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Pretty much all you need to do for this is write five things, these can be peoples names, places, emotions, a film title, song title, band, anything that sums up your day, do it each day on your Listography for a year, copy and paste this at the top of the list so people know what this list is all about. My start date: 01/01/2019 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

• January
• Jan, 01. Music, car travel, rain smells, family, home.
• Jan, 02. Music, plans, Gods Will Be Watching, Into the Barrens, lethargy.
• Jan, 03. A Series Of Unfortunate Events, The Red Strings Club, banks, doubts, "If everyone fought fire with fire, the whole world would go up in smoke".
• Jan, 04. The Red Strings Club, phone calls, anxiety, decisions, Don't Starve Together.
• Jan, 05. Don't Starve Together, anxiety, discord calls, youtube, Medicine (BMTH).
• Jan, 06. Am I a Girl? (Poppy), Don't Starve, discord calls, existential crisis, anxiety.
• Jan, 07. Painting, aquarelle, music, anxiety, Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them.
• Jan, 08. Elis, music, CallMeKevin, anxiety, Don't Starve.
• Jan, 09. Car travel, university enrollment, music, family, Elis.
• Jan, 10. Stardew Valley, ice cream stick, Lucky Strike (Troye), Elis, calls.
• Jan, 11. Shopping, chocolate + mint milkshake, The Sims 4, pizza, Elis.
• Jan, 12. Writing, MPB, Life Forge, calls, ending cycles.
• Jan, 13. Friends, drinks, music, disagreements, drama.
• Jan, 14. Music, bullet journal, ice cream stick, mom, distractions.
• Jan, 15. Sushi, sleepy, Resident Evil 2 (demo), family, bullet journal.
• Jan, 16. Car travel, music, beach, hot weather, lonely.
• Jan, 17. Beach, hot weather, açaí, 1984 (book), family.
• Jan, 18. Beach, hot weather, aquarium, pictures, new necklaces.
• Jan, 19. Beach, cloudy weather, family, lonely, thunderstorm.
• Jan, 20. Beach, hot weather, twitter, car travel, family.
• Jan, 21. Beach, hot weather, pictures, açai, family.
• Jan, 22. 1984, beach, car travel, music, home.
• Jan, 23. Bank, Carmen Sandiego, Gris (game), call, laughing with my friends.
• Jan, 24. Stationary shopping, anxiety, new ideas, planning, drawing.
• Jan, 25. Calls, packing, laughing, Resident Evil 2 (remake), feeling guilty?
• Jan, 26 to 30. No computer; don't remember shit of what happened.
• Jan, 31. Car travel, moving out, São Paulo <3, music, sister.

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• February
• Feb, 01. Family, moving out, Choque de Cultura, back home, new computer.
• Feb, 02. Random calls, Handsome Devil, Queer Eye, drawing, boredom.
• Feb, 03. The Open House, Those People, Queer Eye, brother + nephews, drawing.
• Feb, 04. Bank, being an adult, Queer Eye, Kiss Me First, cold weather.
• Feb, 05. Cold weather, lethargy, anxiety, random youtube videos, existential crisis.
• Feb, 06. First day at uni, meeting new people, expectations, new ways, new me I guess.
• Feb, 07. New class, feeling anxious, drawing poorly, Rules of Play, feeling down again yey.
• Feb, 08. Art class, silly conversations, poorly draw people, too many things in mind, Rules of Play.
• Feb, 09. Home, family, music, crying, car travel.
• Feb, 10. Buzzfeed Unsolved Supernatural, talking about ghosts, laughing, Rules of Play, laziness.
• Feb, 11. Boardgames class, too many beautiful people, feeling good, Brawlhalla, Rules of Play.
• Feb, 12. Design class, random and strange conversations, "why is the door a door and not a wall? why doesn't the car have a seat on the door?", anxiety, feeling tired.
• Feb, 13. Anxiety, looking for a job, history class, way too many questions about symbols, ice cream.
• Feb, 14. Cold weather, illustrator, bezier.method.ac, talking easily with people, feeling strange.
• Feb, 15. Drawing class, giraffes aren't real, talking about the future, went to a restaurant with my brother, feeling alone.
• Feb, 16. The Dragon Prince (season 2), The Umbrella Academy, "if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you", started to do that again, I'm losing it.
• Feb, 17. Rules of Play, Buzzfeed Unsolved Supernatural, the talk with my friends, crying, ignoring my responsibilities.
• Feb, 18. Worrying about money, The Umbrella Academy, wrote a review, wish I could die, had lunch and dinner :D
• Feb, 19. Dysphoria, really wanted to fight a homophobe, worrying too much, a nice walk with some friends, everything is so complicated.
• Feb, 20. Everything went wrong, nice talks with the new girl, trying new art styles, she is so cute, David's small mental breakdown 'cause of some updating apps.
• Feb, 21. The Codified World, kinda sick, laughter, Galinha Pintadinha, "Had to have high, high hopes for a living. Shooting for the stars when I couldn't make a killing"
• Feb, 22. Tired, unhappy, suffering to draw, rain, The Umbrella Academy.
• Feb, 23. Teen Idle (Marina), call, I made some chocolate brownie, Beholder, Gabs.
• Feb, 24. Family, casual conversations, The Good Doctor, Choque de Cultura, The Oscars.
• Feb, 25. Friends, boardgames class, project start, beautiful boy in class, I might have a crush.
• Feb, 26. Being all over the place, mildly disappointed, one more project, The Sims 4 Strangerville, once more I'm ignoring my responsibilities.
• Feb, 27. Laughing with my classmates, been sleepy all day, The Codified World, cooking in the microwave, drawing.
• Feb, 28. Rain, happy with my Illustrator work, went out to play board games, 7 Wonders and Rock n' Roll Manager, pizza.

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• March
• Mar, 01. - Angry, rain, frustrated with my drawings, traveling by bus, family.
• Mar, 02. Graduation photos, impatience, car travel, Homescapes, boredom.
• Mar, 03. Boredom, disappointment, angry with everyone, headache, Minas.
