- 2/1 - Yesterday was the end of the first month of this semester. Now I just need to make it through the next 4 months...and then the next 3 years.
- 2/3 - I start so many things but never finish them. I have notebooks filled with unfinished stories and I don't know what to do with them.
- 2/6 - College is the biggest scam ever. Why do I have to spend so much money on books that I only use for one semester?
- 2/8 - Why am I still in college if I hate it so much? I don't know, I guess it's because I can't think of anything else I would do if I wasn't in school.
- 2/14 - It was valentine's day today?
- 2/15 - Baked a cake with Paul and Mare for Aurea's birthday even though she's all the way in Merced. Lately I feel happiest when I'm with Paulina and Mary.
- 2/16 - Went to the Chinese New Year Festival in downtown with paul and mare. Came home and got drunk with Jen & Kali. I had fun but I still miss when it was just Pam and Jen and me.
- 2/20 -Birthday today. Only felt a little sorry for myself when most of my friends forgot my birthday. I felt better after we went to dinner and ate really good cake. :]
- 2/22 - had a nice Anna & Paulina day. We went to my house and played soulcaliber, got my ass totally handed to me. Later I went to Pam's house and tried salvia for the first time. It was pretty trippy.
- 2/23 - Studied for our Mythology midterm with Pam. Then we went to my house and Paulina and Mary came over with birthday cookies for me and we watched Arthur and Ponyo. Pam got super drunk (I wish Mary and Paulina liked to drink then we could have all gotten drunk together). It was good times.
- 2/25 - Fuuuuuck Mythology. That test was so hard D:
- 2/28 - Last day of February. Had a pretty unspectacular week. I still really hate my communications class.
- 3/1 - Tired of seeing my mom so sad. It's been a really tough few years. Wish I could fix all our financial problems.
- 3/2 - Went to the Museum of Contemporary Art with Pam, Paulina, and Mary today. It was pretty great, especially the Chuck Close painting. Still wish I could have been stoned like Pam though. What an experience that would have been.
- 3/5 - It's amazing how often I still think of him on a daily basis. And by amazing I mean totally pathetic.
- 3/8 - I hate the feeling of being in a room full of people you don't know and having nothing to talk about.
- 3/9 - I feel like things are awkward between me and Pam now that she knows I still talk to Jen. But maybe I'm just imagining it.
- 3/10 - Came up with a great idea for a screenplay while I was in the shower today. I wonder if it was just a product of sleep deprivation or some kind of epiphany. Or maybe it was just all the positive ions. who knows, but I think I'm gonna start working on this idea over the summer (although, knowing me I won't finish it).
- 3/12 - Today Pam texted me that she didn't want to hang out with me anymore. I was super depressed and almost cried but I told her I would be there for her if she ever needed me. Hopefully things will work out in the end.
- 3/13 - Everything that's happening in my life right now is stressing me out. I can't take it. Everything from my home life to school and now my friends...I just can't handle it. I'm going to get drunk by myself and go to sleep early tonight.
- 3/20 - Why is he always trying to get back into my life? Doesn't he realize that every time I'm with him I feel like shit?
- 3/21 - So I guess Pam is okay with me being friends with Jen. Alright then.
- 3/27 - Hopelessly busy this week. Went to see Luis' new house and hung out with him , paul, and mare. It was a good day but I was so anxious because I had a shit ton of work to do for school(on a side note: I need to learn not to spread myself so thin).
- 3/29 - I feel like these "note" thingies are just becoming a list of mundane activities I've engaged in. Anyway, here's another mundane activity: I hung out with Aurea, Paulina, and Mary today. It kind of felt like we were back in high school again. Good times; I missed this.
- 4/1 - Paulina and Mary came over to my house today and we watched old Pokemon movies. Good Times. (on a side note: I've been thinking of making a biopic about MCR, Sort of like "I'm Not There". Not now obviously. But in the future. I think it could be good)
- 4/6 - I went on a 7 mile hike today with Paulina and Mary. Now I'm incredibly sore to the point where I can't even stand up. Fuck nature, man. Fuck exercise.
- 4/7 - went to Mike's birthday party last night. It was pretty fucking great. :D At one point I must have stumbled and hit myself because I woke up with a bruise on my lip.
- 4/9 - Man, I forgot how much I love Winona Ryder circa 1988. She is my fucking idol.
- 4/10 - Why is he texting me? Hasn't he learned anything?
