- january 1st; i started 2021 choking on the grapes and i think i actually only ate like 7 out of the 12 so yeah me being the clown that i am. no but i actually had such a good start cause i was surrounded by my close family and i wore such a pretty dress. also!! i shared a selfie of my outfit on twitter and my mutuals told me i looked pretty so that really eased my anxiety. anyways let's hope this one is better than the last one.
- january 25th; after a month since i ordered it my copy of evermore has arrived and i'm so so happy. i FINALLY have all of taylor's albums on my bookshelf (which now has a row only for music) and i'm so glad i got them all after waiting for years. yup karl marx would be disappointed that capitalism got to me but as jungkook once said i don't give 2 f*cks :)
- february 22nd; today i went back to uni after only having gone only the first week of october. i was really anxious like a lot but at the end (as it usually happens) i worried for nothing cause i actually ended having quite some fun.
- march 22nd; so i've been like really depressed the past few days, like "i might go back to hurting myself and i don't want to wake up" kinda depressed. today i got really bad period cramps before an exam, but i finished it and it went pretty well. later i had some leftover carrot cake + coffee while listening to some calm korean songs and that put me in a much better mood for my last class of the day. since these are not good memories i wanted to write down that it has gotten a little better so i remind myself that as taylor said "this pain wouldn't be for evermore". fingers crossed i don't have another breakdown by the end of the week (p.s. it's monday)
- march 23rd; i've completely disappeared from social media for 2 days and a half now and absolutely no one has noticed. i even deactivated my twitter account where i was most active and i feel even more like shit cause nobody misses me. that makes me realise that my thoughts about being irrelevant and making no impact at all in anyone's lives are in fact true.
- march 24th; SO I'M HAPPY ONCE AGAIN THANKS TO TAYLOR SWIFT!! she announced today that she's releasing you all over me (from the vault) on friday 26th i'm so frickin excited. ALSO can you believe it's been 15 YEARS of hannah montana like wtf?! what am i a dinosaur??
- may 22nd; i finally got the 2 new tattoos i wanted!! a butterfly on my inner arm and the tangled sun on my ankle. my arm hurt so bad after it that i was able to swallow a pill for the first time in forever just to make the pain go away
- june 4th; i went out with a friend from uni to celebrate that we finished our 1st year of nursing school with good grades and we went to have lunch to a japanese restaurant, everything was amazing. later we went for a walk around la sagrada familia and then we went to a kpop store and i bought mots persona, i pulled jin and yoongi!!
- july 11th; after years of waiting i finally went to see my first ballet!! it was the ballet from moscow and they did swan lake, which i absolutely loved it was so beautiful and elegant.
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