• Mar, 04. Astec Mythology, Pokemon Fire Red, Gustavo, call, communication class.
• Mar, 05. Pokemon Fire Red, Gustavo, call, drawing, The Penumbra Podcasts.
• Mar, 06. Disappointment, dysphoria, call, Pokemon Fire Red, Queer Eye.
• Mar, 07. Haircut, feeling great, finished my illustrator work for a class, the email, tired.
• Mar, 08. Drawing class, laughing with my classmates, too tired, Pokemon Fire Red, being pro on Brawhalla.
• Mar, 09. Went out with Gabs, laughing, clothes are too expensive, weary, drawing.
• Mar, 10. Don't Starve, Yoruba mythology, drawing, started writing a review, music.
• Mar, 11. Playing board games in class, winning on Honshu, Karuba, writing thAT FUCKING REVIEW, had a mental breakdown because of the review.
• Mar, 12. Sex Education, design class, My Chemical Romance, game room, This War of Mine.
• Mar, 13. Decisions, research, feeling depressed, random talks, This War of Mine.
• Mar, 14. Played The Resistance, I won two games for the spies, start learning photoshop, using a drawing tablet, exhausted.
• Mar, 15. Drawing class, we found a nice myth to base our game, still feeling depressed, finished my playthrough of This War of Mine, slept late.
• Mar, 16. I won a match in Grasse and in Azul, played Stone Age, trying not to have a crush, bought chocolate, This War of Mine.
• Mar, 17. Everything I do is screw things up, researched about Yoruba culture, "finishing" an assignment due tomorrow, played Two Point Hospital, really really really tired.
• Mar, 18. Played Uno before the class started, had a really nice class about Target Audience, trying really hard not to have a crush, conversations with a friend, playing some pokemon.
• Mar, 19. Watched random youtube videos before class, laughing, talked with nice people, played Brawlhalla with a lot of friends, my wounds burn.
• Mar, 20. Rock bottom, Jane McGonigal, they made me laugh, multiplayer thumb wrestling, Brawlhalla until 2 AM.
• Mar, 21. Digital paints, Habib's with my friends, went out to play more games, Sagrada and Modern Art, friends.
• Mar, 22. Random conversations in class, went out with my friends from uni and met Minas, dinner (ice cream) at the mall, call with the CDF, Brawlhalla with my friends.
• Mar, 23. Woke up late, Pokemon Fire Red with Gustavo, watched a dull movie, this strange angst feeling, random youtube videos.
• Mar, 24. Cleaned the house, sister + nephews visit, hot dog, drawing for a friend, a strange Stardew Valley gameplay.
• Mar, 25. Tired, rehearsal, nice and productive class, brainstorming game ideas, he's cute.
• Mar, 26. Nice clothes, rehearsal, presentation, laughing, Jurassic Park.
• Mar, 27. Working on assignments, Queer Eye, sleeping too much, missing school, procrastinating.
• Mar, 28. Painting Hilda on Photoshop, happy with my work, missing someone, hungry, drawing the Girl with a Pearl Earring for my class.
• Mar, 29. Random conversations with my friends, laughing about my poorly drawn cloud, feelings I don't want to have, call with the CDF, Pokemon Fire Red with Gustavo.
• Mar, 30. Pokemon Fire Red with Gustavo, studying a lot, microwave brownie, Brawhalla with some friends, Boy Erased.
• Mar, 31. Slept too much and ended up not going out with my friends, 100 things to do before I die, bullet journal, drawing, insomnia.

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• April
• Apr, 01. Messy hair, colic, brainstorming game ideas, Mama (Rudy Mancuso), call to solve problems.
• Apr, 02. Feeling sleepy all day, nice design class, too many things to solve in too little time, anxiety, "I've been thinkin' 'bout you".
• Apr, 03. Game History test that I aced, conversations, dinner in the mall with some friends, I definitely have a crush, call with Gustavo.
• Apr, 04. Was late to important things, bus travel to buy school material, lunch in the university, went to play Istanbul and Tickets to Ride with some friends, nice small talk with him.
• Apr, 05. Amazing art class, lots of game ideas, meeting at my friend's house to develop the first prototype of our game, walks and conversations with him, feeling of realization.
• Apr, 06. Analysing board games, another meeting at my friend's house to develop the first prototype of our game, rain, excitement about our game, Don't Starve Together until 4 AM.
• Apr, 07. Started writing a review, watched Sabrina, drew a little, studied German, music.
• Apr, 08. Game prototype presentation, crush, random conversations, heavy rain, good self-esteem.
• Apr, 09. Sleepy, cold, boring class, being random, feeling unproductive.
• Apr, 10. Don't Starve Together until 2:30 AM, my teacher likes my game project, kinda flirting, feeling silly, slept early.
• Apr, 11. Woke up early, Photoshop class, strange edits, silly smiles, Don't Starve Together.
• Apr, 12. High expectations, my friend's birthday party, dancing without caring for what people think, proximity and touches, drinking.
• Apr, 13. Art museum, beauty, weariness, deep conversations, this strange sadness that has no reason to be here.
• Apr, 14. Missing, analyzing games, call with the CDF, Don't Starve Together, old habits die hard.
• Apr, 15. Disagreements, random conversations unrelated to the class, call, game analysis, drawing for my project.
• Apr, 16. Billie Eilish, talking and laughing with my teacher, my friends, Brawlhalla, anxiety.
• Apr, 17. Nice game history class, anxiety, wanting to die, Rafa, Brawlhalla with Gabs + uni friends.
• Apr, 18. Trying to edit on Photoshop, teasing my crush, had a "small" mental breakdown, couldn't bring myself to finish my assignment, Don't Starve Together with Gustavo.
• Apr, 19. Woke up late, call with the CDF, Habblet, finished my analysis (fucking finally), started Osmosis on Netflix.
• Apr, 20. Photoshop edits, call with Le + Paulo + Fred and Rafa, Notpron, being a noob in LOL, random and strange conversations.
• Apr, 21. Spent a lot of time in the subway, visited my family, ate pizza, bus travel, I've missed them.