- 4/13 - I feel like I might be failing 3 of my classes...and I'm having a panic attack.
- 4/22 - the last few weeks have been so stressful. I've had so many assignments due. I think I've caught a glimpse of what college is going to be like for the next 3 years. Knowing my tendency toward panic attacks and nervous breakdowns, this doesn't seem like something I can handle
- 4/24 - I haven't seen any of my friends in 2 weeks. I haven't even seen Paulina and Mary. This worries me, especially since I haven't heard from Pam since Mike's party.
- 4/27 - Yesterday I finally saw my friends. They came over to my house and we saw this cute little french cartoon. I even got a text from Jen. Still haven't heard anything from Pam though, which is really strange.
- 4/30 - So stressed out. I cannot wait until school is over.
- 5/1 - School ends in one week. yay! :] now I just have to finish all these assignments before monday...
- 5/3 - finally heard from Pam after three weeks. We went to the hookah lounge with trevor, gabe, and christian. First time I haven't felt sad in a long time.
- 5/4 - guilt and alcohol: not a good combination
- 5/10 - 13th floor elevator's first album is so amazing
- 5/16 - School is over! whooo! summer!
- 5/20 -I'm so bored already -_-
- 5/22 - I'm thinking about volunteering at the library so I can get hired in the fall when they start taking apps for my school library. Let's hope that works out
- 5/30 - So does everyone who goes away for college come back as a self-absorbed bore?
- 5/31 - Whatever, I like my nice consistent friends.
- 6/2 - Listening to Moondog, it's so beautiful. And that album cover is so badass. Quick, someone put this on a soundtrack!
- 6/10 - whoa, what's with this new layout?
- 6/16 - All I wanna do is play gamecube, but I can't find any games! D:
- 6/19 - I haven't heard from Pam in over a month. I don't know if it's just me, but I tend to worry about my friends, even if their is nothing to worry about. I don't know, I just worry about everyone. Is that weird?
- 6/21 - Went to see Monsters University with Paulina and Mary yesterday. It was great. I liked watching how excited Mary got. I really hope she gets to work at Pixar because she's so passionate about it and she's so talented.
- 6/23 - Paulina wants me to come up with something to do for friday. I'm completely at a loss.
- 6/24 - I keep ducking Pam. Not because I don't want to see her, I just don't want to leave my house.
- 6/27 - What the fuck guys?! Can we just have one day without drama?
- 6/29 - Today went better than expected, although Pam and Jen didn't really talk directly to each other. But nobody was calling each other liars so I'm pretty pleased (on a side note: Oz the great and powerful was pretty awful, sorry to say)
- 7/2 - Clockwork Princess is trying to destroy my life.
- 7/3 - All you can do is apologize. The rest is up to them.
- 7/4 - I feel so much better today.
- 7/6 - I wish I lived in a novel.
- 7/8 - Jean Cocteau had beautiful hands.
- 7/9 - Why am I so emotional lately?
- 7/10 - good food + good friends = good times.
- 7/11 - Despite everything else, hanging out last night was fun. I think I needed a night out more than Pam.
- 7/12 - Everyday is a struggle against my inner recluse
- 7/13 - I always end up reading books that aren't on my summer reading list. Grrr...I'm so behind D:
- 7/14 - Crying in public because JEM CARSTAIRS
- 7/15 - I don't think I've ever woken up and felt like I got enough sleep.
- 7/16 - I love the bittersweet moment when you've finished reading a good book and are happy with how the story ended but also sad because it's over.
- 7/18 - What's the point of going to college if I can't get a job?
- 7/19 - Never drunk enough
- 7/20 - Can I just say that I have a massive crush on Jake Bugg? Like, seriously, what a fox.
- 7/24 - Went to a party in Logan. Not a great idea.
- 7/25 - I just want to be alone sometimes. Is that so wrong?
- 7/27 - Riding bikes and singing Bicycle Race
- 7/28 - I hope I have a job by October so I can see Jake Bugg at the House of Blues
- 7/30 - SLC Punk is a work of art.
- 8/1 - I feel really run-down today. I think I might be getting sick. :(
- 8/2 - Lighting things on fire is always fun.
- 8/3 - So much conflict in my life right now. I wish things could just go back to normal.
- 8/4 - I don't believe in maternal instinct.
