for july: wanting to feel warm again / lonely, sweet, & sad / love me whole again

calendar

• ✔ july 1: kalee & elise, 4:00
• ✔ july 3: elise's birthday!
  • my sweet girl is going to be four! how is that possible?
• ✔ july 6: andy, 10:00 / therapy, 1:30
• ✔ july 13: andy, 10:00
• ✔ july 14: haircut, 9:30 / liz, 11:00
• ✔ july 17: work 10:00
• ✔ july 20: andy, 10:00 / therapy, 1:30
• ✔ july 25: work, 9:00
• ✔ july 29: visiting emma
• ✔ july 31: practicum mtg, 2:00

goals

• ✔ start changeling story

hyperfixations

• playing breath of the wild again
• parks & rec... i love everyone so much
• avatar: the last airbender
  • there is nothing i wouldn't do for zuko, aang, and sokka

best moments of the month

• elise saying that i'm her best friend & saying she loves me in her sweet little voice; drinking sangria with my parents; bitsy jumping into my lap and letting me pet her; mars buying us matching necklaces and clipping mine on for me... the tenderness! the intimacy! i'm quaking; meeting jonah; mars dyeing my hair and constantly kissing the side of my head...i'm in love...; my father hugging me to his chest and saying, "if you're asking if i would love you unconditionally, the answer is always yes. you shouldn't ever have to question that."; hugging emma after so many months apart; starting to write something new after having finished tgt