• Jeff tells me, "It's not the drugs / It's Monday morning, and you can't get up / When your degree is staring daggers from the wall / Somewhere sunk inside your heart, there is a teensy-tiny part of you that sure could use some coffee"
• It's so hot by noon, I just get queasy / It's so hot by two, I stay inside / I try to put down a cup of coffee / He asks how much I'm drinking, and I lie / But doctors are always trying to tell you / Some torturous way to live your life / It's not like they know everything ever / Hey, man, I went to college, too, ooh, ooh
• Four hours in the Target parking lot / Contemplating mental brands still burning hot / I hope that one day the weight of my body in these seats will / Feel just right / But for now, the AC's always too cold / And the heat in winter melts the skin off of my bones / And I've started to ignore the check engine light / In hopes that a breakdown might give me a sign, oh
• But all of the kids I met on campus / Are settled down beside the sea / Some days, I wish that I could be that / Sometimes, I forget to spit out the seeds / I'll make it through this if it kills me / Then, when it kills me, I'll come back / Jesus will make me a disciple / Or maybe he'll let me be your cat
• Still doing all I can to understand / One more erotic nightmare about you
• She leads me into the café / Her intention is exact / It is 104 degrees / She takes her coffee hot and black / And at once / I am entranced
• I was practicing my swimming when the drugs went to kick in
• I'm so sorry to hear that you're going / But you'll be happier now that you're glowing / You'll be glowing / Yeah you're glowing
• So when I'm over at your house / I would pick through my looming doubts / Because I guess I just wanted us together one last time before I / Go lay down / I don't want to save you from anyone but yourself
• Run from the past as it explodes / You are a mirror image / Of a god you'll never know / Who created hell / To show you how to be alone
• Break the heart of the one you love / To serve the one you fear / So used to self-abuse by now / Because the end is always near
• I might just want you until you're dead / Till your blood's on the carpet, I've seen inside your chest / At least till you tell me you love me best / I'm bored easily and you'll meet somebody else
• A part of you hates me

We have that in common

• So I'm sorry I wasted your time / And I'm sorry I slept in your bed / Did you hate to wake up to my sweaters / Is that why you keep kissing my friends and again / Did I do something to make you hate me / Or did you get there all alone / I said once that we should get married / You said you'd rather die on your own
• Touch me / I'm asking / Not for much / Touch me / I'm asking / I know / I'm young / You could have it / You, you, could have it / I know / I'm young
• Who do you take me for / Who do you take me for / I wish, I wish / Change me, make me, shift my shape to yours
• Can you take it away / Hide me from the truth / I can see in your face / I am nothing to you
• Every time a guy writes a song, he's a sailor, a cowboy / Holding out the world in his palm like he made it himself / Every time I open my mouth, I think, "Wow, what a loud noise" / Still on the soapbox, just hoping I seem underwhelmed
• This isn't rage, it's worth a mention : This is a fake internal tension / Sometimes, I spread out one opinion / And stand on its back to gauge attention
• This isn't rage, it's too specific / I like to hate symbolic limits / This is no statement, I'm complicit / This is a dream, God put me in it
• A hand, a spike, a physical fight / The wind around the willow / A toll, a tithe, the passage of time / The melting down the window / The now, the then, the thinking of "when" / The siren in the water / A strike, a pause, a message from God / Does that make me His daughter?
• You got your game, made your shot / And you got away with a lot / But I'm not turned on
• 'Cause I do know what's good for me / And I've done what I could for you / But you're not benefiting / And yet I'm sitting, singing again
• How many times can it escalate / 'Til it elevates to a place I can't breathe?

And I must decide, if you must deride / That I'm much obliged to up and go / I'll idealize and realize that it's no sacrifice / Because the price is paid / And there's nothing left to grieve

• Hey Carrie, / Do you miss me? / Do you ever think of all the things we did? / And when you get drunk, / do you come home

and expect to find me sleeping in your bed? / 'Cause I do, all the time. / And when you meet guys, / Do you wonder why / they never really seem to make you laugh?

• I wrote it down so I would not forget / The words that you used, / When you broke the news / So I can sing them whenever I start to miss you
• I keep expecting the moon and the planets to burn, / The sky to explode and the world to just freeze where it turns

But nothing changes, / The world keeps on spinning / The planets are fine and the moon is still grinning / Laughing at me and the wishes I wasted on you / I keep expecting my mind to just snap from its hold, / My body to wither, / My heart to lie silent and cold / It never happens but I'll keep on hoping / When I am gone you'll be sorry, I know it / I keep expecting a letter or something from you

• I've been a bad, bad girl / I've been careless with a delicate man / And it's a sad, sad world / When a girl will break a boy just because she can
• Don't you tell me to deny it / I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
• Heaven help me for the way I am / Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done / I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand / But I keep living this day like the next will never come
• I'm sorry, but you story isn't adding up / Think your religion is a lie to keep my mouth shut / So I won't testify to crimes you're keeping score of / Why don't you throw me to the wolves I thought you were one?
• You were standing there like an angry god / Counting out my sins just to cross them off / Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust / And that my blood couldn't keep you
• Your revelations don't look nothing like the pictures / You read between the lines and don't stick to the scriptures / You only follow rules if other follow with you / That doesn't sound too holy, only playing victim
• I know it's over, still, I cling on / 'Cause I'm my own right-hand girl / And I don't need anyone / But sometimes, I miss your stupid face / And your taste, and your smoking gun
• It's so depressing how the tear ducts in my eyes / They're so much wetter than the space between my thighs / Oh-oh-oh, I can't help if thinking about it only makes me cry / It keeps me wet, you know you keep me wet / 'Til I run dry
• _It's nights like this that remind me of my deepest fantasy / Where I'm all alone and I feel the cold, dark earth caressing me / 'Cause I'm six feet under nearly, and I don't have anyone / But this wouldn't be the first or last time that

