• 8/28: fried everything, piranha 3d, giant stolen bag of popcorn, groceries, the host.
• 8/29: cleaned entire kitchen/house
• 8/30: first day of class, hot.
• 8/31: 2nd day of classes, same as the first, swimmin, too hot to sleep
• 9/1: library, class, x-files, swimmin.
• 9/8: probably the worst, or the end of the worst, or the beginning of the good.
• 9/18: "maybe we could practice kissing."
• 9/19: told me he wanted to conceive a child with me.
• 9/20: lips, uncomfortable, "kissing on you."
• 9/21: skype, and reading
• 9/22: fell off my bed. started using a new soap. broken social scene. a long email. sea monsters.
• 9/23: burritos, nachos, etc. a fucking gallon. papers, reading, PDFs, etc.
• 9/24: class, work, shower, waited around for you. crawled in bed, made burritos for us, read books
• 9/25: nice wake up, made breakfast, more reading, went shopping, bought nothing, went to williston, bought a few things, stole a $50 iphone case nbd, bys and watched some x-files classics, more books, more beds
• 9/26: woke up late, went to sneakers, went apple picking, laid in bed, told you i loved you, you left, i read by myself.
• 9/27: angry, still, and with good reason
• 9/28: same as above, and sad, and mildew
• 9/29: jonathan ames, pumpkin pie latte, and rain, and rode my bike home in the rain
• every day between 9/30 & 11/18: missing feelings that aren't there anymore, feeling bad about myself because I don't have the ability to forgive, never getting enough sleep, never eating enough and constantly losing and regaining weight, feeling sad and numb, having one good weekend at the end of october, and desperately needing a hair cut.
• 11/19: finished law. finished everything. piss poor job on a presentation, fuck all. missed work to finish law. packed books, etc, pho hong. advice?
• 11/20: drove home, free latte, whole foods burritos, ciders, deserts, and more soap. love and some verses.
• 11/21 - 11/24: errands, and things. new boots! carol bought me $60 worth of skincare products. tofurky pot pies and pumpkin risotto. tomorrow is thanksgiving. break is almost over. i slept a lot.
• mid-october edit: a nice, perfect weekend, hiking in stowe, veg(an) breakfast at sneakers, discovering mini caves at smugglers notch, and assorted other nice things. bad feelings to follow.
• 11/25-22: mixture of feeling completely awful about my behavior at the beginning of the semester and lagging behind on work, realizing these feelings were beyond my control, having no money whatsoever, vague attempts at feeling good about myself, spending too much money on food and having no time to do homework/sleep/not stress out all at once, watched season 1-2 of gossip girl, wrote russian paper, wrote law exam, got 94 on law exam, didn't get a C in policy (B+, must have gotten A on term paper to get this grade), getting my hair cut, getting all my grades in, moving all my stuff home, leaving my bag and umbrella in vermont, buying christmas presents, china pan, meat pastas, failed failed failed dinner attempt and a stupid fight, averys, charged $41 for late textbooks because my life is stupid, christmas tree, new coat, northampton, stories about buenos aires, all my friends are adults and not teenagers now, and sleeping disease.

overall, feeling 90% better than i have through the 11 months prior to now. that is saying not very much about the past two weeks, considering it fell during finals, and a lot about the conditions of this year. worst year.