Chapter 03. Abandoned shrine

  • "Do you have to go reincarnate or something, why the rush?" - Zhou Zishu.

Chapter 07. Setting off

  • "Now I'm even more certain that he's a beauty, only beautiful people can be that dumb." - Wen Kexing.

Chapter 08. Moonshade

  • After a good while, he replied, "Or you can pick on no one and be a good person like me." Wen 'Good Person' Kexing then left through the window, leaving a speechless Gu Xiang behind staring after him.
  • Were there another person observing - excluding Gu Xiang, of course - they would definitely come to the conclusion that one of these two men was a lunatic.

Chapter 09. In the woods

  • Zhou Zishu felt annoyance creeping up the moment he glanced at that person. He saw Wen Kexing saluting him smilingly, "Ah, how coincidental, Brother Zhou. Seems like we are fated after all; only soulmates would keep crossing paths under the moonlight like this." Zhou Zishu smiled back, "Truly coincidental isn't it, Brother Wen?" Coincidental my ass, you pestilence, he thought.

Chapter 11. The Cave

  • "It might be hard to believe because of how I look, but I swear I'm a good person." - Wen Kexing.

Chapter 13. Exposed

  • "Wen... Kexing, screw... screw your entire ancestors..." - Zhou Zishu.

Chapter 14. Escape

  • "And I'm gonna follow you whether you want me to or not." - Wen Kexing.
  • Looking at Zhou Zishu, Gu Xiang finally understood what the saying "a mule is only obedient when it received a beating" was all about. As for when she looked at Wen Kexing, she finally knew how a person could be so unabashed they would put the rest of the world to shame.

Chapter 15. Tavern

  • Gu Xiang once thought Zhou Zishu was a poor beggar who was too unfortunate to have run into her Master and even sympathized with him; but after that reply, she realized they were just birds of a same damn feather, no wonder they flocked together. She could only hope now that they had each other to mess around and fight their energy away with, they would cause less disaster for the world.
  • Zhou Zishu did an internal introspection; back when he was a half-ghost flitting about the palace, wearing robes and doing murderous business in a mysterious place full of apricot blossoms, he might be brutal, but at least there was a grace to him as a cover. Since when had he become unabashedly shameless? He looked at Wen Kexing's back and thought, a man is known by the company he keeps indeed.

Chapter 16. Spirit Fox

  • Zhou Zishu choked on his wine. Even Wen Kexing had to stare at Cao Weining and thought, We've found a treasure of a boy, haven't we.

Chapter 17. Lapis

  • "Can you pay me back now?" Wen Kexing's face was full of grief. "We already belong to each other, why are you still haggling over that?" As the young man's expression became even more entertaining, Zhou Zishu gripped Wen Kexing's collar and threw the nuisance of a man aside.
  • Wen Kexing suddenly laughed, his hand quick as lightning gripping Zhou Zishu's chin as he leaned down and kissed him.

Chapter 19. Night of fire

  • Zhou Zishu felt like "immoral" was a word made specifically for Wen Kexing.

Chapter 23. Old tales

  • Those who knew me spoke of my sorrows, and those who did not said I was seeking something...
  • "... the Red Child wanted to break the mountain apart to save his mother, but the monk asked for the immortals' help to stop him. The child had the upper hand, but what he didn't anticipate was that the ghosts he lived with also betrayed him and wanted him dead." [...] "why is that?". Wen Kexing answered, "Because there was a big, big secret: The snake spirit was actually not a spirit at all; she was a mere mortal with some cultivation in her. But somehow rumours got out, and she was treated like a demon and was sealed under the mountain. Say, if she was ever released, then wouldn't their family be all normal people? Wouldn't the child be just an ordinary mortal then?"

Chapter 24. Ghost face

  • Zhou Zishu had no interest in all of this; it wouldn't bother him in the slightest even if they beat each other to death.

Chapter 26. Lord Seventh

  • Gu Xiang said, "Master, can you see my fate in the stars too?" Wen Kexing replied, "There will be great disaster happening to you if you don't shut up for a day."