• Apr, 22. Played Karuba and Ticket to Ride Europa in board game class, proximity, I have a big fucking crush on him, drawing for my game, Brawlhalla with my friends.
• Apr, 23. Chocolate, drawing, too discouraged to do anything, Queer Eye, My Best Friend.
• Apr, 24. He, disagreements about our game, sadness, drawing, insomnia.
• Apr, 25. Insecure, wanting to die, disillusion, unproductiveness, sleeping early.
• Apr, 26. Drawing class, Pokemon Fire Red with Gustavo, She-Ra and the Princesses of Power, "get over it", tired.
• Apr, 27. Bonding (Netflix), Don't Starve, CallMeKevin, little social interaction, bullet journaling.
• Apr, 28. Working on my game, Formula 1, Gabs' day preparations, music, Don't Starve Together with Gabs + Le + Paulo.
• Apr, 29. Second prototype presentation, that strange atmosphere between me and him, Brawlhalla with my uni friends, failing miserably on League Of Legends, Youtube.
• Apr, 30. Analysing movie posters in class, a new hope (?), he, Don't Starve Together with Gustavo and Gabs, calls.

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• May
• May, 01. Discord "text to talk" at 1 AM, WhatsApp sticker war at 3 AM, Photoshop edits, calls, Magic Arena.
• May, 02. Working on my project, test, we went to the graphics to make the budget of the game, good time with him, Not Tonight.
• May, 03. Lecture on game mechanics, experiences exchange with our veterans, talk about trans representation in games, nice time with my friends, disappointment.
• May, 04. Spent the day depressed, a big fucking disappointment, decisions, Magic Arena, Gustavo and Gabs.
• May, 05. My friend's birthday party, sang until I had no voice, drank way too much, confessions, crying.
• May, 06. Anxiety, sadness, FOOLS (Troye Sivan), working on my game, Photoshop.
• May, 07. Kpop, design class, Helvetica, still working on my game, "when I watch the world burn, all I think about is you".
• May, 08. They are closer now, sleepy in class, working on the game, sadness, unproductive.
• May, 09. Total Rickall, "game jam" at my friends' house, working on my game with my friends/team, no sleeping, healing.
• May, 10. Split (2016), went to uni without going home, random art class, feeling better, drawing with charcoal.
• May, 11. Not Tonight, procrastinating, finishing drawing for my game (almost there!), dating apps, Photoshop.
• May, 12. Mother's day, went to visit my family, my siblings, was sleepy all day, Not Tonight.
• May, 13. Less worried now, fucking finally finished the pieces of the game, still lots of things to do, writing the game manual, losing track of time.
• May, 14. Slept too much, went to uni early, anxiety, trying to solve problems that go beyond my abilities, working on the game manual.
• May, 15. Depressed, we went to the graphics to pay the game, spent all my money, "I don't wanna be afraid anymore", working on what? the game of course.
• May, 16. Woke up really late, drawing a paper toy for my test, call with my friends <3, drawing with charcoal, feeling better.
• May, 17. Finishing the game (finally), drawing class, my teacher liked my drawings, anxiety, Magic Arena.
• May, 18. A Plague Tale: Innocence, sister and nephews, Not Tonight, call with my friends, Don't Starve with Gabs and Davi.
• May, 19. Don't Starve, Robert Pattinson, Life is Strange 2, Doctor Who, lethargy.
• May, 20. MTG with my classmates, random day, Sim City 5, procrastinating, Bitlife.
• May, 21. Design test, I went to the mall with my friends, milkshake, The Sims 4, craving.
• May, 22. Game history class, played Parade, The Art of Game Design, The Sims 4, Sim City.
• May, 23. Missed a job interview cause who cares, Parade, Gartic, nice class, The Sims 4.
• May, 24. Dancing to Do It All The Time while I dressed up, drew a living model in art class, went to the mall with my friends to eat ice cream, deep conversations, call with Ale and Gustavo.
• May, 25. The Sims 4, call, Do It All The Time (IDKHOW), A Plague Tale: Innocence, acceptance with a little bit of melancholy.
• May, 26. Woke up late, procrastinating, The Sims 4, anxiety, feeling down again.
• May, 27. Panic attack, Carcassonne, The Art of Game Design, The Sims 4, youtube.
• May, 28. Design class, laughing a lot with my friends, we went to the mall because of Vivian's birthday, music, remembering the feeling.
• May, 29. Easy test, hungry, history class, kinda disappointed, dancing around the house.
• May, 30. Didn't go to college, Pokemon FireRed, call with Gustavo, my game is finished, Marvel's Runaways.
• May, 31. Living model class, my teacher liked my game, feeling isolated, argument, Marvel's Runaways.

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• June
• Jun, 01. Game playtest, old friends, train travel, heavy conscience, missing.
• Jun, 02. My cat, loneliness, sadness, Moonlight, cold.
• Jun, 03. Presentation, cold, mug cake, Don't Starve, Final Space.
• Jun, 04. Didn't go to class again, Pokemon FireRed, Don't Starve Together, it's too cold, Final Space is a masterpiece.
• Jun, 05. No class again, Pokemon FireRed, Don't Starve, finishing my next presentation, series.
• Jun, 06. Last day without class, Pokemon FireRed, call with Gabs and Gustavo, CallmeKevin, Don't Starve Together with Gabs.
• Jun, 07. Final presentation, a good type of anxiety, went to the mall with my friends, call, slept early.
• Jun, 08. Don't Starve Together with Gabs, cold, Black Mirror, Youtube, eating a lot.
• Jun, 09. Brazil in the Women's World Cup, drawing my friends, Youtube, procrastinating, Ace Attorney.
• Jun, 10. I won the Spooky Stuff Pack from Sim Guru Duke in a giveaway, making a paper toy, my nephew's birthday, brothers, youtube.
• Jun, 11. Procrastinating, bills, anxious to play Oxygen Not Included, Don't Starve, painting with color pencil.
