• Five things (2019-2022)

January

• Entry 0101. Woke up after 1 PM and stayed in bed until later. I only got up to get some coffee and play Civ 6. Watched Insym's live. I had one assignment to finish but was not working on it.
• Entry 0102. Gus, Ale and I spent some time assembling jigsaw puzzles. I also worked on my assignment, which is due in two days.
• Entry 0103. I went to sleep around 04 AM today, after spending most of the night talking with Gabi. I did some tarot readings as well.
• Entry 0107. My mother and I visited some flats in Osasco. Took the time to start reading a new book. Mom and I talked, had a good time, and then visited my older brother. The four cats are doing fine.
• Entry 0113. Played Phasmophobia with David, Gabs and Gabi.
• Entry 0114. Played Oxygen Not Included for many hours. Also spent some time with Gustavo and Ale.
• Entry 0117. Psychiatrist appointment made me wake up earlier. Afterwards, I played more - because I've been playing for the past few days, even if I didn't record it here - Potion Permit, and talked with Gustavo and Alexandre. At night, I kept reading my book on Celtic mythology.
• Entry 0118. In the morning, I updated my good reads. Around 15:10 Gabi and I played Civilization VI while in a discord call with Gus and Ale. At night, I drew a new background for this site and an icon for my index list.
• Entry 0119. Gabi and I were flirting and now we're going on a date :)
• Entry 0121. Gabi and I went to a museum of zoology in the morning, had lunch at the mall and watched Puss in Boots 2. Afterwards, we talked for hours and didn't seem to be aware of the time passing.
• Entry 0123. Gabi and I (again) played Civ VI together.
• Entry 0127. It was so damn hot I had to go out and buy some ice cream.
• Entry 0128. I visited my sister, her husband and my two nephews. We had a barbecue. I taught my nephew to play Cookie Run. I told my sister about me and Gabi.
• Entry 0129. My sister took me to see her community garden. We had pizza for lunch/dinner (it was very late). I went to a restaurant with my high school friends (Alessa, Dan, Raffa and Minas). Alessa and I talked about changes and things we wish we had done differently.
• Entry 0130. I played more Cookie Run with my nephew. In the afternoon, I took a nap with my sister in the living room. I went home by bus because it was already very late.
• Entry 0131. I had no internet, so I played Oxygen Not Included, listened to music and the Magnus Archives and drew some Jons.

February

• Entry 0201. I woke up late again and played some ONI before going on a discord call with Gus and Ale. Gabi joined us and we played Gartic. Tomorrow I have a date AND it's the Lughnasadh (technically it was today BUT most festivals are celebrated during many days anyways).
• Entry 0202. Gabi and I went to the planetarium for the first time. It was so much fun!!! I love the universe. Then we walked a bit and sat on the grass to talk and be gay together it was very nice. I bought a new necklace and then we had to leave because it was getting dark (and raining).
• Entry 0203. Went to therapy like normal and I talked so much that my psychologist was surprised. I played Civ 6 in the most boring and difficult game I've ever had the displeasure of playing (but I'll persevere, Eleanor of England). I watched Owl House and made it everyone else's problem.
• Entry 0206 to 0210. I had the worst week of the year so far. Didn't do shit, just felt sad and wanted to die — nothing to see here, moving on.
• Entry 0211. Visited my friend Luan with Gabi, Ada and Flores. We played party games and drank a lot. Had some fun. Gabi gave me a lego dinosaur which I called Carlos Eduardo, he's living 100% of the time by my side now.
• Entry 0212. Had the worst hangover of my life lol.
• Entry 0213. Gabi is sad and I don't know how to make things better. I actually can't because she doesn't want to talk to me anymore :)
• Entry 0214. Ale, Gus and I played Roblox and I didn't think about Gabi really hard.
• Entry 0215. Maisie Peters. Discord call with Ale and Gus.
• Entry 0216. Discord call with Ale and Gus. I played Project Zomboid with David (and alone, also). Gabi talked briefly with me. Ale, Gus and I watched Letters to Juliet.
• Entry 0217. I played a little Project Zomboid. Talked with mom (finally). Went to sleep at like 20 PM.
• Entry 0218. I spent the day programming.
• Entry 0219. Played a little Project Zomboid with David. I talked with Gabi again. I started reading a new book.
• Entry 0220. My mom came to visit me, and we talked a lot. Gabs, David, Gabi, Gabriel and I played some Garticphone and Project Zomboid. Then Gabs, Gabriel and I played some Phasmophobia.
• Entry 0221. Discord call with Ale and Gus. Played some Project Zomboid before going to bed.
• Entry 0222 to 0226. Been playing Minecraft non-stop with Gus and Ale.
• Entry 0227. Cleaned my room. Did the laundry. I'm choosing which classes to take next semester. I plan to do some tarot readings today, as well.
• Entry 0228. So I don't remember but I probably just played video games.

March

• Entry 0301 to 0304. The data on these entries have been corrupted.
• Entry 0305. Mom came to visit and somehow managed to make me feel worse about myself than I already was.
• Entry 0306 to 0309. aaaaaaaaaa
• Entry 0310. My psychologist said I might be slightly autistic ???
• Entry 0311. aaaaa.
• Entry 0329. I'm still alive, to the sadness of everyone involved.

April

• Entry 0409. Life summary from the days I've been gone: started an apprenticeship. Went out with a girl I met online. Been sad about my love life. My psychiatrist asked me for a test to know if I'm autistic. My brothers decided to try and make it look like we are a family. I think I'm starting to realize that I deserve better in many parts of my life.

May

• Researched autism non-stop like the crazy person I am. Went to college. Read an awful lot about ancient Greece. It's like I've been living in a haze of some kind, the days all blur together. My brothers almost made me crazy but thank god they went back to ignoring me most of the time. I've still not dealt with the "feelings associated with loss" from my last tarot reading.

June

• Still researching autism :). Somehow I tried focusing on college instead of friendships and ended up focusing on neither (but I learned a lot about how owls mate!). I want to paint my hair red but I also want to bleach my hair white again aaaaa.

July

• I'm learning a lot about myself now that I have a possible diagnosis. I started to realize why I do certain things and why certain things are more difficult for me. The hardest part is to realize that there are certain things I'm not able to do simply because of who I am and I might never be able to do them. That's kind of the point of having a disability but it's hard to get it into your head.

August

• I watched Barbie. I was feeling a little bit on top of the world. I was so caught up with my life and the moment I forgot all about the internet, isn't that something? I had to deal with feelings I had for a friend and how life changed. I think it turned out all right, anyway.

September

• My university went on strike. I gave up studying. Had a bit of a moment feeling depressed. Played a lot of games with Gabs, David and Dan. Had arguments with them. Ended up learning that we are better each doing our own things. Had therapy, and things got better.

October

• I was still all over the place. Played some with Ale and Gus, but my heart is not on it. I feel like I'm getting better at managing my emotions, I feel like I'm getting better at lots of things, but I can't quite place a finger on it yet. So strange.

November

• God. Classes were back and I was NOT prepared. I had so much to do. Went a little insane tbh. Decided to follow in my teacher's footsteps and I'm starting to research the Classic period.

December

• It should be forbidden to have classes in December fr. I started flirting no stop with people because I'm kind of an asshole. Went to my mother's for Christmas, and I think my anxiety is a lot better than it was before. Got fucking sick on New Year's Eve and can't go meet with the cute girl I've been talking to.