i love you so much, i’m sorry

• I learned how to say I love you so much and I'm sorry in the same breath / I never learned how to deal with my emotions I just learned how to ask for forgiveness / They say if you use the first person pronouns too much you might be depressed / Me and myself and I and my body say maybe you might be correct / But when I get high / I'm as high as the moon
• I apologize and I don't know why I say / I love you i'm sorry I love you so much i'm sorry about it
• You said remember when we were so happy / I said I thought that we still were / I guess shouldn't think so much / You said how can I change what's already made up it's mind / I said god damn it I'm so out of touch.
• And I can't twist your arms around your back and tell you to take me as I am, as I am / And I can't twist myself around the truth and say that I'm not shaking cause I am, yes I am.
• And I've grown up, watching lovers fading and making mistakes / I couldn't fix them so i just watched them suffer and I watched them break.

lace

• She is the one with the vodka colored smile / Raspberries dripping from her lips / Sapphires and rubies between her hips / She never cared the for lovers of old / She never cared for diamonds or gold
• She admires the cage that keeps her from the edge / On the train at 2 AM while the others dangle their feet off the yellow ledge
• She was too scared of the fall / She was too scared of it all
• It won't be long 'til she's walking into the pool / In her white dress and her satin shoes / Yelling, "This is the life that I happen to be living / But it ain't what I choose"
• She is the one with the flowers in her eyes / Her silk billowing over the river / All you can do is stand there and shiver
• Tying lace around her neck like the chains around her thighs / There's mace behind her back and there's blood behind her eyes / Telling me about all the things that I could never be / When all I wanted was to be a little bit free

wildflower

• Something down the road didn't happen yet Something you'd forget / Like that night in the shower / You got that tattoo on your lower back / You said you'd regret In a month or an hour
• Don't speak too soon / You might lose your breath or your fear of death / Or the way you went to your mother's house / After you ran out on me while I was in the shower
• And I'm stuck here still / Like a wildflower on the side of the highway / Your fingers grip the wheel / As you're pulling out your parents' driveway / You're staring down the road / Burying your heart in the ashtray / And you think it's gonna grow / Like a wildflower on the side of the highway
• You got stopped by the cops putting lipstick on / For your junior prom / You looked so pretty he let you off / You always said that he creeped you out / And it let you down / And it made you think less of the law / You can sleep on the floor cause you're scared of heights / And you're scared you might turn into your mother / I'll sleep in the rain under your headlights / On a school night, I'll be outside your front door

muscle memory

• Clenching your fists on a wheel / Saying it's fine, hold my hand, say you're minw / Reflexes kick in, my ex lover's words from your mouth / Baby, I'm okay / We're okay
• The song that plays on as the Titanic sinks / The look in your eye when you're lost in your drink / The anchors ain't sinking, we're drifting to sea / When saying "I love you" becomes muscle memory / Muscle memory
• The feeling you get when it hurts just to be / Letting the ocean just push and pull me / The anchors ain't sinking, we're drifting to sea
• I can keep saying it's fine / But it won't break the tide / And it won't make you mine / I could keep lying to you, but we both know it's true / That all that we do is muscle memory

bloody money

• Hold on to your resolve / And your leather book of lies you tell yourself to sleep at night / I hope you choke on the smoke and the smog / From your white lies and your pipelines / You move mountains, but you're no God
• It's a vicious cycle, it's a cheap suit wearing Sisyphus / You pushed the boulder up the hill and you don't care who it kills
• Because of all that bloody money / Yeah, you sell your soul and say it's us who need redemption / Ain't it funny, look at all that bloody money, money, money, money
• Sweat and simmer and seethe / You rеpeat the words you play the part / You watch thе bullet hit the heart / Sit and heel and take what you receive / We're just puppets in the darkest little comedy you'd ever see / And it's funny, and it's tragic / It's disgusting, somehow beautiful / And you can't look away, no / It's spineless you can't ever say
• Snorting lines with teenage tears / Watch them lose their golden years / And you call me the one that's blind / But we both see the bodies left behind

pyre

• I am a child of god my fingers move the earth and yet / I cannot scrub the dirt beneath my nails / I beg forgiveness for the sins not yet committed / I am guilty for the crime of wanting
• Still I reach for something higher / Something purer than desire / My materials in pyre / It's the purest lick of fire
• Oh Gloria you know the way my spirit writhes / You know the monsters in my mind / And how they rip right through the wanting
• And how my chest collapses / And how the rhythm of my heart in rapture / Palpitates beyond, it's haunting
• You come to me in silence / You come when I am rioting / My body bloody bare and beating on your door / It is a martyrdom the kingdom that will never come / The pleasure of the flesh collapsed to dust under my tongue

relatively good

• When you find out that all your heroes are hypocrites / And the grownups you looked up to are full of shit / Will it break you / Or will it make you an atheist?
• When the people you held up let you down / And there's blood on the inside of their crowns / Will it take you a while to tear down their crucifix
• It's gonna be me / Sleeping sound as a baby / Cuz' I didn't sell my soul for a spot on TV / I can wash my feet / And say I've done all I could / I was relatively good
• When the celebrities plug their diet pills / Will you watch as they shove down more than their fill / Will it sting or / Will it bring you consolation
• When the YouTubers broadcast apologies / When the predators push their mythologies / Will it push you to find a new revelation