• Jun, 12. Last day before finals, Oxygen Not Included, failed the mission of printing my paper toy, drawing, The Death and Life of Marsha P. Johnson.
• Jun, 13. Making my paper toy, helping them with their paper toy (pretty stressful), computer graphics test, Patuscada (a kind of Cards Against Humanity), Bastille's new album.
• Jun, 14. Arts test, general strike, crazy bus and train travel, back to Jundiaí, family.
• Jun, 15. My nephew school dance, bowling, went to the mall, Mauro's birthday, Don't Starve Together with Gabs + call with CDF.
• Jun, 16. Back home, call with CDF, Pokemon FireRed, Oxygen Not Included, Pokemon Go.
• Jun, 17. Boardgame test, sick, went to the mall with my friends, french fries with ice cream for dinner, call with my uni friends.
• Jun, 18. Design test, really sick, went to the mall again but wanting to die this time, medicine, sleeping too much.
• Jun, 19. The last test, I'm free from Uni (until August, at least), went to the mall again cause neither I nor my friends have a life, Oxygen Not Included, Youtube.
• Jun, 20. The Sims 4, Bitlife, desire to ignore everyone, impulse buying, Don't Starve Together with Gabs.
• Jun, 21. Call, Don't Starve Together with Gabs and Gus, preparations, Youtube, CallMeKevin.
• Jun, 22. Headliner: Novinews, anxiety, Alessa came to stay the night, dinner at the mall, Pokemon Go.
• Jun, 23. Pride parade, a lot of LGBT people, music, I bought a trans flag, love my friends.
• Jun, 24. Headliner: Novinews, Don't Starve Adventure Mode, The Sims 4, not much to do, started Good Omens.
• Jun, 25. Finished Good Omens at 5 AM, random youtube videos, daydreaming, Polytopia, The Edge of Democracy.
• Jun, 26. Comics on Tapas, went to sleep at 5 AM again, youtube, call with CDF, drawing.
• Jun, 27. Pokemon Go, train travel, back home, family, The Sims 4.
• Jun, 28. Pokemon Go, supermarket, family, The Sims 4, hamburgers.
• Jun, 29. Brother and niece, barbecue, car travel, my aunts, haircut.
• Jun, 30. Bus travel, didn't sleep, The Penumbra Podcast, Aparecida, fatigue.

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• July
• Jul, 01. Woke up early, The Penumbra Podcast, went to São Paulo to pay my tuition, Pokemon Go, The Sims 4.
• Jul, 02. The Penumbra Podcast, call with CDF, struggles to play Minecraft, lazy day, trying random things on The Sims 4.
• Jul, 03. The Penumbra Podcast, eating a lot, random games on my phone, The Sims 4, started watching Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency.
• Jul, 04. Rain, Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency, taking care of my nephews, fuck plans I guess, The Penumbra Podcast.
• Jul, 05. Cold, call, Minecraft, anxiety, Stranger Things.
• Jul, 06. Music, visited the new store at the mall, Stranger Things 3, cold, Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency.
• Jul, 07. Cold, Homescapes, Avicii, drawing, The Sims 4.
• Jul, 08. Trailer de Pokemon, Minecraft, call with CDF, Youtube, a kind of disagrement with Gustavo but not really a disagrement cause we have two brain cells.
• Jul, 09. Twitter, Youtube, drawing, Maurinho, Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency.
• Jul, 10. Ophthalmologist, Maurinho, drawing, call with CDF, Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency.
• Jul, 11. Maurinho, CDF, remembering this group history, packing, call.
• Jul, 12. Music, bus travel, mom, stepfather, mobile games.
• Jul, 13. Woke up at 4 AM, car travel, different cities, Minas Gerais, eating a lot.
• Jul, 14. Cheesee, a relative's birthday, pictures, drawing, boredom.
• Jul, 15. Angry, wanting to go home, walk around the city, boredom, mobile games.
• Jul, 16. Really angry, boredom, not eating, conversations, games.
• Jul, 17. Car travel, a long way back home, Rio de Janeiro, São Paulo, music.
• Jul, 18. Woke up late, it's good to be home, Minecraft with CDF, random youtube videos, being alone.
• Jul, 19. Call with CDF, Minecraft with Ale, Thaumcraft, noisy house, wasting my school break??
• Jul, 20. Designing an RPG that I know no one will play, reading the D&D player handbook, Minecraft with Ale, dark magic :o, we were afraid of the mods we installed.
• Jul, 21. Visited SP, brother and niece, car travel, pokemon go, Minecraft with Ale and arguing with CDF.
• Jul, 22. Still writing that RPG campaign, call with Ale and Gus, trying to build a house in Minecraft, the new BNHA chapter, The Babadook.
• Jul, 23. Tapas' Comics, CallmeKevin and RTGames, call with CDF, Minecraft with Gabs and Ale, changing my Listography.
• Jul, 24. Jack Antonoff, dentist, buying things to decorate my jeans, mom, witchery on Minecraft.
• Jul, 25. Daydreaming, bored, Thaumcraft on Minecraft, Saint Seiya: Knights of the Zodiac, Love Death & Robots.
• Jul, 26. Woke up early, Etec ♡, old friends, talking about my experiences, comics.
• Jul, 27. Went to the park with my friends and family, Pokemon Go feat Raffa and Dan and Alessa, sun, pizza, Spotify playlists.
• Jul, 28. Woke up early, my cat, Lights Out, youtube ghost videos, Saint Seiya: The Lost Canvas.
• Jul, 29. Don't Starve Together (alone), call with Gus and we talked about old men, then Ale joined us, scary youtube videos, I downloaded a dating app for some reason.
• Jul, 30. Call with CDF, my cats, Oxygen Not Included, youtube, started watching Titans.
• Jul, 31. Sunny day, Oxygen Not Included, trying to draw on my bullet journal, call with CDF, AAAAAAARRRGHHHHJDSANSAKFFBDSJVNMVD.

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• August
• Aug, 01. Pain, my cats, I practiced yoga, I decolored my hair, Oxygen Not Included.
