flashlight

• Please fall asleep so I can take pictures of you and hang them in my room / So when I wake up feel like, "Yeah. Everything's alright."
• You are still here, you are still happy / You are still smiling and laughing / You are still the only thing and everything I need in my life
• And it goes in in out through the mouth / Breathing exercises / I will never figure out / 'Til I am running in circles / Or (I am) walking in circles / Or (I am) crawling in circles / Or lying on the ground
• And I can hear your dog whistle from my bedroom / Yeah yeah / And I can see a flashlight cutting up the trees behind my house
• She says a lot of the kids we graduated with are now homeless / Which puts them in mad shady situations with mad shady people / If not every day then on an every other day basis
• And she's probably with a few of them right now / And they are probably just drinking and talking about / How she misses getting fucked up and hanging around
• And I can smell plastic burning / I can smell chemicals breaking down / I got your last three e-mails / The ones where you said, "I was sorting some things out"
• And I will read the flashing / Like a Morse Code explanation / That will mean nothing but take all night to figure out, out, out

maps

• There is a map in my room / On the wall of my room / And I've got big big plans. / But I can see them slipping through / Almost feel them slipping through / The palms of my sweaty hands. / And I move slow, just slow enough to make you uncomfortable.
• You say I hate you. / You mean it and I love you sounds fake / It's taken me so long to figure that out. / I used to love the taste. / I would do anything for it. / Now I would do anything to get the taste out of my mouth.
• But you were broken bad yourself / You were mad as hell you felt / If you had done anything with anyone else / It would have worked out so well.
• But you are an artist / And your mind don't work the way you want it to. / One day you'll be washing yourself with hand soap in a public bathroom. / And you'll be thinking, "How did I get here?

Where the hell am I?" / If the roles were reversed / You could have seen me sneaking up, sneaking up from behind.

• She sees these visions, she feels emotion. / She says that I cannot go / She sees my plane in the ocean. / And what about your friends.

Don't you love them enough to stay? / And I say if I don't leave now then I will never get away. / Let me be a blue raft on a blue sea I'll blend right in.

looking like you just woke up

• I love to wait. I love girls with ex boyfriends, that they / Aren't really over / And I love New Mexico, I love places I've never been / I love the idea of places I'll never go
• So I'm swinging like a fist fight concrete colored basement / Alright, alright lets keep this clean, as clean as you'd like / And it probably won't get easier, just easier to hide / Prepare for an aching the rest of your life
• I'm playing dead. I faked my death and I'll keep pretending / If nothing else for the sake of the tradition / And I am confident / Even if it makes no sense. I will say I love you back / To the love that I am given

mountain

• I am climbing up this mountain so I can ride my skateboard right back down it. / But first I am digging myself out of this hole. / I love your eyes, the way they look when you're uncomfortable.
• The door sounded when she shut it. / As if she didn't really have to leave. / She just needed a separator. / She needed something in between.
• I bought fireworks, a big bag in Pennsylvania / I'm gonna light 'em up when I get home to Jersey. / They'll probably arrest me. It'll probably ruin my whole summer.

rhode island

• I wonder how that bike trip's going / I wonder if the government knows he’s hiding / It’d probably take a few more months / Florida’s a long way from Rhode Island
• I watch her rest her hands inside her lap / I try to focus hard cause her eyes don’t make the frame / I try to work up the courage to kiss the bottom half of her face / And Mora cut her hair in Baltimore right before I left / I watch her sitting by herself, talking to herself, / Breathing calmly, then try to catch her breath.
• Casanova just can’t turn the charm on / Or find any of the right vibrations / I know these women if he don’t wanna do it / Then they are probably just gonna make him / You can never tell when they're fucking around
• Everything you’re feeling is common / Even though you never felt so alone
• She says you gotta promise not to break / No matter how far you are bent / She says I gotta shift my position and try to get comfortable again / We both choose the same tone, / mine was an alarm clock ringing from a cell phone / Mouth the words to me so we can keep things quiet / And I’ll still know exactly what you mean. .

the beers

• There's beer in coffee mugs, water bottles and soda cups / And it's clear as the windows I came through / That you are in one of those moods and I am in one of them, too / And it's hard to communicate anything
• And I will remember that summer / As the summer I was taking steroids / Because you like a man with muscles / And I like you.
• It's the cops are coming in type of sobering up / It's a girl who never learned that I could not give a fuck / My friends are happy, I am happy, I have learned to adapt / It's a darker kind of humor and I can still hear 'em laugh
• Yeah, it's an aerial view from your house to my room / And I am looking in your windows, and I am trying not to stare / Holding on to hope I'm sure was never even there

father

im not sure i feel like doing that one just yet lawl

swimming pool

• There's comfort in the bottom of a swimming pool / I'm holding my breath for you / There's no doubt in my mind that if you could then you would try / To crack my ribcage open and pull my heart right through
• I'm the last one on the dance floor / As the chandelier gives way / And I am permanently / Preoccupied with your past / I've been around / long enough now / To know that the good things never last / They never last
• There's comfort in the silence of a living room / The TV is on for you / Hide in your basement while your house burns down / Your teeth are loose inside of your gums / They will eventually fall out
• But I'm a creature of a culture that I create / And I'm the last one on the dance floor / As the chandelier gives way / And I am permanently / Preoccupied with your past / I've been around long enough now / To know that the good things never last / They never last
• How low is your self esteem / And how low could it possibly be? / I know, I know you're in love with me / And I've been ignoring you
• I will stop cutting my pants into shorts / I will address the issues I cannot ignore / And I will do the things I think you might like / And I will be alone probably the rest of my life