- 01 – zach accidentally(?) calling himself my boyfriend; taking some selfies of myself that i actually liked; officially being done with my first year of graduate school!
- 02 – zach visiting me in animal crossing; reading on the porch with my coffee and blanket; the picnic dinner with drew, melissa, josh, carolyn, and ali; watching the princess bride with kenzie over discord (how i miss her!)
- 03 – watching this is us with my parents; having communion from home
- 04 – facetiming with zach; going for a walk
- 05 – starbucks reopening!; calling andy & having a really good consultation
- 06 – watching the spooky cult show
- 07 – going to bed really early; doing a yoga workout that made me feel strong
- 08 – sleeping early
- 09 – seeing kenzie; catching up on this is us and loving randall and kevin more than ever
- 10 – celebrating mother's day
- 11 – facetiming with bella; buying my skateboard; getting teary-eyed over how much i love my friends
- 12 – ordering pizza and watching unbreakable kimmy schmidt
- 13 – getting dinner with melissa; having a really hard but really necessary convo with drew; the interactive episode of kimmy; the guy trying to feed chick-fil-a fries to the seagulls in the parking lot
- 14 – watching jenny slate's netflix special; crying a lot
- 15 – sitting outside in the sun with melissa
- 16 – talking through the breakup with dad; crying a lot; watching tv with dad and finding small joys in this time of such heartache; being brave and ending things with zach for good even though i still think i'm in love with him
- 17 – spending time with the fam; managing friendship with zach and feeling like maybe i'm not losing him after all
- 18 – facetiming bella; the playlist dana made me; setting boundaries with zach; realizing again how much i love kalee & how grateful i am for her; mars calling and reading me storybooks and stopping my panic attack in its tracks (imagine being loved so well?)
- 19 – realizing mindhunter is a good show, actually
- 20 – skateboarding
- 26 – ending things with zach for good and being brave enough to do it, to let him go, to grieve the love lost
- 27 – watching good omens with evan; having such a powerful session with andy about boundary setting and learning how to be brave while doing it; molly-margaret following me back on instagram & dming me just to say she was thinking of me & sending me love
- 28 – spending the whole day with mars, watching the book of life and feeling them kiss my head, holding their hand. curling up into my bed together and watching them doze off holding my hand. facetiming nick with them and them holding my hand and kissing their wrist and feeling them kiss my face. nick texting me out of the blue just to tell me he loves me.
- 29 – vcing bee; my friends checking in on me; kristen giving me a free therapy session
- 30 – laughing so hard at community with dad that we couldn't breathe; vcing bee; the tortellini dad made for dinner; getting my hair cut
- 31 – watching community with dad; napping in my childhood bed; watching lost
apr 30 2020 ∞
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