Both my tears and I have come_

• My blood runs cold, my thoughts are plasmic / From not letting go / And letting go could be orgasmic / But I guess I wouldn't know, ooh
• I don't wanna cry in your t-shirt ever again / When my anger was a compliment / Like how your brain works / Magical thinkers trying to be friends
• Try to wait the night out

Try to keep the light out / Only the moon left to out smart / We cannot run our way out of the dark

• I've got agency, but imagine me / Lying naked in your lap / Before a gathering of screaming fans / I'm your guitar / Mute me gently with the palm of your hand / So self-conscious / Awareness, just a catalyst / I'm scared / I close my eyes and picture this / Summer corn and a tea tree toothpick / A new song that makes you wanna make music
• With more faith in God, I would tell you that this was the rapture / And we've been left behind / Oh, why are we so young with tired, sunken, baggy eyes?
• So I'll give myself a name, something stupid and pretentious / Like Mawce spelled with a C / And I'll hope all the cool kids who graduated / But stay judgmental will finally accept me
• Milkshakes and cat eyes / Lipstick and french fries / Internalize so much but so little / Don't make us feel belittled, world / Teenage girl, doo-doo-doo-doo!
• Sneaking cigarettes at lunchtime / Sun feels safe and sublime / Pink sparkly sunglasses / Lemonade by the pool
• Watching TV tired, bleeding on the bed / The milk has just expired, all the leaves are dead / I'm not quiet, you've been quiet, just receiving what you said / Reeling, feeding, feeling, filled by everything you fed / I see you as you see yourself through all the books you read / Overwhelmed with guilt and realizing the disease
• I see you there, rejecting all your earthly power / Protecting and dissecting 'til you've emptied every hour / We jumped into the pond and then come under the shower / You lay upon my pillow and you open like a flower / I wanted to see you naked, I wanted to hear you scream / Wanted to kiss your skin and your everything
• I wanted to be your woman, I wanted to be your man / I wanted to be the one that you could understand
• Well, I walked into your dagger for the last time / It's like trying to start a fire with matches in the snow / Where you can't seem to hold me, can't seem to let me go / So I can't find surrender and I can't keep control / You turn me inside out, and then you want me outside in / You spin me all around, and then you ask me not to spin.
• I wish I never learned to put myself down / The kids you knew in high school / Aren't their best selves now / I'm eating cookies overnight / I'm sending texts only at night / And all you talk to is yourself now
• Can't return a call, skipping every breakfast / He tried to be a writer but instead he only fact-checks / Out of shape and uninspired / You force down salad and you just feel tired / And wake up every day and spend it from the get-go / Chewing on your thumb and staring out the window / You could really go, no one's gonna stop you
• Sitting with your pockets full of fists / And you're staring at your wrists and your scissors and you're shaking so bad / You don't have a car, but you don't have to take this / So pack yourself a pair of socks and get inside a spaceship
• But then you get that feeling, like a train-track killing / Like an old-time villain in a silent movie / Crying like a kid, squealing like a sex tape / Shrieking like a Beatle fan and kicking like a sensei / Sitting with your pockets full of fists and you're staring at your wrists

And your shoulders, and they're aching so bad / Now they're cutting care, now they're talking pay cut / No one better dare ask you how your day was

• I'll bide my time and pay my rent till something knocks me to my senses / When I've had enough of dying in the day shift / I'll pack myself a pair of socks and get inside a spaceship
• Bet you rue the day you kissed a writer in the dark / Now she's gonna play and sing and lock you in her heart
• I am my mother's child, I'll love you 'til my breathing stops / I'll love you 'til you call the cops on me / But in our darkest hours, I stumbled on a secret power / I'll find a way to be without you, babe
• I still feel you, now and then / Slow like pseudo-ephedrine / When you see me, will you say I've changed? / I ride the subway, read the signs

I let the seasons change my mind / I love it here since I've stopped needing you

• Coin operated boy, sitting on the shelf / He is just a toy but I turn him on and he comes to life / Automatic joy that is why I want / A coin operated boy / Made of plastic and elastic / He is rugged and long lasting / Who could ever ever ask for more? / Love without complications galore / Many shapes and weights to chose from / I will never leave my bedroom / I will never cry at night again / Wrap my arms around him and pretend
• This bridge was written to make you feel smitten / And with my sad picture of girl getting bitterer / Oh, can you extract me from my plastic fantasy / I didn't think so but I'm still convincible / Oh will you persist even after I bet you a million dollars / That I'll never love you and will you persist even after I kiss you
• And if I had a star to wish on for my life / I can't imagine any flesh and blood could be this match / I can even take him in the bath / Coin operated boy, he may not be real experienced with girls / But I know, he feels like a boy should feel, isn't that the point / That is why I want a coin operated boy / With a pretty coin operated voice saying / That he loves me, that he's thinking of me / Straight and to the point that is why / I want a coin operated boy