• Aug, 02. I spent all day in call with Gabs, Gus and Ale joined us later, reading fanfic, finally liking my hair, She-ra season 3.
• Aug, 03. Finished She-ra season 3 and now I'm sad™, back home, bullet journal, Dick Grayson, finished Titans.
• Aug, 04. Woke up really late, bullet Journal, The Sims 4 videos, downloaded some new The Sims 4 custom content and mods, no dinner.
• Aug, 05. Cold, back to university ieei, nice character design class, The Sims 4 videos, didn't eat well today.
• Aug, 06. Animation class, random Gobelins videos on Youtube, why some people can't just shut the fuck up, CDF being horny, Creeper aw man so we back in the mine...
• Aug, 07. Measles vaccine, programming class, call with Ale and Gus, The Code, depressed.
• Aug, 08. Game project class, university friends, I was the traitor on Betrayal at House on the Hill, Sentinels of the Multiverse, I got home late.
• Aug, 09. Music class, random vines, feeling alone, Revenge song, comics.
• Aug, 10. Sister and nephew, new projects, call with Ale and Gus, youtube videos, Equilinox.
• Aug, 11. Father's day, brother and niece, guessing countries, old stuff, The Sims 4.
• Aug, 12. Storyboard class, drawing, call with CDF, youtube, sleeping late.
• Aug, 13. Animation class, writing my RPG character, not eating, NB: My non-binary life, too tired.
• Aug, 14. NB: My non-binary life, programming class, lessons I already know, finished my RPG character, Rim of the World.
• Aug, 15. Feeling down, unity class, Hyper Light Drifter, call with CDF, Minecraft Story Mode.
• Aug, 16. Music class, McDonalds, working with Adobe Audition, call with CDF, The Sims 4.
• Aug, 17. Story ideas, The Sims 4, call with CDF, cooking, Shadowhunters.
• Aug, 18. Cleaned my room, call with CDF, programming, The Sims 4, Shadowhunters.
• Aug, 19. Character design class, pizza, meeting to talk about problems in my university, feeling alone, Shadowhunters.
• Aug, 20. Animation class, watching Woody Woodpecker in class, drawing, talking about gender diversity and sexuality, meeting new people.
• Aug, 21. Programming class, things I already know, working on The Code with Gustavo, call with Ale and Gus, talking with new people.
• Aug, 22. Unity class, pizza and french fries at my friends' home, D&D with my friends, I was unlucky with the dices, feeling kinda hopeless.
• Aug, 23. Skipped class, call with Ale and Gus, The Sims 4, random youtube videos, I'm really depressed.
• Aug, 24. Call with CDF, drawing pieces of my new story, working on the new story, The Sims 4, watching videos about tarot.
• Aug, 25. Laundry day, studying tarot, call with Ale and Gus, The Sims 4, The Handmaid's Tale.
• Aug, 26. Character design class, headache, drawing animals in class, random Youtube videos, I watched Coco.
• Aug, 27. Animation class, random youtube videos, Ancestors: The Humankind Odyssey, studying witchcraft, programming.
• Aug, 28. Programming class and socializing with my teacher, I'm feeling a lot more confident in my programming skills, call with CDF, I wanted to watch Spiderman Into the Spiderverse but my internet couldn't download it, watched some gameplays of Godhood.
• Aug, 29. Taking care of my hair, Unity class and programming, studying about hedge crossing and different paths of witchcraft, my internet connection was really bad all day, I watched Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse.
• Aug, 30. Music class and mental breakdown cause I can't fucking understand this class, shopping, sister and nephews, call with Gabs and Ale and David, I watched some Men of Medan gameplays on youtube.
• Aug, 31. I restarted my decades challenge on The Sims 4, I watched some scary videos on youtube, tried to watch Maurice but I don't really have lucky with downloading movies, started watching Kimetsu No Yaiba, late-night sadness cause I want a boy/girlfriend.

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• September
• Sep, 01. Tarot readings, I got to 1910 on my The Sims 4 Decades Challenge, call with Ale Gabs and David, my mom saying I need to take care of myself cause I'm ugly, "Now we shan't ever be parted. It's finished." - Alec Scudder (Maurice, 1987).
• Sep, 02. Late-night depression, character design class and some ideas for a Little Red Riding Hood redesign, feeling good on my clothes, procrastinating watching videos, I started to work on my depression.
• Sep, 03. Animation class in which I totally got distracted with random drawings, we went to eat esfihas after class and talked about our parents and memes, I played Minecraft with my friend Leticia, Gustavo is alive and everything is fine again, everything is making me super tired so I went to sleep early.
• Sep, 04. I bought a drawing tablet finally, we started to plan and program our next game, call with CDF, Nintendo Direct and new pokémons!!, I kept watching random youtube videos until 1 AM.
• Sep, 05. I feel so fucking tired, planning the game with my group, I ate esfihas with my friends, I spent most of the night watching random youtube videos, watched some episodes of Kimetsu no Yaiba.
• Sep, 06. I went to college but we didn't have class, my Wacom arrived!!!, installing drives and coming to the conclusion that I really hate my computer, call with CDF, good conversations.
• Sep, 07. Meeting with Gabs (and her sister and brother in law), walking around the mall and entering every store we could find, we ate too much, "wasting" my money on random things that make me happy, I was kinda anxious cause I have lots of assignments to finish.
• Sep, 08. Anxiety because I was not doing my assignments, studying for my online classes, lots of youtube videos, listening to some new songs I am addicted to, I played some The Sims 4.
• Sep, 09. Studying heroes in my character design class, drawing the Little Red Riding Hood for my assignment, call with Ale and Gus, The Sims 4 Gameplay Livestream, watching TV and scrolling through Twitter mindlessly.
• Sep, 10. Making animations in class, anxiety because I have too much to do, call with Ale and Gus, finishing some programs due tomorrow, my mom called and I miss her.
• Sep, 11. Really nice programming class, I spent a good time trying to solve the class exercises, call with Gustavo, I played some The Sims 4 Realm of Magic, had a small mental breakdown because I could not finish my assignment.