Chapter 29. Belated regrets

  • "Say, do you think... I was born at the wrong time? How fortunate..." He stopped smiling, turned away, and left, leaving a confused Zhou Zishu behind. How fortunate, that I haven't truly fallen for you.
  • One only knew autumn when the cold rain came; parasol trees dying of old age; the suffering of the cold under a thin blanket; wasting your lifetimes away... all belated regrets, in the end, regrets that we hadn't met sooner.

Chapter 33. The master of the ghosts

  • "Who knows, perhaps after I've seen your true face, we develop passionate, torrid emotions for each other, have a one-night stand, and I won't think of you again. But the way you are now... makes me want to live my whole life with you instead." - Wen Kexing.

Chapter 37. Circus

  • Wen Kexing crossed his arms, chuckling, "Great, you took her away, now your reputation as an unorthodox villain is further cemented." He thought about it, then reflected smugly, "That's fine, anyway, I don't have any good reputation either. You're mine, so this counts as sticking together for better or for worse."

Chapter 42. Great ruckus

  • "If I want to save someone, then I'll save them, and if I want to kill someone, then I'll kill them. I'll do as I like, and I'll see who in the world dares to block my path." - Wen Kexing.

Chapter 45. Anticipation

  • A while later, Wen Kexing finally asked, "I say, after spending so much effort all these years, I've finally found this one person that I have affinity with and is to my liking. Can you not die on me?" Zhou Zishu asked in reply, "Is that something I have a say in?"

Chapter 46. Misfortune

  • "Me? I, naturally, was a more special case. I didn't commit any crime and simply entered it cluelessly. Until now, I don't understand how such a good person as I am has coexisted with evil ghosts for so many years. [...]" Zhou Zishu smiled without saying anything, treating whatever he said entirely as bullshit.
  • Wen Kexing disguised himself too well; many times, even Zhou Zishu would mistake him for just an ordinary, talkative man.
  • Zhou Zishu teased, "I thought you said you intended to live and die with me." Wen Kexing chuckled as well, "I said so, but you don't believe it."

Chapter 48. A treacherous situation

  • Zhou Zishu felt like he had come full circle in his life: he had just been called a rice bin* by a glutton, and now, a chatterbox was claiming that he was talkative.
    • rice bin: 饭桶 describes someone useless, but also used to describe someone who eats a lot.

Chapter 53. New year's celebration

  • Out of the blue, a pair of chopsticks reached into his bowl and dropped some food into it. Taken aback, Zhou Zishu raised his head, and saw Wen Kexing - who usually took pleasure in snatching things from people - looking at him with a gentle and warm smile on his face, saying, "Eat something, drunkard." At this, he felt like someone had lightly plucked at a heartstring of his.
  • In his heart, he felt that this was the happiest New Year's celebration that he had ever had in his life.

Chapter 55. Eavesdrop

  • Zhang Chengling tagged along closely behind them, head lowered. He wanted to burrow himself into a crack in the ground.
  • "Husband, you're already a grown adult. How can you be picky about food? This is too unbecoming." Silently, Zhou Zishu turned his face aside and did not look at him. After a long while, he said faintly, "I want a divorce..." Wen Kexing laughed uproariously.

Chapter 56. Black crow

  • All of a sudden, he stopped smiling and looked at Zhou Zishu quietly, as though he had a thousand things to say in that instant, but ultimately resigned all of them to silence.
  • Wen Kexing wrote, stroke by clear stroke, As long as your affection for me is as mine is for you, I will not let it be in vain.
  • Zhou Zishu looked at him in silence for a very long time. Gently, his hand curled closed, and gently, he held Wen Kexing's fingers in his palm. Yet, it was only a brief touch; in the next instant, their hands parted. He lowered his eyes, avoiding Wen Kexing's gaze once more, and sighed almost imperceptibly.
  • Wen Kexing looked at his own fingers, as though the warmth of that person's palm was still on them. But the night breeze was too cold; with a gentle waft of the wind, it dissipated without a trace. At that moment, he could not put words to what he was feeling, and could only - like he was mocking himself - smile bitterly.

