Random things about me.

• I'm one of the biggest homemakers you'll EVER meet. No matter what it is, I will try it at least once. Most of the decoration in the house was handmade by me, whether it's been sewn, painted and so on. I don't ever buy cake from the shop, I bake everything myself.
• Music is a big part of my life. And it's always been. Music speaks when I can't find the right words to express how and what I feel. And lately I have found myself listening to a lot of old school music from the 90's.
• I miss Chicago, IL! I was very lucky to get to visit this beautiful city before and I would LOVE to go back. As well as Las Vegas, NV. I've made some wonderful memories in both cities and think about them often.
• I can be very nostalgic. Sometimes I think "Everything was better back then" and it often feels that way for real. Though I wish I did know back then what I know today and would make better choices and worry less about unimportant things. *sigh*
• I cry easily when it comes to TV Shows and movies. I have a very soft spot for touching moments on How I Met Your Mother, The Golden Girls (I still cry like a baby when I watch the very last episode & I probably ALWAYS will), The Walking Dead (Oh, Shane!) and so on.
• I think and ponder more than I speak. In fact, I speak as little as possible. And I don't know why.
• I HATE Facebook! There, I said it. I wish I would have never signed up and I have deactivated my account many, many times already. Nowadays I'm keeping only my closest friends on it to be able to keep up with them. I hardly ever post anything on my own page.
• I'm still trying to "find" myself. Every now and then I still learn something new about myself, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. Ten years ago I thought I would have it all figured out by now, but I guess I don't. And that's OKAY. I'm making progress here and am growing stronger every day.
• One of the biggest dreams and wishes in my life is to get a novel of mine published. I would do pretty much everything to get my written words out there and to be able to walk into a bookstore to find my book on one of the many shelves. I've been writing short stories, poems and novels since I was barely 8 years old, so there is a lot of it today, all tucked away in a box. So far I have written and finished two novels and I'm extremely proud of them. The current one I'm working on, Dark Was The Night, is my baby though. I first started writing it in...oh, that must have been in 2009 I believe, and it's still not completely finished today. It's been a long progress and just this morning I finished re-writing Chapter 10, because I was unhappy with it. It'll be another while before I finish the whole thing, but it's going to be the first novel that I will mail out to different publishers. I'm hoping for the best! :)
• The movie 2012 scares me to no end. The thought and meaning behind the movie gets to me so much. I just can't EVER watch it again. Not even if you paid me for it. Nope. Never again.
• Sometimes I believe I was born to be a mother & housewife. There's almost nothing that I enjoy as much as doing chores around the house, do all the dirty yard work, plan and cook meals, bake a few goodies for the whole family at least once a week and so on and so forth. If I had the choice, I would love to have a son and a daughter in the near future. My heart cries when I think of babies and how much I would love to have one on my own.
• So far I have been in one serious long term relationship. He was my first true love and for a long time I thought he was going to be the one. And for a while he really was. Even though it's been years already, I still think of him every now and then and I was having a lot of trouble "getting over him", but today I can say that I've truly moved on and I'm not feeling any heartache anymore. :) It took me a long time to get where I am today, but in the end it's all about moving on, right?
• I used to read nothing but crime or psycho thriller books, because in my opinion it's the best genre. But last year I started to pick up books from my childhood again, such as The Wild Chicks, Bibi Blocksberg and The Three Investigators. Nowadays there's nothing better than reading these books! :)
• I have been blogging since 2002 and I can't believe it really has been 11 years since I had my first online diary/blog on Xanga.
• I rarely ever like things that are popular or everyone else likes. For example I have never read any of the Harry Potter books, The Fifty Shades books or any other popular books. I did read Twilight and thought it was okay, though this was long before it became so very popular.
• I'm always cold. No matter the season, whether it's winter or summer, my feet are always cold.
• The only way for me to fall asleep is to sleep on my belly. I can never get comfortable when I lay on my back or the side. The weird thing is that I wake up every morning laying on the side with my left arm under my pillow.
• Recently I was diagnosed with ‎Seasonal Affective Disorder SAD. They usually also call it Winter Depression or Winter Blues. But on my part it's Summer Depression & Summer Blues, because summer itself depresses me. Everything about it. The sun, the heat, the humidity.