• Sep, 12. Woke up early to go to college and try to finish my assignment, it didn't work well, my group ended up with a horrible presentation lol, I watched some dumb Wilbur videos on youtube, I was so tired from everything that I went to sleep really early.
• Sep, 13. Music class and this time I really enjoyed it, I "forced" my friend to watch Wilbur's videos and we laughed for 10 minutes straight, All For You by Years & Years, played more The Sims 4, I am procrastinating again.
• Sep, 14. I tried drawing for my assignment but I decided to give up midway, my brother came by to visit, call with Ale and Gus, we started playing a super hostile map on Minecraft, Gus and I planned our hooptober movie list.
• Sep, 15. Writing the story of my redesign character, drawing my redesign character, actually losing brain cells trying to make it look good, I watched lots of youtube videos while I was drawing because I can't really focus on just one thing at a time, I played some The Sims 4 after to de-stress.
• Sep, 16. I finally submitted my assignment and I want to forget it ever existed, random conversations with my friends, Leticia and I took some time to plan the next steps of our game's design, trying to program for my next class but I can't figure out how to make the object follow a straight line, remaking my hooptober list.
• Sep, 17. I had a nice animation class, conversations with the members of my group, programming (again iei), random drawings with a red pen, I am starting to feel like I am not really that lost in life.
• Sep, 18. I really like my programming class, I made a really simple game on processing, I spent the rest of the day trying to finish a build on unity playground but it hates me, Gus and I finally uploaded our hooptober lists to out Letterboxd, I watched some youtube videos until I went to sleep.
• Sep, 19. Leticia and I watched vines while trying to program and I think at this point our life is really just this vine, I was able to program something and show a good prototype to my professor, it rained, I bought Dead by Daylight do play with my college friends, I watched some ghost hunters but didn't find anything good.
• Sep, 20. We studied and made a soundscape in class, call with CDF but everyone is doing something and no one says shit, then everyone left to do something cool and Gus and I - as the losers we are - talked about our existential crisis and life in general, for the number of videos from Jschlatt and Wilbur playing Minecraft I watch youtube must have lost all hopes in me, I watched a couple of episodes of Kimetsu no Yaiba.
• Sep, 21. We (CDF) went in call twice today, really random conversations, we played Habblet and oh god, my sims married in The Sims 4, I watched more Kimetsu no Yaiba.
• Sep, 22. Laundry day even if it's too cold outside, I filed my nails so they got pointy, lots of sims died while I was playing The Sims 4, I watched a couple of random ghost hunting videos, Gabs + Leticia and I played Don't Starve Together.
• Sep, 23. Reading the Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft, drawing different poses in class, learning a little bit more about the paranormal, I studied for my test, I discovered new songs.
• Sep, 24. Reading the Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft in the bus, deities and magical paths, I made a little animation in class, I stayed late to finish my game prototype (didn't really work), I ended up sleeping while studying.
• Sep, 25. New day more pages of Buckland's Complete Book of Witchcraft to read, I want a witch altar now, I aced my test, Little Misfortune, feeling useless.
• Sep, 26. Every Thursday is a time to freak out about your game prototype and how everything is going wrong, I spent a lot of time with Leticia, we talked about witchcraft, we went to eat esfihas, preparations for Gus' birthday.
• Sep, 27. My friends and I voiced some characters in class in three different languages that none of us actually speaks, after class we put this video to play at the same time in every computer, then we went to the game room to see Leticia completely lost trying to play Zelda, the boys (Buzzfeed Unsolved) are back, I watched the whole first season of The Office and some episodes of Kimetsu no Yaiba.
• Sep, 28. Call with Ale and Gus, I changed my twitter layout for the Halloween, I watched some Kimetsu no Yaiba, ghost hunting videos, ideas from another new story.
• Sep, 29. I finally updated my windows, I started to download the movies for the hooptober, random doodles while my brother was on my pc, Gus + Gabs and I spent the day in call, we sang together and remembered 2015.
• Sep, 30. Daydreaming, character design class, I scored 5th place in our class' ranking because of the redesign I made, I finally got to work on my game from home, time is passing by faster than I can tell.

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• October
• Oct, 01. The first day of Inktober, a really strange animation class, I organized my room so now I have an altar space, doing magick, David + Gus and I watched Extraterrestrial Visitors and WHAT THE FUCK.
• Oct, 02. A really rare moment of good self-esteem, I discovered I can really enjoy programming sometimes, the best class of the week <3, I watched The Howling and I hated every second of it, anxiety because of the pitching tomorrow.
• Oct, 03. I made a very sleep-deprived and anxious presentation, things worked out in the end I guess, I downloaded a lot of mods to The Sims, we tried to watch Ganja and Hess but failed miserably, drawing owls for my Inktober.
• Oct, 04. I went shopping with my mom and she spent all my money lol, I bought new glasses, making loops in my audio design class, Leticia and I watched Suspiria together, preparing to visit my sister.
• Oct, 05. I went to Jundiai to visit my sister, we ate sushi, I bleached my hair again because why not, I spent the day too tired to function properly, I finished some assignments.
• Oct, 06. It's nice to be with my family, I watched random youtube gameplays until I found a game to play, I played Chinese Parents, travel back home, The Grimorium Verum.
• Oct, 07. I remade my CV to try and look for a job again, character design class, drawing dragons, I might be getting sick, Youtube.
• Oct, 08. I did almost nothing productive today, Unity tried to kill me of anger, my friends and I went to eat esfihas, I helped Vivian to program a menu to her game, Vampire The Masquerade.
• Oct, 09. I went to a job interview but shouldn't have gone really, programming class, helping my friends with Java, I played some The Sims 4, also played some Chinese Parents.
• Oct, 10. Didn't go to class today, finished more assignments, call with Ale and Gus, dragons, I played Do Not Feed The Monkeys.
• Oct, 11. Audio production class, I made a small song looping in class, some ideas for my character design assignment, call with CDF, I played some Chinese Parents.
• Oct, 12. Tidying up my room, remembering past crushes, call with CDF, I played Do Not Feed The Monkeys, working on my character design.
