what i loved by myself to myself. untainted pieces of my soul, etc.

⸻⠀ themes

• forests, woods, grass.
• dragons & owls. horses & wolves. tytos.
• flight imagery, in general.
• the yellowstone national park.
• flannels.
• ice, pine, & mint fragrances.
• the occasional white, red, & black.
• chocomint & flake ice cream.
• the arts (except sculpting).
• carl jung & the unconscious.
• precognition through dreams, time-manipulation to an extent.
• any blood that comes from the mouth.
• complimenting demon's names during religious class.
• angel choirs.
• storytelling the bible (i should write something about that tbh, ppl always stop to listen to me when i telltale about the angels).
• green day & the american idiot musical.
• wolf's rain, noragami, owari no seraph, soul eater, tnkk, blue exorcist, & of course, gurren-lagann, my beloved.

⸻⠀ forgotten on childhood

• natural leader.
• the worst kind of pictures were the posed ones.
• i was more observant; thought before speaking.
• i was smart, cunning, intelligent, charming, an opportunist, & aware of my personal skills.
• competitive, above-average.
• wasn't ashamed to fail.

⸻⠀ music, cadence, lyrics

• basket case.
• city of tears.
• all these things that i've done.
• bury the light.
• walk.
• legendary.
• beware.

⸻⠀ sins

• hurting my hands, fingers, & mouth on purpose.
• fear of trying / fear of making a fool of myself.
• useless or harmful, excessive identification.
• being too cold n rational while also being too emotionally deregulated n sensitive.
• letting ppl touch me unprompted without consent.
• believing i'm incapable & worthless.
• punishing myself w sleep & food deprivation.
• being violent to my younger self & spoiling my adult self.

⸻⠀ beautiful things my wife brought into my life

• basic sense of morality, kindness & ethical principles.
• madoka magica, houseki no kuni.
• allowing my real self to bloom unapologetically since the first day.
• softness. she was the first person in the world that made me bow my head. the first to love me.