Chapter 60. Husband and wife

  • "The willow is verdant in the serene surface of the lake; the flower keeps the distant moon company. Year after year, the same, same scene..." - Liu Qianqiao.

Chapter 64. A gamble on life

  • Wen Kexing looked at him with a strange expression, and asked, "Even if she might not be who you think she is? Even if... you will realise that you don't know her, after all?" Cao Weining said, "Be rest assured, of course I know her."
  • Be rest assured, of course I know her - A-Xiang, you've worried unnecessarily.

Chapter 65. Alarmed

  • Then he closed his eyes and pressed his lips to Zhou Zishu's, casting his heart, affected beyond measure, to the bottommost depths of his decision beyond return, abandoning all further reservations.

Chapter 70. The eve

  • None of you have to worry, actually, he silently thought. Once I find a real road to the human world, I'll turn back into a human, turn into the same as I had been 'outside' — laid-back and even-tempered, no longer temperamental, no longer insane, no longer living a life of casually killing people. There will... be someone beside me, too... he isn't afraid of me, and I'm good to him. He's someone I can be with for a lifetime...

Chapter 77. Finale (III)

  • Wen Kexing got a clear view of the newcomer, only to sigh. "Idiot," he whispered. "Why did you come here?" Zhou Zishu shot him a glance out of the corner of his eye, smiling coldly. "I came to collect your corpse, you loon."
  • "You dare act against who's mine?" - Zhou Zishu.
  • Wen Kexing stared at him for a minute, entranced, then began to smile, reaching a hand up high to grab the air. Zhou Zishu frowned. "What are you doing?". "There’s... light around you," Wen Kexing whispered. "I’m catching it so I can see."
  • Then, he looked into Wen Kexing’s eyes. "I’ll ask you this; do you want to live?" The other watched him in silence for a very, very long time. "Will you... leave me?" Smiling lightly, Zhou Zishu shook his head.
  • Like his life depended on it, Wen Kexing clenched his jaw, grabbed his hand, and forcibly propped himself up. "Live... why wouldn’t I want to live? Why couldn’t I live?! All those shameless, vile people of the world get to live, so why... why can’t I...? I have to..."
  • In the end, however, he simply stared at their entwined hands for a while, smiling gently. Yesterday, he had died when he had gone to bed, then awoken as someone new the next. The years that had passed were for nothing other than awaiting someone like this, who could stay with him both morning and night, holding his hand.

Extra 4. My beloved, my soulmate

  • He just never thought this one decision to give chase was one that would be tied inseparably to the rest of his life.
  • "Think about it, isn’t it too miserable of a life if all you have is yourself and you treat everyone else with wariness? It’s too painful, being a bad person!"
  • A-Xu, why could we both not meet each other ten years earlier? When we met, I have already turned into this thing that is neither human nor ghost, while you are severely injured and at death’s door? Why do all harmonious, perfect families in this world have to be torn apart, why do all soulmates have to lament about meeting too late?
  • It must have been from that moment onwards that one thought started to fester in Wen Kexing’s heart like an obsession. He thought: "Why can’t I act as I like for once? Why can’t I keep him?"
  • Of countless people he had met in this life, there was only one A-Xu who weighed heavily upon his heart. He relented to this beggar, again and again, relented until it scooped into his heart and carved into his bones, and he would still not be willing to go against him even slightly. This must be what it felt like to be human. This...
  • A-Xu had a harsh tongue, but his heart was very soft. A-Xu had already grown so big but he still did not dare to eat walnut. A-Xu was someone who poured alcohol, regardless of good or bad, down his throat like an ox. A-Xu was... Someone that he only met by chance, but also his soulmate, his best friend... his beloved.
  • At that moment, Wen Kexing dazedly thought: if only he can grant me just a tiny bit of his pity, from this moment onwards, as long as he lives one day, I’ll live that day with him; if he departs from this world, I’ll bring grass and oil to cremate myself along with his body, so that even as we turn to ashes, we will still be together. As long as you are willing, as long as you still want me. Am I allowed to make an extravagant wish, to live with you until we are old and grey?
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