• Oct, 13. Pretty hot weather, organizing my things and trying to feel less useless, conversations with CDF, my notebook's charger has stopped working, I watched the full moon for a little bit.
• Oct, 14. More random conversations with CDF, design class and failing in drawing people in those different styles, I gave up and drew the spider man dancing frevo, Leticia² and I bought KitKats in the mall, we also visited the Cacau Show store and it's beautiful.
• Oct, 15. Meeting of class representatives, programming during my class because I DON'T HAVE A PC ANYMORE, the two Leticias + Vivian and I went to eat esfihas again, random call with David and Gabs, Will Smith eating pastry.
• Oct, 16. Nice conversations outside, programming class, breaking Processing with infinite loopings, I have my PC back, feeling tired.
• Oct, 17. Didn't go to class, working on my character design, reading the Vampire: The Masquerade RPG book, anxiety and depression™, Brazil's government going crazy.
• Oct, 18. I went in some optics to budget my glasses, audio production class, I introduced My Chemical Romance to my friend Leticia, listening to MCR during the class, played some Cultist Simulator.
• Oct, 19. Gus and I played some Pokemon FireRed, Call with Gabs and Gus, I worked on my character design, I played Minecraft, Gabs' new cat.
• Oct, 20. I finally finished my game's camera script, call with Gabs and Gus, random conversations with my friends, I watched some gameplay of The Beast Inside, random videos on youtube.
• Oct, 21. Character design class, drawing objects in the wrong perspective, I met these two very different people, we went from class to class talking about the academic directory we are setting up, I got to talk a lot about my course and got some tips from the veterans.
• Oct, 22. The Sims 4 new expansion trailer, I did the layout for most of my game's levels, I made the research for my character design, call with Gabs and David, Egyptian mythology.
• Oct, 23. Programming class, fish stickers, I bought a cake to reward myself, call with CDF, drawing on Photoshop.
• Oct, 24. Academic Directory meeting, programming some levels in class, playing with my Rubik's cube, my friends and I went to eat esfihas again, I started a spreadsheet of the people in the DA group.
• Oct, 25. Audio Production test, CDF's almost defeat, call with Gus and Gabs, finishing the spreadsheet, daydreaming about Stardew valley.
• Oct, 26. Call with Gabs and Gus, Orphans by Coldplay, more drawing on Photoshop, I played some Stardew Valley cause I don't know how to handle responsibilities, working on the character design again.
• Oct, 27. Halloween call, we (Gabs, Gus and I) did our costumes in call, I wrote a little bit more of my character story, I don't want to do any more work for this assignment, I finished Kimetsu no Yaiba.
• Oct, 28. Character design class, I showed my work to my class monitor and she liked, I started to design the clothing of my characters, I bought açaí, I went to sleep at 19 o'clock.
• Oct, 29. I woke up at 3 AM, call with CDF, I finished one drawing of my assignment, feeling like my body is giving up on me, I was not made to have friends.
• Oct, 30. I monitored an exposition for the Directory Academic, lunch with Leticia, programming class, weakness, wanting to die.
• Oct, 31. Once again I monitored the exposition for the Directory Academic, I drew a snake and I liked it, lunch with Leticia again, my game is not as bad as I thought it was, My Chemical Romance is fucking back (for one show at least).

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• November
• Nov, 01. Audio production class, I tried to put a soundtrack in a video, talking about MCR, some random videos, doing nothing for the rest of the day.
• Nov, 02. Applying for jobs, drawing on photoshop, listening to music, They/Them/Theirs podcast, blocking terfs on twitter.
• Nov, 03. Drawing on Photoshop again, I finished my assignment, Bea + David and I trying to pronounce difficult words, disagreements, I started watching Mob Psycho 100.
• Nov, 04. Character design class, I watched a lecture about personal projects, I found inspiration to start improving my drawings, CDF, working on my game.
• Nov, 05. I had a haircut, took an important college exam, call with Ale and Gus, my family fighting with each other, programming.
• Nov, 06. I started watching She-ra, programming test, ignoring my responsibilities again, I love Double Trouble, I finished She-ra.
• Nov, 07. Finishing my game, I sent the second prototype of my game, call with CDF, youtube, waiting for my birthday.
• Nov, 08. I became 19 years old, the birthday present my friends made for me, class in the audio studio, I went to visit my family, Mob Psycho 100.
• Nov, 09. Birthday party, my family, lots of food, small talk with my relatives, Mob Psycho 100.
• Nov, 10. Family problems, anxiety all day long, I understood how much of a mediocre person I am, I came back home, random drawings.
• Nov, 11. Character design class, we have a new assignment, I started to make my version of Pong for my class, Welcome to Hell, Love, Simon.
• Nov, 12. Animation class, I continued making my version of Pong, call with CDF, Picrew, Mob Psycho 100.
• Nov, 13. Programming class, still making my version of Pong, academic directory assembly, missed opportunities, fights between my friends.
• Nov, 14. Meeting of class representatives, lunch with Leticia B., my group is useless and now I have lots of things to do for our game, being sad, watching this vine compilation.
• Nov, 15. Call with Gus and Ale, me failing in play The Sims 4, Gus and I talking about university + boomers + future + ancient civilizations + geopolitics + esoterism + and a lot of other things, we changed a bit our Listography, I had fun scaring Gustavo during the call.
• Nov, 16. I watched some Planet Zoo gameplays, call with Ale and Gus, we played Minecraft, I worked on my game for a while, I watched some Beautiful Bones: Sakurako's Investigation.
• Nov, 17. Watermelon sugar by Harry Styles, call with Ale and Gus, making new lists on this website, Gus and I finding random strange images on Twitter, I finished Beautiful Bones: Sakurako's Investigation.
• Nov, 18. Character design class, me being in 5th place AGAIN, making menus and random improvements on my game, pokémon animations, I watched lots of LGBTQ+ Tiktoks.
