• 11/04/11 *
• Time in my patio to read and smoke
• Tisha for sending me a funny pic on my phone everyday
• Robert being a good murse
• Lola who is keeping me company while bed bound
• Pet therapy dates that make people happy
• 11/06/11 *
• Friends that send me things to cheer me up
• Oprah's Life Classes - I've been learning a lot
• BookMooch.com - finding new homes for old books
• My husband going out to get me food after working a long day.
• People whose energy is so bright and beautiful and are willing to share it with you.

If I was to honestly document the multiple personalities that I'd let inhabit my head/life, these are the ones that I'd let out the most.

• Esther Rosenbaum - a 75 year old retiree living in a community in Boca Raton, FL. Esther is a very grumpy Jewish woman who is full of a lot of wisdom, but it mostly comes out as bitter little spats. She spends her time playing canasta, sun bathing, drinking, and abusing her prescription medications.
• July Jones
• Bryson
• Yolanda
• Frida

• The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien
• Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
• His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
• The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
• Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling
• To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
• Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
• Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell
• The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis
• Jane Eyre, Charlotte Brontë
• Catch-22, Joseph Heller
• Wuthering Heights, Emily Brontë
• Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
• Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
• The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
• The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
• Great Expectations, Charles Dickens
• Little Women, Louisa May Alcott

• get pregnant
• write a list of forty books and read them all in the year
• get another tattoo
• keep an herb garden
• bicycle wherever i can
• lose 50 lbs
• get an amazing haircut
• get a job that i like
• go out of the country
• send postsecrets as often as possible
• visit my family in iowa at least three times
• balance on a skateboard again
• write in journal daily
• cook more often, eat out minimally
• make new friends in florida
• try a different hair colour
• have a walking schedule with my dogs
• show/sell art work at the art festivals
• write a few fiction pieces

• nice eyebrows
• nice big hands
• soft skin
• full lips
• blue or hazel eyes
• soft nibbles
• random dirty phrases or texts
• built shoulders
• big penis
• manscaping

• I am always a drama queen.
• I easily get jealous and am very possessive.
• I don't hesitate to use emotional blackmail.
• I am always a "martyr".
• I'm far too lazy.
• I have the constant need for reassurance.
• I am horrible with money and go into debt to buy items I think will make me momentarily happier.

• Board Games
  • Scrabble
  • Life
  • Mankala
  • Trivial Pursuit
  • Clue
  • Upwords
  • Cranium
• Video/Computer Games
  • Guitar Hero, all of them
  • Jet Set Radio Future
  • The Sims 2 and expansions
  • Tom Clancy's Rainbow Six
  • Halo
  • Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas

• Cross country road trip with only Lola Biggums (my toy poodle) to accompany me.
• Take a dog through a dog agility training course, and perhaps compete.
• Become a licensed trained dog trainer/behaviorist.
• Write a memoir.
• Get a beach cruiser bike.
• Open a snack shop.
• Camping at the beach
• Learn new languages (French, German, Portuguese)
• Carve mine and my husband's initials into a tree
• Chinese fire drill
• Watch the sunrise at the beach
• Spend a day being a kid
• Give free hugs out
• Do something random and illegal
• Watch a thunderstorm without freaking out and running inside

• Electroboy - Andy Behrman
• An Unquiet Mind - Kay Redfield Jamison
• Mad House - Clea Simon
• The Sociopath Next Door - Martha Stout
• One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest - Ken Kesey
• On The Road - Jack Kerouac
• Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs - Chuck Klosterman
• Speak - Laurie Halse Anderson
• Still Life With Woodpecker - Tom Robbins
• The Kite Runner - Khaled Hossein
• Spook - Mary Roach
• Dead Until Dark - Charlaine Harris
• Special Topics in Calamity Physics - Marisha Pessl
• Men and Cartoons - Johnathan Lethem
• The Yiddish Policemen's Union - Michael Chabon
• The Screwtape Letters - C.S. Lewis
• Breakfast of Champions - Kurt Vonnegut

• the desire for statistics/ratios/schematics in any situation that requires a bit of explanation.
• lists, everyday there's a list of what i need to do
• obsessively writing appointments and events on many calendars
• hoarding of pens and office supplies like the clerical apocalypse is coming

• cake in the oven
• biolage shampoo
• lavender
• gardenias
• baby powder
• wet earth after rainstorm
• men's cologne
• the salty air at the beach
• the wet grass after a heavy rain
• my poodle after she gets groomed
• babies' heads
• fresh laundry
• new car smell

• i try my hardest to hold up my end of a bargain and promises.
• eager/quick to learn
• passionate
• good listener
• good baker
• intelligent/conversationalist
• pretty/nice hair that always smells good
• can usually feign interest in your hobbies so that you have someone to talk about, but then after awhile, I will actually grow an interest and can share in this with you.
• caring
• witty/great sense of humour
• imaginative/creative
• intellectually curious/open to new things
• open minded

• John Waters
• Betty White
• Kathy Griffin
• Ellen DeGeneres
• Anthony Bourdain
• Seth Rogen
• Jason Segel
• Neil Patrick Harris
• Harold AND Kumar

• "Bastards of Young" The Replacements
• "Blister In The Sun" Violent Femmes
• "Fitz and Dizzyspells" Andrew Bird
• "Blitzkreig Bop" The Ramones
• "Folsom Prison Blues" Johnny Cash
• "I've Been Everywhere" Johnny Cash
• "Major Tom (Coming Home)" Shiny Toy Guns

• Alexander Skarsgard
• Jason Statham
• Adrien Brody
• Justin Timberlake
• Robert Pattinson
• Jim Sturgess
• Andrew Lincoln (Rick on The Walking Dead)

• "Love is a Mix Tape: Life and Loss One Song at a Time" by Rob Sheffield 3/30/11
• "Electroboy" by Andy Behrman 4/2/11
• "Spook: Science Tackles The Afterlife" by Mary Roach 11/7/11

• idiosyncratic
• apocrypha
• trepanation
• quixotic
• ambivalent
• conflagration
• proclivity
• panacea
• vehemently
• ignominy
• vagaries
• semblance
• reticent

• spend more time outside
• start a garden in fl
• lose ten pounds
• buy new jeans
• get new bras!
• take vitamins daily
• walk dogs daily

• nachos
• bratwurst
• shrimp
• anything my mom cooks
• bacon cheeseburgers
• onion rings
• greek salads
• manicotti
• chicken parmesan
• white chocolate raspberry cheesecake
• steak
• potatoes, cook in just about any way

• lola gets sad too.
• strength is like confidence. if you fake it long enough, you'll soon develop it.
• if you get sad, the terrorists win.
• because no one is going to comfort you.
• you get nothing accomplished.
• the sadder you let yourself get, the deeper in the hole you fall.
• you are responsible for your own happiness, and you are also responsible for the way you react to negative moments.

In no particular order, mind you...

• Elizabeth Mitchell (Juliet on Lost)
• Zooey Deschanel
• Jenna Fischer (Pam on The Office)
• Brittany Snow
• January Jones
• Naya Rivera (Santana on Glee)
• Heather Morris (Brittany on Glee)