i am writing this to get it out of my system. heads up, this won't make sense because i am crying as i write this, and my train of thought is lost somewhere. but i want this out before i completely lose my mind.

napapagod din ako. i honestly think i'm barely functioning. and i'm trying to think of how i can possibly tell this in the decent way possible. pero, napapagod na ako.

i never asked to be a shock absorber, it was always something that i had no choice to begin with. and this may be a recurring rant that i've always been telling my friends about pero nahihiya na ko to rant the same things over and over because i am stuck here. and i don't know when i'll ever get out.

i can't think of any way to say this without going on to the specifics, but i am tired, exhausted, and very much burned out. i'm only literally hanging by a thread and everything i do on a daily basis is o...

the thing i love about listography is i'm making it like a mini journal. and i guess because i'm finding comfort in typing stuff than actually writing it. (but good i guess, because it means less use of paper for me, and more trees to hopefully save) i don't know why i'm feeling sappy at the moment. i have a new job. which means i can pay off bills and get myself to school. i'm almost almost over college. i have a good set of friends and support system. i have a new kitten that i treat as my child. i love her to death and i can't wait to give her the best life she deserves to have. but why am i sad lmao. maybe because i'm listening to sad songs lately? is it the dread of the unknown once again creeping in to me? is it the effect of birth control again? am i having stress? sometimes finding out the root cause can give you such exhaustion that you just stare into space thinking of nothing an...