• Nov, 19. I went to the bank, finishing up my game (there's just a little bit left), Leticia and I being 100% done with our group, watching drama channels on youtube because what is life anymore, played some more The Sims 4.
• Nov, 20. Call with CDF, we played Minecraft; and we built a very nice house, I worked on my game, I voted for some games on The Game Awards.
• Nov, 21. Breathing exercises to deepen my voice, I had a small mental breakdown because life is too much right now, adding the finishing touches to my game, call with Gus and Gabs, Maniac by Conan Gray.
• Nov, 22. I went to class but the teacher let us leave early, call with CDF, I submitted some assignments to my teachers, we tried to play Minecraft but we failed hard, me being useless for the rest of the day.
• Nov, 23. I don't like being diminished by others but I know I am mediocre and this comes with it, call with CDF, I finished my part of the game, I watched Dou kyu sei, I listened The King by Conan Gray in looping for a while™.
• Nov, 24. Being totally useless, watching random videos about being trans, not doing anything school-related, Gabs, a mix of guilt and anxiety and hopelessness.
• Nov, 25. Skipped class, I worked on my PONG game, Leticia and I were disappointed with our group, being angry, watching videos about being trans on Youtube.
• Nov, 26. Being angrier, I made a small version of pong for my friend, call with CDF, played some Stardew Valley, missed the time to send an assignment.
• Nov, 27. I presented my version of Pong to my teacher, Leticia, call with Ale and Gus, played some more Stardew Valley, I watched the season 3 of The Dragon Prince.
• Nov, 28. Went to class, working on my final presentation, talking with my teacher, call with Gus, research about being trans.
• Nov, 29. Call with Gus and talking about pokemon, still working on my presentation, ignoring all my responsibilities, pre coming out anxiety, Youtube videos about being trans!
• Nov, 30. Went out with my mom, coming out, sister and my nephews, working on my game, depression hit me hard.

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• December
• Dec, 01. Call with Ale and Gus, finished the set up to my presentation tomorrow, added some finishing touches to the game, listening to Japanese music, watched Hoshiai no Sora.
• Dec, 02. I played lots of Stardew Valley, finished my game, I gave the final presentation, call with Ale and Gus, judging people photos on dating apps.
• Dec, 03. Sketching my next assignment, call with CDF, played some Stardew Valley, started watching Final Space, talking with some people on Tinder.
• Dec, 04. I woke up late, call with Gus, drawing on Photoshop, finished Final Space, played some Stardew Valley.
• Dec, 05. I am sick, drawing on Photoshop, sore hands, call with Gus, Stardew Valley.
• Dec, 06. I watched Given, drawing on photoshop, the song Fuyu No Hanashi from Given, I "finished" the first page of my assignment, Stardew Valley.
• Dec, 07. I started studying Japanese, drawing on photoshop, call with Gus (and Ale for a moment), I watched the latest episode of Hoshiai no Sora, I played more Stardew Valley because why not.
• Dec, 08. I studied Japanese, call with CDF, my assignment is fucking finished, I played Stardew Valley, music.
• Dec, 09. Character Design test, drawing, call with CDF, I played Stardew Valley again, I watched God's Own Country.
• Dec, 10. Animation test, I took a new book from the library, conversations with my friends, call with CDF, I played Stardew Valley.
• Dec, 11. I studied Japanese, programming test, call with Gabs and Kody (and David a little after), I played Stardew Valley, in the Stardew Valley's Spirit's Eve Sebastian and I were matching with skeleton costumes.
• Dec, 12. Day to rate our team, I went to the mall with the Leticias, I bought a lot of chocolate, Brian David Gilbert videos, The Game Awards.
• Dec, 13. Audio production test, I went to the mall with my friends, directory academic meeting, Leticia and I went to a "party", drinking and talking with random people.
• Dec, 14. Call with CDF, we played Minecraft, I played Sardew Valley, new group chat, music.
• Dec, 15. Call with CDF, drawing a bit, Gabs and I played Don't Starve Together, I started watching Kyoukai no Kanata, I played Stardew Valley.
• Dec, 16. Making new lists on this website, I played more Stardew Valley, call with CDF, witchcraft name, trying to interact in the new group chat.
• Dec, 17. My friends texting me at 3 AM, I played Stardew Valley, call with CDF, I made the new CDF layout, playing Sudoku.
• Dec, 18. I started planning a new RPG adventure, I played Stardew Valley, call with CDF, trying to draw on photoshop, the neighborhood ran out of electricity for the rest of the night.
• Dec, 19. I played Stardew Valley, call with CDF, I sent my resume to more companies, I listened to Hold On by Chord Overstreet way too many times, sad Gravity Falls AMVs.
• Dec, 20. I started painting at midnight and stayed up until 2:30 AM, I went out to buy some Christmas gifts, call with CDF, I redecorated my Listography, I played Chinese Parents.
• Dec, 21. I woke up earlier than normal, I watched lots of videos from MCR's show, I traveled by train to Jundiaí, met my friends, karaoke and party games.
• Dec, 22. I slept from 6 to 8 AM, train travel back to São Paulo, feeling really sleepy, call with CDF, I played Chinese Parents.
• Dec, 23. My mom came to visit, choices, call with CDF, we played Uno on Transformice, I played some Chinese Parents.
• Dec, 24. I played Chinese Parents, brother and nephews, drawing on Photoshop, Christmas eve, lots of food.
• Dec, 25. Drawing on Photoshop, packing for travel, playing the piano, I played Stardew Valley, I watched some youtube videos.
• Dec, 26. Call with CDF, youtube videos, playing the piano, sore hands, Patrick Wolf.
• Dec, 27. Finished packing, travelled back home, cut and bleached my hair, mom and stepdad, conversations.
• Dec, 28. Car travel, we got to the beach, music, mom, warm weather.
• Dec, 29. Beach, Ice Era 4, Jurassic World, conversation with CDF, The Art of Game Design.
• Dec, 30. Beach, call with CDF, drawing, music, conversations.
• Dec, 31. mom and I walked by the water, beach, preparing for the new year, we went to the beach to see the fireworks, last daaay.

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