen and manu make me so happy, gukkie and misha died, being a hot vampire for lucas' photos, akali, being a model, dressing up as american mary for halloween.

november

• jesus christ by brand new, kanye westphalen, going out with manu laura and mariana, i love kawe so much, 'damn bitch you baked', b by jaden, the beach by the neighbourhood, sleeping party with the girls, on the 7th karen went to the hospital and thais got run over by a car oh my god i'm next LMAO, thais's daughter said she's glad she's met me and i got so emotive uwu, my sister is nietzsche's reincarnation istg she said "when we die we go to the grave" after her little friend said we go to heaven when we die lmaoooo, BITCH I POSTED A PIC OF A JOINT ON MY PUBLIC INSTAGRAM BY MISTAKE, geana's voice: meninas preciso falar algo muito importante... /starts twerking/ uiiii vai se fu-deee, thais kept hitting on eloisa by mistake and i couldn't stop laughing, i dreamt i had a baby boy on the 22nd and i couldn't stop thinking about how much i loved him and his little doe eyes and i got so depressed ):, i'm pretty sure i went to another dimension in my dream on the 29th and i made a mess out of other-isabela's life because she was 7 years old and i kept saying weird stuff to her (our?) parents, iu.

december

• got so many compliments from my internship supervisor, feeling good with myself, ghibli studio, blair waldorf's mindset, family time, cute girl uwu i might be really interested /sighs/, summer, seeing my high school friends, kissing the boy i used to like on elementary school, i think i have coronavirus?, christmas time, baking gingerbread cookies, mago by gfriend, star by loona, i can't stop me by twice, 'positions' album by ariana grande, victoria monét.