- 8/5 - There are some people from my past that I would prefer never to see again just because they are privy to my craziness
- 8/6 -Ugh, planning things makes me so stressed out
- 8/7-I'm definitely having an Esther Greenwood kind of day
- 8/10 - In later years, I'll look back and remember my late teens as a period of drunken escapades and awkward sexual encounters. On a side note: Never getting drunk again
- 8/11- Wow, that was not a good idea.
- 8/12 - I'm sooo tired today. D:
- 8/13 - fuck. I'm never giving advice again.
- 8/15 - why the fuck did I agree to this?!
- 8/16 - The Last of Us is soooo good.
- 8/17 - Has anyone else noticed how Cillian Murphy looks just like a young Pierre Clementi?
- 8/18 - getting drunk and playing Animal Crossing (remember when I said I would never get drunk again?)
- 8/19 - ugh, I'm not ready to go back to school
- 8/22 - I'm a "good friend", apparently. I'm not entirely sure how true that is.
- 8/23 - I need to figure out what I'm doing with my life
- 8/26 - So far I don't like my Italian teacher at all. It's times like these I actually miss high school; Mr. Rossi was the best Italian teacher ever.
- 8/28 - My History professor is tumblr personified. She made two jokes about Loki and Doctor Who all in the same lecture.
- 8/29 - I don't think things will ever be the same.
- 8/30 - I should never be allowed to drink in public. -_-
- 9/2 - ughhhhhh I just want to see the Mortal Instruments. Can some one go with me, please? D:
- 9/3 - wow my textbooks don't arrive until Friday and I have a project due Thursday brb having a panic attack
- 9/5 - why can't I stop thinking? I feel like I'm going crazy
- 9/7 - I missed hanging out with everybody
- 9/14 - I think I'm becoming an insomniac
- 9/16 - My goal in life is to become an alcoholic writer. I've already got one part down pat.
- 9/19 - Talked to a really cute boy at the library today. Managed to be super awkward as per usual -_-
- 9/23 - Not quite happy, but close enough.
- 9/27 - God, I'm a shitty person
- 9/28 - How is anybody supposed to get anything done in a world where Netflix exists?
- 9/29 - So much to do and not enough time.
- 10/2 - Stressed, depressed, and looking like I just rolled out of bed.
- 10/7 - STOP thinking about him. Seriously, stop.
- 10/8 - Getting hit on by random dudes on the trolley is sketchy but still kind of flattering.
- 10/9 - My shirt has skull-shaped elbow patches. I look like a goth Paul Simon.
- 10/11 - I'm surrounded by awesome people
- 10/12 - I get really excited about fonts
- 10/14 - It'll be a miracle if I actually pass any of my classes.
- 10/15 - I just want this week to be over already -_-
- 10/18 - I just want this year to be over already
- 10/19 - How well do we let ourselves know each other?
- 10/24 - Jake Bugg is a stone cold fox. I wish I had gotten to see him in concert :\
- 10/25 - I love being alone
- 10/31 - Good Halloween. Spent the whole night out.
- 11/1 - I don't feel like hanging out anymore. I just want to be alone.
- 11/2 - I miss my car so much I could cry.
- 4 - gotta hair cut finally BD
- 11/6 - SYDNEY FUCKING CARTON
- 11/11 - I wish I had someone to cry with me about directors.
- 11/15 - turns out I can't bake for shit
- 11/16 - I just want to get drunk and watch American Horror Story.
- 11/21 - wow thanks for wasting my time
- 11/22 - Museum with Mare & Paul :]
- 11/26 - blehh so much work to do -_-
- 12/2 - Two more weeks, dammit D:
- 12/3 - Sick :(
- 12/7 - being sick is the perfect excuse to stay home and play hermit with my sketch book.
- 12/8 - Someone needs to teach me how to play Dungeons and Dragons D:
- 12/11 - Just gotta make it through this week
- 12/13 - Christmas is just an excuse to fool around with photoshop and put santa claus hats on tom hiddleston
- 12/15 - seeing as how my plans for the night fell through, looks like I'm getting drunk alone and watching Twin Peaks
- 12/16 - blehhhh I don't care anymore
- 12/28 - I like being on vacation but ten days is too long to be away from home
- 12/29 - smoked with Pam yesterday. We were going to hang out with Mike but I totally bailed and now I feel bad. Oh well.
- 12/30 - never going to agree to take care of someone else's pets ever again
- 12/31 - This year has been a whirl of drunkenness, depravity, and oddly enough, Pixar films
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